add math anniversary came into the fifth year anniversary.
Bits and pieces will never disappear across the time,
however it will becoming a significant memories of mine.
I wish the celebration will ongoing up till when I'm old.
From a mighty enemy to an ABCD friend and then to 'at least' a friend who wouldn't harm me.
Broadly speaking,
she had stopped harming me for 9 months.
Shall I considered that as miracle?
Should I thank daddy for praying hard?
Should I be happy that my endurance is all worthwhile?
Should I glad that I could stop screaming the pain physically and emotionally?
Should I feel safe that I can visit her place whenever I want?
Should I feel happy that I can visit her place like it's my zone?
Should I feel appreciate that I have a certain time that I stopped afraid of her?
The feeling is I really hatred this person in my life for the endless hurts she brought into my life.
She hates me unreasonably;
vividly recalled the days she hurts me,
slapped me once, canned me, kicked me, choked my body with bamboo stick, whacked me with wooden rod, wallop me limitless with spatula, dragged me brutally along the stony surface, putting her dog by my side, coerced me with reflective knife, almost killed me with that knife, cut my wrist with knife edge, intended to cook me by using cooking bowl and so on.
I endured those scenarios but closed up my eyes,
because it's too brutal for me.
I never experienced those incidents in my life before,
it's really rare, unlucky and painfully.
It's hard to imagine those nights how I slept with soaked tears, with pills and with photos.
This is what happened when I missed one day pill :(
*panda eyes
This is what happened when I missed one day pill :(
*panda eyes
I feel that I needed to test her once again,
see whether she still have bad intention towards me or not?
Maybe ask her again the reason why she canned me freely and see how's her reaction ...
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