LOL!

We are the same kind of people who under same category

Pn Lye and me are under the same category - number 4.

Funny!

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1….
If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2…
If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3…
If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4…
If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5…
If U were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then U r number 6…
If U were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then U r number 7…
If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8…
If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9

Number 1
You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,Jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities, Famous person… always want to be and regarded as first on people position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people!
You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views
And you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.
If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too…
Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children… You are pioneer, independent & original…
Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

Number 2
No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. You are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication.
Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).
If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, any Artistic business people!
You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or Vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of Your family…You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!
Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!

Number 3
You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get anything without hardwork! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others.
Generally you are not a cool person. It’s not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone’s attitude then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others.
Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won’t be long.. you will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it’s over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will
be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow.
You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!
Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!

Number 4
You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don’t know what to do… So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!!
Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing… but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs.
But you will take care of your family very well…All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too..
You are radical, patient, persistent,a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order…
Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!

Number 5
You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just chatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks “lets do this”. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humor ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tend to go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times ‘coz your popularity..
You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it’s your best teacher!!!
Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!

Number 6
Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don’t care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love.
You are lovable by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family & friends .
If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further…
Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5 !!!

Number 7
You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above.
You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life.
Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime.
It’s probably the Lord given you all sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok?
You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!
Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!

Number 8
You are a very strong personality, there’s no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say “this is what”.
You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life.
The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others.
Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as :
the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents.
You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!
Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!

Number 9
Hey…you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally… You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what you have done, it’s always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off.
You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type.
Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you.
Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children.
Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate.
You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice.
You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.
Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

I guess this would be the reason why people perceived that we have kinda similar characteristics.

Aggressive, impulsive, powerful in harsh words and the most obviously is STUBBORN !

She's 31st December and I'm 22nd November,

so we are dropped in the same group, number 4 !

While Pn Lye's husband would be number 2. LOL!

Vividly recalled,

I asked Pn Lye in dream about what his husband doing?

Pn Lye told me in dream

'My husband is a marcher because he born on 29th March. People who born in March is very clever in marching. So he usually march during Patriotic day.'

I asked her

'Then how he earn money by marching?'

Pn Lye said

'He marched one by one step, depends on how many steps he marched, normally each step paid for RM10, so let say he marched 500 steps during a marching, he earned RM5000 for one marching.'

So,

I knew Pn Lye's husband is a marcher who born on 29th March.

When I was reading for her husband, I keep laughing non stop!

It wrote he's a person who day dream a lot and have low confidence.

The most funny,

it wrote Pn Lye's husband is a person who changed unpredictably,

so imagine today he rides a bicycle and tomorrow he bought a motorcycle. LOL!

Or imagine today he is going to get married and tomorrow he's going to divorced! LOL!

The most funny,

it even wrote people from number 2 have a best match with number 2, 5 and 9.

So if Pn Lye is number 4, then her husband not match her? LOL!

Imagine one tomato size and another one watermelon size! LMAO!

However,

it's so true about Pn Lye is number 4.

Very stubborn -- She wants people listen to her wholly, if disobey her instructions, she will hurt or harm people.

Very hard working -- Certainly, despite she didn't teaches me before, but most of my friends who taught by her, they said she's a very working person, sort of weekly essays?

Very cool -- her hairstyle is really cool and unique among crowd of people.

A bit old fashioned -- Indeed, she's really really old fashioned, perhaps her old age might be one of the crucial factor.

Live in disappointment -- Very good with studies and being a degree holder, but doing a very ordinary job. So true! She has a teaching certificate as a degree holder, but doing as an ordinary teacher in her life.

Besides,

 the most accurate is daddy - number 1.

Daddy born on 19th June.

Smart -- He's smart in everything and everybody agreed that. He's smart in math, science, geography, history, language, arts, politics, economics, psychology, astronomy and chemistry.

Straight talking -- He's a straight talking person, he focused on his own opinion and straight voice out his thoughts in public or individually.

Stubborn -- He's kinda stubborn with his thoughts, once he decided, he only thinking his way.

Hard working -- Absolutely he's hard working, he always told us how hard working he is when he was a student. And he did his housing projects twice at a same time instead of solely focus at one.

Honest -- He's a very honest person, I didn't realize his lies so far. And he said he didn't cheated everyone's money at all, he said he earned by loyalty and by providing true service.

Kind hearted -- Oh he's absolutely kind hearted and everybody said that. Last time, all school teachers said he's the best PIBG ever among so many predecessors. Those teachers told me "Your father donated the mineral water tank for us in the staffroom, and 3 computers and internet in the library, one block of toilet and one shelter at the guard house", other PIBG all don't have ones.... Cincai Cincai and never care ones... Your father's person very kind and good.

Authorities and famous person -- Yes, he's sort of authorities and famous person since he's a DATUK.

Self confident people -- So true, he's an extremely self confident people, LOL! He told us that last time when he was in secondary school, his dream job is to become a teacher to get a stable salary to survive in later life, but after form 6, he think he can successful in business and earn big money, so he gives up as a teacher's dream. LOL!

Then I keep on disturbed daddy by saying "Fuyohhhh ambitious oh! Dont want become teacher any more oh!" 

Hahaha! Daddy even smiled and agreed when I disturbed him like that.

 He said

"Ya la! If I really become a teacher, you think you all got luxury life to survive ah? Want Prada, want few thousand dollar birthday bash, want luxury car, want this want that!',

 I asked daddy again

 "Pa, if become teacher then dont have these things already?', the most funny, daddy even said "Dont say dont have, think also no need to think, work with government, one month salary RM5000, raise a wife also not enough". Then I asked "Then why so many people think of become teacher?"

Daddy said 

"Because even cannot earn big money, but at least got fix and stable income, no need worried of unemployed or get fired mah.'

I asked 

"Work as teacher wont get fired ones?'

Daddy said

'Basically wont lah, unless got a very very big case or very very unusual case. Teaching job usually is a very safe job. Like those private sector ones only will get fired.'

Get married when he's matured -- So true! Last time he told us the age of his maturity is around 25-26 years old and he said he get married when he was 26 years old. He said he get married at the age when he's matured.

A spender, but have a big profession in future -- Yes, daddy is a big spender, he bought expensive things and bought in a huge quantity, but he have a big profession as a developer.

Have some people who will hard hard to pull his name down -- This is so true! Last time Hung Kiat said his customer talked bout daddy's bad things behind trying to pull down his name.

Family life is very cool, have many wonderful children and a good partner -- Indeed, our family life is very cool and concrete, no divorce and no separation. He have 5 cheerful children and a good wife who lovingly raise up 5 children as a role of wife.

Sometimes,

I feel like everyone are destined to born with fate.

And all accurate facts about birth date are stated above.

The most accurate is Pn Lye!

LOL!

Very smart in studies but most likely to get an ordinary job in life.

Too pathetic !
That's why I would like to say

'We are same as a homo sapien in this world but born with different fate.'

This is the phrase that I learned when I lived with my Hong Kong friends in the city.

In Cantonese, they said

'Tong Yan Mmm Tong Meng'

The stuff of nightmare is actually like a plain bread; it butter with a lot of pain,

including being chased, being beaten, being threatened or even being killed.

Undoubtedly,

all these nightmares contents came from a few years constructive traumas,

so far,

the content of dreams never give me a topic of 'shopping spree' at all,

but it always turn out her silhouettes or images when the dream begin and it always end up with terrible consequences.

Nevertheless,

 nightmares often have their own clocks to wake me up at a certain time.

Whenever I woke up crying with a pounding heart from a nightmare,

nobody would stay beside me in this lonely apartment,

what I could do for myself is to quickly rush into the bathroom for immediate shower to get rid the restoration of the particular nightmare.

Indeed,

trauma's suffering always haunt me in the middle of the night,

the only way to overcome this trauma is to consume it.

More than that, if wasn't with the restoration of nightmare,

then I am pretty sure once my eyes closed and fell back asleep,

I was left to bear the insomnia.

It meant to be once awaken, there's no more chance to sleep tight and gotta face the new morning.

I feel like I'm studying the pictures of my dream scenes and I am bored in this kind of repetitive life indeed,

I eager to alter it but I couldn't,

too may facts and too many negative life knowledge had conquered me,

at times the fear really made me unable not to roll down my salty tears.

As a first instance,

she just said

'See! The phone cover so nice! All blink blink.'

I even took her words as conspiracy rather than real admire.

I even dreamed of she robbed away my phone cover and unwilling to return to me.

I told Kaima on the next night about that,

I said

'Kaima, Pn Lye robbed away my phone cover in dream last night, today I am going to rob back, bye bye! I going to sleep already!'

Kaima even laughed and said

'Hahahaha! Dont scared lah! She wont rob your phone cover ones because she dont like blink blink stuffs ones... second is she rob away already also she can't use, because her phone is laoya laoya ones....'

Perpetually,

I am always horrified and nerve-cracking upon awoke from nightmare,

when I dreamed of Pn Lye robbed away my phone cover and unwilling to return to me,

at that moment I woke up when I opened up one of my eyes,

the first thing I looked at was the phone beside me.

Oh gosh! Luckily the pretty phone cover is still there and doesn't get stolen by anyone.

At that time when I saw a complete undamaged phone cover over my side only I could put down stones from my heart.

However,

I believe the fate of nightmares are going to over soon since we are no longer enemy.

I just need some time to trust her good intention though.

 

Pissed off, pissed off indeed!

She's getting too much,

she's obstructing my rights in accessing her further information,

she even restricted Kaima to lemme question her stuffs,

after kaima told me about this,

I even got angry from the moment I heard Kaima said so until now,

since this morning after class around 1 pm until now 7.47pm, 

to vent this negative emotion,

I been typed 1,000 words in one breath for my assignment.

 

 

 

 

 

I'm freaking fed up for this whole day,

the loudness of my typing volume was able to distracted everyone in the computer pool,

there's more than 8 people staring at my keyboard due to my loud typing sound,

but due to my princess's syndrome,

I typed my way and continued do my stuffs regardless how others starred at me.

 

 

 

 

 

Nowadays,

my moods are unusually bad,

perhaps due to a stimulating conversational factors from my peer.

She's Serena; neither my classmate nor course mate,

two days ago,

two of us been chatting in a coffee shop throughout that silent night,

she asked me again

'I am curious that why your math so good, why you want to transferred course from Engineering to Journalism?'

I answered in a purest form of answer

'Ermmm I said before already.. its because an unhappy incident.'

She asked

'ya la, I knew you said its unhappy incident before, but can I knew what's that incident?'

I smiled and said

'It's quite an embarrassing affair, so just don't tell.'

She said

'Tell me lah, tell me, trust me! I wont tell people ones... here only got we both, because I very curious why you  clearly best suit in math field, but why you want to changed course to language field?'

I asked

'very weird?'

She said

'Quite weird, firstly is because your math very good. From our interaction, I can know your person math very good ones....'

I asked her

'Why? From which way you think my math very good?'

She said

'Firstly, like whenever we hang out eat together, when the bill served on the table, you could straight divide out how much each person going to pay within a few seconds, which is much beyond faster than a calculator. Secondly, you told us because you taught abacus ones so only you could straight get the answer. The last reason, I could see out you are a scientific person through the way you talked and the way you analyse things about your ex-boyfriend! You can can't stop talking in a very fast speed, but your reasons are very rational. Hahahaha!'

 

 

I laughed and said

'hahaha! Then I supposed to be in linguistic rather than scientific since you said I cant stop talking in a very fast speed and rational.'

She said

'No! Like this consider scientific, because the way you talk very reasonable, means the way you talk very convincing due to the high rationality.'

I asked her seriously

'Eh, do you think my language not good and not suitable study journalism?'

She said

'Your language not say not good, but your maths is far more excellent than language. That is why I said you are a person who suitable studying in engineering or accounting. That type of calculating field....'

I said

'Ermmm.... Actually when I went for fortune telling, the fortune telling also got mentioned before, she told me I only suitable in calculating, such as engineering or architecture, and not suitable in Education.'

She said

'Har! Then why you still studying Journalism? Journalism is education ones....'

I asked

'Journalism considered education?'

She said

'Don't know... I think got a bit related, because teachers not keep on writing ones? Like more academic type ones... and Journalism got involved in communication ones... teacher also have to keep talking ones...'

I said

'Har! Then you think will got any bad luck coming later ones or not?'

She laughed and said

'hahaha! How I know?'

I said

'The fortune teller said if I really enter education field, only can teach math and science. But she said the rest subjects not suitable.'

She said

'Then means you are prone to math type lah!'

 

I said

'I cant do anything right now, chose already chose. I just wanna found a job, that's it my goal of life. I can do whatever scope of jobs, but when I enter a specific field, I want to focus in it and climb higher and eventually form my own business. As long as can earn money then I am willing to work in whatever field.'

She said

'Very wasted leh! Why you changed course? If you become engineer, you can earn more money than a journalist?'

I said

'Ya meh? I don't know! My since young ambition is in engineering field, because I like science and math, so I just walk towards that path and never think of future salary.'

She said

'You really don't know engineer can earn much more than journalist?'

I said

'Don't know....'

She even laughed and said

'hahaha! I don't know what to describe you! But just can say you are very funny! If exclude doing own business and merely talking about professionalism, doctor lawyer and engineer, this three jobs always the highest salary ones.'

I said

'I just knew doctor and I don't know about lawyer and engineer.'

She said

'ya la... if lawyer and engineer also must form own company only can earn a lot and a lot money lah, but if work under a film or factory, sure no more than $10K per month lah....'

I said

'Ya la... doctor is the most money lah... aiya whatever lah, I think my goal of life is to establish my own business in the future, whatever field also can lah... as long as I got experience and knew a lot about that specific field already, then I can do my own business.'

She said

'But I just want to know what incident caused you transferred course? Very wasted leh! If not you got a reputation of engineer already leh! Who influence you ones?'

I said

'nobody influence me, told you already, I got my own unhappy incident happened in few years ago.'

She said

'What lah? Tell me lah! Happen in school is it?'

I nodded my head and said

'yes its happened in school.'

She said

'Or teacher scolded you? Tell me lah! I really wont tell people ones... because I think you give up to become an engineer very wasted. If my math good like you, I don't care already! Die die pia one reputation already! Hahaha!'

I said

'Reputation is not a big deal for me, because my family already rich, I survive my own way, I no need care how people think of me, I have my own money to live my life.'

She even said

'yes yes yes! A lot rich people think that way ones! Don't know why! They said what reputation not important, money is their everything hahaha!'

I said

'I seriously think that way, I don't care how people think of me crazy or what ones... because I have my own ability to survive. That's it.'

She said

'Tell me lah... You tell me one person, I wont tell people ones... I wont laugh at you ones... what thing embarrass?'

I said

'But its a very long constructive story, I don't know how to tell.'

She said

'Just tell lah! We got Tai Ba time.... even if no bus already, we can take taxi go back lah! hahaha!'

I said

'Not the time matter, I really don't know how to tell.'

She said

'Just tell from the beginning of the story, means the cause of the story till the consequences of the story. How it affected you to transfer course and give up your dream.'

At that time,

I really fed up the annoying of Serena. LOL!

I straight told out once and all !

I said

'Okay!!! Because during the day of SPM add math paper, I disturbed a discipline school teacher's daughter then the teacher caned me, then finish story.'

She looked at me and said

'Har??!! Like this only? How could be?'

I said

'Ok! In more details, that teacher caned my leg 50+ times and slapped me.'

 

Her eyes suddenly opened very big and looked at me,

she said

'real ah?'

I said

'real lah....'

She said

'But secondary school teacher can caned people ones meh? I remembered since the year after my form 5, school teachers cannot beat student already.'

I said

'Ya la ya la... roughly that batch lo... now you 27 years old mah, I 22 years old... means when you were 18 years old, I was 13 years old... 13 years old means form 1 that year lo... '

She asked

'Then why she still dare to beat you? Still beat until so gou li... your parents know or not?'

I said

'Aiya... even government set the rules, but who cares.... I guessed now primary school teacher also the same.... because let say teacher beat a student, and the most one or twice, people also wont take action... I think those people went back home already forgot already lo...'

She said

'ya lo ya lo its true its true... then your parents know already never take action ah?'

I said

'My parents don't know.'

Serena suddenly HAR very loud; covered her mouth and said

'You never tell your parents? Why you never tell your parents? You siao ah?'

I said

'Because my person is that type of person everything keep quiet ones... so no matter what happen also I wont tell ones...'

She said

'But this one is exceptional case mah, you must tell, you never tell, next time you will crazy ones...'

I looked at her and asked

'So do you think I am crazy now?'

She said

'Very normal... if you never tell, I also cant see out you are that type of people who gone through this type of incident.'

I said

'Aiya, face how can see out? Like my ex-boyfriend, he since young being abused by his mother till secondary school ones... you can see out or not?'

Serena even laughed and said

'Kan De Chu! Hahahaha!'

I laughed and said

'hahaha! Why?'

She said

'Your ex-boyfriend really can see out! Actually last time when your ex-bf came Australia find you, then when we first saw him, we got felt his weirdness, got a bit abnormal than ordinary people.'

I asked

'Why?'

She said

'When you went ordered drinks at Hahndorf, then when we first saw him, we greet him and said Hi, his response very weird... its like ignored our greeting and ignored us, then continued look other places.'

I said

'Ya meh? Or he didn't heard you all said hi?'
She said

'Got! He got heard... because we few persons said hi, and hi in front of him, impossible he cant hear.... and when he heard we said hi already, he looked at our faces and look at other places, then no response....'

I said

'Anoh anoh anoh! I got realized this point also! He told me when an old customer said hi to him, then he forgot the customer already, he straight scrub his hair that type of pattern and said har....'

Serena laughed and said

'HAHAHAHAHA! Totally abnormal ! Then what you said?'
I said

'Then I straight scolded him lah! I said you think who you are? Don't you think you are very weird? You as a boss, can you behaved normal a bit? Don't show people weird behaviour!'

She said

'hahahaha yes yes yes! Absolutely! Then what he said?'

I said

'He asked me back, then what should I behaved if I don't know the customer but the customer knew me? I said you can pretend said: Very familiar ah... seen you at where d ah??..... Suddenly cant recall...say like this lah... much better than your stupid action scrubbing your head!'

She said

'Hahahahaha! Your last sentence very funny! Actually when we first saw your bf, we already got felt he not suitable you, we got talked behind lah, but we daren't tell you.'

I said

'Actually I think all these actions may perceived as weird for you all, but I think actually its not weird, its because his abusive never let him come out and mix friends all those, everyday closed him at home, so he don't have social knowledge, he don't know how to deal with people and don't know which situation use which manners that type.'

 

She said

"yes yes yes! Got influence ones.... because he never experience of having social, so he don't know how to react upon people's response....'

I said

'After I breakup, everyone said the same thing that we are a huge different. But why you guys don't tell me early that we not suitable and why we not suitable?'

She said

'Hmmmm.... because when he sits beside you at a table, we can felt lah... standard not same lo... like a princess and servant like that... he serves you all the way... we don't know his financial background lah, but can see out your financial background is stronger than him that type and you are the one who provides him, not he provides you ones... and another thing is both of your intelligence norm too contrast already! Hahahaha! Sorry to say that.'

 

I laughed and said

'You are not the first person who said so, and you're the last person who said so, because now already after the breakup period already, no one else mention about him already. So you are the last person who mention about our intelligence standard, but to be frankly lah... I personally think I'm not very clever that type.'

She said

'Don't know how to say lah.... when he sits beside you, can see out a huge contrast between both of you, we call intellectual conversation. He is always the party who asked you questions or asked you how to solve problem, for example I keep on heard he said: Clar this one need to blah blah blah or not or Clar bus come already want go already or not... like a mommy boy, and you are like a strong woman who bear everything, solve all problems and decide everything. You are an educational success woman and he's a form 5 dropped out guy. So that's the huge difference lo.'

I said

'Or you think he'll willing to accept breakup, a part of reason is because I always scolded him?'

She said

'No no no! Don't think so! After you told out so many situations that he made mistakes, I think the fault came from he is too stupid, you are right to scold him because you are trying to save him from danger. Don't always think your fault. I think the problem is because he's too stupid, if I got this type of boyfriend, not until 3 months already breakup hahaha! Still want to say you sticked with him for so many years?'

I said

No, initially, I was thinking he still not yet reach 20, need a lot of guilds and will begin to matured when he grows, but time proven that he didn't has initiative at all, he didn't think of improve his own self, he's like survive one day and one day with ordinary expectation. He don't have further commitment for his career.'

She said

'I think a part of his personality came from his abusive mom, because you should know abusive person is definitely controlling ones. So he used to being controlled already, he doesn't knows how to initiate a task or don't have own decision, always listened to people or follow people's order. Ehhh but I think, his mum seriously harmed his one lifetime leh....'

I said

'I don't think so, I think a person's character 50% depends on nurture of parents, but another 50% depends on own decision about what kind of person who he wants to be. He can be thinking of an entirely contrast thing, for example, his mum overly controlled him in past, but he wants to be controlling in future and manage his business by his own decision.'

Serena said

'Eh true true true! I think these kind of things still depends on individual's thinking ones... a lot people also gone through this type of experience but turn out to be a successful person at the end. Some is like sohai sohai mommy boy that type... hahaha like Evelyn's ex bf also.... he experienced mentally abused from his mom when he was young, but not physical abused lah, is like his mom overly bias to elder brother and neglected him all the way, he also same like your ex bf type ones... mommy boy... you know what is mommy boy? means that type of boy a bit a bit shout mommy ones... don't have decision ones....'

I said

'Actually, I not say I don't want let him make decision, but his decision made always false ones or inappropriate ones... for example, I let him decide things, he will decide things and pop out problem at the end and make me angry... For example, he said he wants to fetch cousin back to Muar, I said ok, but his extra decision will anger me at the end, he even went Klebang bought a coconut milkshake and didn't manage to buy at the end, he said too traffic jam, his sis asked him don't buy already.'

She said

'Anah! The example you described now means unable to make decision lah... means you let him decide but he pop out a false decision or gave a problem to you at the end, because he don't know how to solve a problem mah so just luan lai lo or luan luan listen to what people said.'

I said

'Overall, I think we are impossible to stick together permanently as a spouse because of he cant gives me a stable future, I think he might rely me in the future.'

Serene even put down her drinks and said

'yes yes yes! Very obvious! 100%! Because you are a very powerful woman, you see, in future, you got Australia degree holder or even master degree, you sure can find a stable job or a high salary job ones... so if he cant handle his business or business fallen, sure he said Clar sorry lah Clar... please.... hahahaha I knew his pattern, and you have to know you one woman have to support the whole family, means included your children. Too dangerous already!'

I said

'But if everyone think this way, how he gonna get married?'

She said

'No... he can get married, he has to find a standard lower than him ones lo... so that person wont think of he will relies her hahaha! You know what you mean?'

I said

'Knew, but you think man usually must stronger than woman?'

She said

'Not necessarily, man can weaker than woman, but the gap cannot too big, means he cannot overly relies. For your case, your ex is overly rely you already, from our first sight, we knew you are that type of directing woman. Da Ni Ren you know? Like everything you decide, very powerful... academically and financially... and very decisive and rational that type... all things can solve by own...'

I asked

'You think powerful came from personality?'

She said

'No, powerful came from intellectual. That is why people said powerful person always very successful in business ones.'

I said

'Oh ya lo ya lo, my father also! He everything also decide own self and did by his own ones... and his decision always correct and never wrong ones....'

She said

'Ya la... that type of meaning lah, powerful person means can do things and handle things by own, not like your ex keep asking your decision and please please please that type....'

I said

'One of the reason I leave him is because he only used please please please and sorry sorry sorry to solve problem, this is what I cannot accept a future him behaved like this, I think its very dangerous.'

She said

'ya la... you see you, very strong and powerful ones, even your trauma impacted you until you changed your course or give up your dream, but you still very success in your journalism and still can handle everything by your own in Australia. The most importantly, is if you never tell out this trauma, we all cant see out you are a person who went through that type of incident, means you hide very well about your negative experience hahaha!'

I said

'Actually you never seen the behind scenes when I collapsed by the incident, because at the time I came Australia, I already get well a lot, my serious period was the time before I came to Australia, almost crazy but haven't crazy.'

She asked

'Then your parent till now don't know the incident ah?'

I said

'knew lah, they knew after one and a half year. they knew the incident only they let me come Australia study and release tension ones... '

She said

'Then when the knew, they never go and find that teacher?'

I said

'Got....'

She said

'then?''

I said

'Then still what then? Thing happened already happened... Still can how?'

She said

'Then your parents never bring you see doctor?'

I said

'Got ! Not only see doctor! Still got consult a few God already! Hahaha!'

Serena even laughed and said

'hahahaha! Your parents scared you Zhong Xie is it? Ask bomo sweep sweep away the bad luck from you....'

I said

'That time my behaviour is extremely look like zhong xie... whenever I think of the repetitive flashbacks, I straight ran into toilet shower cold water,  never take off clothes ones... straight shower ones... and keep crying, took tower wrapped my own head and screamed in the room, and everyday mou tin tin mou tin tin will screamed uncontrollably at home.... besides than sleeping hours, everyday went that teacher's house round... overall, crying still play the major part of my emotion, balik balik cried only lo...'

She asked

'Then life like that long lasting how long?'

I said

'My condition worsened after 1.5 years of the incident, after 2 years became very very serious, like whole person knock down already... then until when my father brought me to doctor take medication already only cool down, but cool down not means 100% recovery, just controlled my actions and prevent the traumatic scenes in my mind only.'

 

 

She said

'Antidepressant ah?'

I said

'Not antidepressant, it just normal anti-anxiety that type... like don't make me afraid and don't make me have repetitive flashbacks ones....'

 

She said

'Then after medicine, you get well already?'

I said

'Get well 30% only, after came to Australia only got get well 60%'

She said

'Then why I never see you ki siao before ones?'

I said

'Because already 60% recovered, if you want to see me ki siao, then you stay with me, at night you can heard I shout ones....'

 

She said

'Then now you no need take medicine already?'

I said

'Eh need....'

She said

'If never take medicine then will how?'

I said

'Cannot sleep till the next day morning, no matter how tired still wont get into sleeping state.'

She said

'Why like that ones?'

I said

'The traumatic scenes will keep on repeating, very suffered... feel like want to fainted that type... and sometimes my eyes tired until very sour, then when it very sour, will automatically roll tears ones...'

 

 

 

She said

'Oh yes yes yes! Will will will ! If eyes too tired, will roll tears ones...and too tired will got that type of fainted feeling...'

I said

'Ya la, I one day never eat medicine, I can't sleep till the next day 8am, and still have to quickly eat the medicine only can get into sleeping state. And during the midnight, will very very suffered, my head will very painful and eyes very tired, keep closing but cant get into sleeping state, then lips very dry, sometimes hard to breath, the whole person feel like fainted... I want to stand up go drink water also cannot, because too tired already, no energy to opened my eyes and no energy to stand up....'

 

Serena said

'Har.... I heard your midnight suffering already feel you very pity leh... last time when my grandpa almost died, but haven't die also he said the exact feeling as you described... he's conscious but no energy to open up his eyes and no energy to move, then he also said his lips very dry and very suffered...'

I said

'ya la, don't know how to describe the suffer, the major suffer still come from faintness that side lah, second painful come from tiredness, too tired but cant fall into sleeping state very suffering. The third suffering is when I cant opened up my eyes, and I cant sleep mah, then my mind will pop out the same repetitive flashbacks that the teacher cane me, then my leg would felt the imaginary pain unavoidably. So, like that lo.'

 

She said

'yer..... you really very pity and have no different like a dying person! Hahaha! I heard my grandpa last time before die also like this....'

I said

'But don't assume I everyday never eat medicine lah! I say one and a half time when I never eat, like sometimes went my friend house overnight forgot to bring medicine, or my medicine finished already, have to wait one week for importing the medicine... those special situations la...'

Serena even laughed and said

'Hahahaha! When I talked to you, I really want to laugh! Because you always have a lot of jokes when you talked, like you said but don't assume you everyday never eat medicine lah! I really wanted to laugh! Hahahaha!'

I said

'Ya la! I like to joke ones... I like to make people laugh ones...'

She asked

'Your jokes is serious ones or you purposely make people laugh ones?'

I said

'Sometimes its because I don't know, so I am serious, then people laugh at my reaction, sometimes is purposely ones... like just now is purposely talked like that ones... because you said I very pity mah, then I said don't assume I everyday never eat medicine, only one time half time....'

She said

'Eh, but one time half time also very suffered ones hor you don't say... those sick patient one day two days already bye bye and leave the world, but you still have to wait till which day which day forgot to bring medicine again, then suffered don't know how many times again...'

I said

'But my person consider quite can withstand ones... I can nge nge withstand the suffering till the next morning and asked my friend quickly fetch me back.'

 

 

She said

'ya la I knew your meaning, that is why I said you very strong, some people they died because they cannot tahan the suffering any more, they already reach the maximum limit of their tolerance... so they died...'

I said

'Anoh anoh! Just now my kaima told me my school got one boy died already... 20 years old... she said because he already withstand till the maximum and cannot tahan the suffering already, so he died....'

She said

'Anah! The reason of died is like that, tahan until cannot tahan any more then will died....'

I said

'But mine never eat medicine wont die, but will fainted only... if fainted cannot wake up, that one only will die....'

She said

'Har! Then I think you better don't play a fool... life is short, a lot of ways to cause death, like your this case, if you never eat medicine, very easy to die if you fainted, because you very less, your body not strong to wake you up, if fainted too long will die ones... I tell you, you cook soup and drink more those herbal soups lah, because herbal soups got a lot of vitamins can make you physically stronger.'

 

 

I said

'Fainted too long will die ones?'

She said

'Will lah! You don't forget our suburb is Magill, if send you to hospital also at least 1 hour for the ambulance to come and back to the hospital, plus once you fainted, impossible people know immediately... because you fainted already you can't tell people. Must got people saw, if you fainted at home very dangerous ones...'

I said

'Also true lah! So now my medicine all fully equipped ones... when almost finished already, I will get spare ones...'

She said

'but even you got spare, let say one day you forgot to eat or forgot to bring to anywhere else?'

I said

'Then all these only can blame myself forgot lo....'

She said

'Walao! That teacher harm you until like that, if one day you really die of never eat medicine or what, I think she is the one who cause death to you know? Because she arose this problem ones... if not her you also wont got fainted all these problems.'

I said

'But all also cannot blame her, half is my fault. First is I disturb her daughter. Second is my own physical condition.'

She said

'Walao! You until what time already still talk like this? Disturb people, who wont disturb people? Even if you disturb her daughter, if she never caned you until like that, you think today you got this problem?'

I said

'ya la, I also got think of this question la, means no matter I got disturb her daughter or never disturb her daughter, her actions still came from her actions... I think if the source of the problem is a different thing, if she got heart to beat me, things still will happen. For example, let say I spoil a door or throw rubbish on floor or whatever fault lah, if she got heart want to beat me, whatever reason or no reason also she can beat me.'

She said

'Then the teacher don't know your suffering today? Like the consequences of never eat medicine all those or behind suffering like you took towel wrapped your head and shout all those...'

I said

'Don't know lah... that one my personal thing, happened at home, nobody tell her and I also never tell her, got also maybe my father will told her a bit a bit that my father knew lo... but my father also always not at home, how much he knows? So overall, I think she don't know lo....'

Serena said

'Walao! Then the teacher never sorry to you?'

I said

'At that time no, still continued beat me till even more serious and admit into hospital. Aiya also true lah... she also don't know my suffering how she will sorry to me... because whenever she saw me, I am laughing, I never cried in front of her before and I pretend nothing happen lo... so maybe she also think I am fine lo... and I personally also don't want her sorry, because I feel like accepting a sorry will make me more suffer, even sadder.... I dont know why when I heard sorry for someone, I will remorse and stop talking to everyone ones...'

 

 

She said

'Har! Walao~ Ask her go die lah! She got crazy ones is it? Why she wants to harmed you until like that?'

I said

'Actually she never teach me before, so I don't really know her person a lot, but I heard from my ex bf, the way she behaved in class quite normal lah.... so I think don't have crazy lo....'

She said

'of course not real crazy lah, if real crazy how to teach oh? My shen jing refers to bian tai shen jing that type.... not really mentally patient...'

I said

'Don't know... after that she got told me she don't want be the bad person, her meaning means she not bian tai lah....'

Serena even laughed and said

'OMG!!! Got who will admit own self is bian tai? You also funny! For example let say you molest or rape one person, will you admit you are bian tai?'

I said

'Will lah, I everything if I did sure I admit ones...'

She said

'But you have to know not everyone so frankly and kind as you... even got people will admit he rape people or he molest people, but nobody will admit own self is bian tai....'

I said

'But I will, if I really molest someone.'

She said

'Because you haven't molest someone, so you thought you will admit, but if you really molest someone already, I guarantee you 100% wont say yourself is bian tai...'

I laughed and said

'haha! Whatever lah... how I think of her still wont affected her, she still who she is and behaved the same way as she normally does.'

Serena even said

'Not bad! That is why people said behind the scene of a successful woman must be a lot of tortures and bad experience.'

I said

'Might be, I have to thanks her for letting me fall down, if not I wont grow and wont be so strong today.'

She asked

'how she beat you?'

I said

'Whatever lah, used a lot of instruments till I cant remembered, used cane, use wood, use spatula, use broomstick, use knife and use plier.'

She said

'walao! I really cant see out you undergo so many torture, eh she very geli leh!'

I said

'you said already lo... bian tai mah... if not geli not call bian tai already...'

She laughed and said

'Also true also true! Hahahaha! Not geli not call bian tai already.... good phrase....'

I said

'But the thing is she told me sorry already, last month. The problem is if she is bian tai, she will said sorry ones meh? Sorry this thing, not only kind people will say sorry only meh?'

She said

'She got saw your wounds or not?'

I said

'No.....'

She said

'Maybe she recalled the moment she beat you very harsh or think you very pity then sorry to you lo...'

I said

'But bian tai will pity people ones? Bian Tai not the meaning of those person who enjoy people's suffering? So means she enjoyed my suffering already she still wants to sorry to me? Not very controversial?'

She said

'Don't know wor.... I never meet her real person before, how I know her real person? I think if want to say bian tai, got is got lah, because for normal person sure wont do like that ones mah... maybe she got her behind reason lo... or you have to observe whether her sorry is say say only, or really never beat you any more... if say sorry already but still beat you, that one you can ask her go die.... hahaha!'

I said

'not only sorry, she got bought gifts for me and wrote note said she is real sorry....but her kind intention is not constructive ones... is very suddenly at the end ones... so I still doubting her real intention...'

She said

'Oh then you have to observe her future actions... see whether she still got beat you or not, if she never beat you means real sorry, if she still beat you, that one is mouth simply say say buy your heart only lo.... since your person so good in buying hahaha!'

I said

'You really think my person good in buying? A lot people also told me like that... don't know why....'

She said

'because your person will gave others a kind of impression that you get excited easily, like when you bought something new that you like, you will suddenly became very jumpy, so equals to when people buy something for you, you will become very jumpy hahaha!'

I said

'Eh true true true! When that teacher bought presents for me, I straight tear in front of her because I want to know what thing inside, then when got bells on the notebook, I keep on shake that book and very excited.'

Serena even laughed and said

'hahaha! You no need to say I also can imagined! Your person whenever you get new things, you always either shake that things or whole person jump up three to four times hahaha! When I see your excited pattern also I beh tahan!'

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Well,

after this long long 'pissed off' post,

 I felt really contented after typing so long and my unhappy had eventually fade away,

Welcome to happy mood again,

indeed blogging is really a best method to replenish a new good mood,

spent some time in front of computer with a cup of coffee while listening to blog songs.

What a best method to heal my traumatized soul.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



Phew!

Eventually the hectic tasks of all assignments 1 had done and submitted,

it's uneasy as it consumed up a lot of my precious time,

at times, assignments are dead annoying,

it kicked out of my shopping time and high tea spirit.

But,

if I really do have a long spare time,

here I am, a trouble youth,

who always turn out to be a 'pro stalker' of lye chuin li rather than a 'research analyst'.

LOL !

Indeed,

I am smart in the field of computing; meant to be a stalker but not a hacker,

perhaps great actions came out from great experience,

that is why Lye Chuin Li must be thinking

'How she peeped my facebook profile? Weird! I have been set restriction of information for most people account.'

However,

lemme demonstrate my public relation assignment here.

This is my very first time in attempting the subject of 'Public Relation' as a minor subject,

as a Journalism student,

despite this is not our main professionalism,

but we do demand to know a handful of basic concepts and its interrelated knowledge.

Frankly speaking,

I not really interested in business or corporate stuffs,

but after this killing subject then I'll be slacken and back to my own profession track.

Uni life is always like that,

we have to accept whatever compulsory subjects that the uni authority demand us to study or the compulsory subjects that we dislike for the sake of earn an educational trophy,

perhaps it's equitable for everyone as all of us have different interest knowledge.

I'm going to smitten with all of the difficulties and hardships in my uni life to admit into a top university - University of New South Wales, for my master degree.

I wanted to enrol into that University because it's the only university in Australia which merely require one year of Master program for Journalism,

the rest university need at least 1.5 year - 2. years duration.

But the fact is the University that I wanted to enrol need CGPA 6.0 as entry requirement; which means you  are require to get all distinctions in your assignments and final exams throughout your 3 years degree.

LOL! Isn't a piece of cake right?

But I believed I can do it as my result is nearly at the boundary now.

Left 2 semesters to go,

what I can do now is to try my best for the current semester and the next two semester to achieve CGPA of 6.0 as overall distinction to admit into that university.