Back to reality

1. We can't communicate any more, because he doesn't listen what I said before he commit something, he disappointed me too many times.
2. He's unrealistic, at this age, he thinks of becoming the film director, he borrowed large amount of money from random people in FACEBOOK, and I told him its dangerous and its impossible people will lend him money, he still ignored me and continue borrow, continue doing. I ask him dont do that, he said Clar please please sorry sorry, he always used please and sorry to control me.
3. I cant see his future, his ambition is indefinite, he doesnt self-motivated and no target in his future.
4. From what I said, he doesn't understand, the most he just said Ohhhh when response to me.... he doesnt have any knowledge to talk to me, I talk to him about every topic, he said he dont know or never heard before, so as the time goes, by slowly we become nothing to talk any more.
5. The gap of our family background is too big, I feel like I walk together with him is equal to make him suffer. For example, he needs to every year comes Australia visit me, his father don't willing to spend a single cent for him and he doesnt have money comes and visit me. Whenever he comes, he needs to used my money like my mum has to bought flight ticket for him and we can't eat anything good. And this year June, we one family planned to go London, and I invited him along, he said his father doesnt wants to spend a single cent for him again and he has no money to go. So I feel like he can't reach my world, the gap exist.
6. We got gap for our educational background, when I told him I want to study Master, he said people who study Master is rich people who only know study but dont know work so they go for Master. So I feel like we walked into a different stage and a different environment, our thinking already different. He's obviously low class stratification and I've walked till the peak class stratification. But when I reflect the words he said, I think maybe my consideration to Master degree is a sort of intense damage to his self-esteem, because when I try to stand in his shoe, I feel like I am damaging his self-esteem, man supposed to be wealthier and more knowledgeable than a woman; imagine that a boy just got form 5 drop out and hold a small tailor business from his father, but the girl with Australian master degree holder and is the daughter of real estate developer. Everyone around me told me that he'll said so to me is because I consider study master is 100% damaged to his self-esteem, they told me man need face, and told me that I go Australia study degree his face already dont know want to put at where still some more said Master, 6 persons told me the same thing about his low self-esteem, so I feel like our educational gap is too far away.
7. I hate him for his bad behavior, he pretended good in front of me and back stabbed me behind, he used my money all the way but he told people behind me that I used his money all the way. I helped him financially all the way because I knew he got problematic parents, his father is the type of unwilling to spend money on him and his mother is the kind of people who totally ignored him, so I am the one who helped him all the way, whenever we go for good foods, I am the one who grabbed the bills, my mum paid the flight bills for him to Australia and even gave him $500 Aussie dollar to spend in Australia, I let him stay over my place for free in Australia, I gave him the bus ticket card to let him take free transport, I throw a birthday bash for him by using my own money and throw my own birthday by my own money too. Every valentines day, birthday and anniversary,  I delicately designed thick books for him, I spent all my 3 months nights making that book and it cost over hundreds Aussie dollar and online design the ABC book for him for RM240. I bought premium shirt, belt, neck tie and necklace for him and purposely post back to him to Malaysia. He told his friend behind that I want his money. I'm really sad for loved the wrong person. After breakup, I told my friends about this, they said he look apparently quiet but inside scary, they ask me not to look for such quiet man in future, and definitely I wont find a quiet boyfriend next time, because they told me people who usually quiet is scary as they dont emotionally expressed, and they can do a lot of harmful things behind me.
8. I found him unfaithful, when he walked with him, his FACEBOOK messages all are girls with big boobs, fetch girls to workplace and back when I was in Australia, everyone told me that I am too stupid and naive to allow him for photo shooting girls. I trusted his love to me and allow him to go for photo shooting, but he getting too much. In front of me in Australia, he dare to talked voice message with girl intimately and told me its group message, and even ask for regards about the sick recovery of that girl. I told him not to do that, but he claimed that I am too sensitive and even told his friends behind me that I am too sensitive in everything. I think he's too over, I told him that I let him to photo shoot other girls already a biggest step, he still said I am sensitive. My MMU friends told me that his behavior is actually a sort of emotional abused to me, they said emotional abused means controlled and tortured me by begging emotions, play girls outside by forcing me to agree and insulted me that Master is only for rich people who only knows study but dont know working. Michelle even said those words are considered insult, and she asked me: You dont know like this is insult? I told her that I dont know and never angry. Then she even said I am too naive to grasp the insults meaning, she said all these are called hidden emotionally abused. She even said me: " Wah Clar! You still can tahan him like that for years? Initially we all still thought you are the female sovereignty, who knows he bullied you like that without let people knows. Too much already! I think you really cannot walk with him any more, you deserve a better man! I tell you this type of man use sorry sorry please please to control you, I guarantee one day he'll sorry sorry please please to you and ask you to allow him to eat other girl tofu. "