Time and opportunities

Inadvertently,

I am trying very hard to rub off the vestige that she left to me from heart,

I still haven't forget her and I am unwilling to forget her, but I do forgive her.

I remembered her more than anything else because I feel like she's a very special person in life that God bestowed to me.

Ultimately, 

there's space of respite for me after a 'hint' of apologize. 

In fact,

the first time when we met up,

I really not willing to see her at all due to the unacceptable facts,

initially,

I keep thinking that her apologize is a sort of intention of harm in the future,

because her long-term characters told me that she will only harm but wouldn't help.

But when I saw the little note of apology,

I have been began to feel her sincerity,

and cried for few days due to overly touching.

Since Kaima read out the apology note for me at scene,

I've rolled down my precious salty tears.

I don't know why I got such strong emotions towards her than anyone else; even breakup isn't a big deal for me.

Actually,

when I called her out for the second time,

I got too many things to question her and expect her to fulfil my doubt;

expect her to answer me once and all,

but the presence of  Ah Lee  made me couldn't able to question her freely,

because I need to shield her face too.

To be frankly,

I do think Ah Lee is a very good person,

and I like her very much due to her friendly character,

I loved to have tea with her too,

but the truth is she appeared at the time she ain't ought to appeared :(

Unmistakably, 

I believed that she actually wants to stay longer but that damn matriarch Lim Kim Neo forced her to went off earlier.

* LOL ! Some particular words are only available here and isn't able to blurt out from mouth.

Well,

I understand the situation and hope we still have next time,

because I got too many serious things to ask her directly,

another most important thing that I gotta underline myself,

I MUST be mentally clear and on the right track for the next time;

I could felt that I wasn't really alright for the second time we met up as I don't really remember things on that day.

Clarrrrr!!!

A very strong warning to yourself : must be mentally clear for the next time we meet up,

time and opportunities don't wait you,

she's going to shift during 2016.

So before she shifts,

please completely satisfy your current and future doubts,

make sure that you don't leave trace of regrets in the next twenty years.

Keep well your RM100 note, hello kitty book, Narnia bottle and wooden keychain.

They are the most important things to replace those add math pictures.

My pure motive is to transfer the power of hate into the power of lots of love, 

from Pn Lye.

Anyhow,

all above are the visible evidences of my trauma recovery,

perhaps this is the hidden power of apology.

In the first place,

I denied to accept the fact as well as denied accept apology because I keep thinking that no matter how I'm helpless and I wouldn't recovery at all,

but now,

the sincere apologize unconsciously touched my heart.

Thanks God,

I do believed this is the kind will of Jesus.

He promised to helps daddy and finally he really helped wholeheartedly