semi nightmare

The stuff of nightmare is actually like a plain bread; it butter with a lot of pain,

including being chased, being beaten, being threatened or even being killed.

Undoubtedly,

all these nightmares contents came from a few years constructive traumas,

so far,

the content of dreams never give me a topic of 'shopping spree' at all,

but it always turn out her silhouettes or images when the dream begin and it always end up with terrible consequences.

Nevertheless,

 nightmares often have their own clocks to wake me up at a certain time.

Whenever I woke up crying with a pounding heart from a nightmare,

nobody would stay beside me in this lonely apartment,

what I could do for myself is to quickly rush into the bathroom for immediate shower to get rid the restoration of the particular nightmare.

Indeed,

trauma's suffering always haunt me in the middle of the night,

the only way to overcome this trauma is to consume it.

More than that, if wasn't with the restoration of nightmare,

then I am pretty sure once my eyes closed and fell back asleep,

I was left to bear the insomnia.

It meant to be once awaken, there's no more chance to sleep tight and gotta face the new morning.

I feel like I'm studying the pictures of my dream scenes and I am bored in this kind of repetitive life indeed,

I eager to alter it but I couldn't,

too may facts and too many negative life knowledge had conquered me,

at times the fear really made me unable not to roll down my salty tears.

As a first instance,

she just said

'See! The phone cover so nice! All blink blink.'

I even took her words as conspiracy rather than real admire.

I even dreamed of she robbed away my phone cover and unwilling to return to me.

I told Kaima on the next night about that,

I said

'Kaima, Pn Lye robbed away my phone cover in dream last night, today I am going to rob back, bye bye! I going to sleep already!'

Kaima even laughed and said

'Hahahaha! Dont scared lah! She wont rob your phone cover ones because she dont like blink blink stuffs ones... second is she rob away already also she can't use, because her phone is laoya laoya ones....'

Perpetually,

I am always horrified and nerve-cracking upon awoke from nightmare,

when I dreamed of Pn Lye robbed away my phone cover and unwilling to return to me,

at that moment I woke up when I opened up one of my eyes,

the first thing I looked at was the phone beside me.

Oh gosh! Luckily the pretty phone cover is still there and doesn't get stolen by anyone.

At that time when I saw a complete undamaged phone cover over my side only I could put down stones from my heart.

However,

I believe the fate of nightmares are going to over soon since we are no longer enemy.

I just need some time to trust her good intention though.