Pissed off

 

Pissed off, pissed off indeed!

She's getting too much,

she's obstructing my rights in accessing her further information,

she even restricted Kaima to lemme question her stuffs,

after kaima told me about this,

I even got angry from the moment I heard Kaima said so until now,

since this morning after class around 1 pm until now 7.47pm, 

to vent this negative emotion,

I been typed 1,000 words in one breath for my assignment.

 

 

 

 

 

I'm freaking fed up for this whole day,

the loudness of my typing volume was able to distracted everyone in the computer pool,

there's more than 8 people staring at my keyboard due to my loud typing sound,

but due to my princess's syndrome,

I typed my way and continued do my stuffs regardless how others starred at me.

 

 

 

 

 

Nowadays,

my moods are unusually bad,

perhaps due to a stimulating conversational factors from my peer.

She's Serena; neither my classmate nor course mate,

two days ago,

two of us been chatting in a coffee shop throughout that silent night,

she asked me again

'I am curious that why your math so good, why you want to transferred course from Engineering to Journalism?'

I answered in a purest form of answer

'Ermmm I said before already.. its because an unhappy incident.'

She asked

'ya la, I knew you said its unhappy incident before, but can I knew what's that incident?'

I smiled and said

'It's quite an embarrassing affair, so just don't tell.'

She said

'Tell me lah, tell me, trust me! I wont tell people ones... here only got we both, because I very curious why you  clearly best suit in math field, but why you want to changed course to language field?'

I asked

'very weird?'

She said

'Quite weird, firstly is because your math very good. From our interaction, I can know your person math very good ones....'

I asked her

'Why? From which way you think my math very good?'

She said

'Firstly, like whenever we hang out eat together, when the bill served on the table, you could straight divide out how much each person going to pay within a few seconds, which is much beyond faster than a calculator. Secondly, you told us because you taught abacus ones so only you could straight get the answer. The last reason, I could see out you are a scientific person through the way you talked and the way you analyse things about your ex-boyfriend! You can can't stop talking in a very fast speed, but your reasons are very rational. Hahahaha!'

 

 

I laughed and said

'hahaha! Then I supposed to be in linguistic rather than scientific since you said I cant stop talking in a very fast speed and rational.'

She said

'No! Like this consider scientific, because the way you talk very reasonable, means the way you talk very convincing due to the high rationality.'

I asked her seriously

'Eh, do you think my language not good and not suitable study journalism?'

She said

'Your language not say not good, but your maths is far more excellent than language. That is why I said you are a person who suitable studying in engineering or accounting. That type of calculating field....'

I said

'Ermmm.... Actually when I went for fortune telling, the fortune telling also got mentioned before, she told me I only suitable in calculating, such as engineering or architecture, and not suitable in Education.'

She said

'Har! Then why you still studying Journalism? Journalism is education ones....'

I asked

'Journalism considered education?'

She said

'Don't know... I think got a bit related, because teachers not keep on writing ones? Like more academic type ones... and Journalism got involved in communication ones... teacher also have to keep talking ones...'

I said

'Har! Then you think will got any bad luck coming later ones or not?'

She laughed and said

'hahaha! How I know?'

I said

'The fortune teller said if I really enter education field, only can teach math and science. But she said the rest subjects not suitable.'

She said

'Then means you are prone to math type lah!'

 

I said

'I cant do anything right now, chose already chose. I just wanna found a job, that's it my goal of life. I can do whatever scope of jobs, but when I enter a specific field, I want to focus in it and climb higher and eventually form my own business. As long as can earn money then I am willing to work in whatever field.'

She said

'Very wasted leh! Why you changed course? If you become engineer, you can earn more money than a journalist?'

I said

'Ya meh? I don't know! My since young ambition is in engineering field, because I like science and math, so I just walk towards that path and never think of future salary.'

She said

'You really don't know engineer can earn much more than journalist?'

I said

'Don't know....'

She even laughed and said

'hahaha! I don't know what to describe you! But just can say you are very funny! If exclude doing own business and merely talking about professionalism, doctor lawyer and engineer, this three jobs always the highest salary ones.'

I said

'I just knew doctor and I don't know about lawyer and engineer.'

She said

'ya la... if lawyer and engineer also must form own company only can earn a lot and a lot money lah, but if work under a film or factory, sure no more than $10K per month lah....'

I said

'Ya la... doctor is the most money lah... aiya whatever lah, I think my goal of life is to establish my own business in the future, whatever field also can lah... as long as I got experience and knew a lot about that specific field already, then I can do my own business.'

She said

'But I just want to know what incident caused you transferred course? Very wasted leh! If not you got a reputation of engineer already leh! Who influence you ones?'

I said

'nobody influence me, told you already, I got my own unhappy incident happened in few years ago.'

She said

'What lah? Tell me lah! Happen in school is it?'

I nodded my head and said

'yes its happened in school.'

She said

'Or teacher scolded you? Tell me lah! I really wont tell people ones... because I think you give up to become an engineer very wasted. If my math good like you, I don't care already! Die die pia one reputation already! Hahaha!'

I said

'Reputation is not a big deal for me, because my family already rich, I survive my own way, I no need care how people think of me, I have my own money to live my life.'

She even said

'yes yes yes! A lot rich people think that way ones! Don't know why! They said what reputation not important, money is their everything hahaha!'

I said

'I seriously think that way, I don't care how people think of me crazy or what ones... because I have my own ability to survive. That's it.'

She said

'Tell me lah... You tell me one person, I wont tell people ones... I wont laugh at you ones... what thing embarrass?'

I said

'But its a very long constructive story, I don't know how to tell.'

She said

'Just tell lah! We got Tai Ba time.... even if no bus already, we can take taxi go back lah! hahaha!'

I said

'Not the time matter, I really don't know how to tell.'

She said

'Just tell from the beginning of the story, means the cause of the story till the consequences of the story. How it affected you to transfer course and give up your dream.'

At that time,

I really fed up the annoying of Serena. LOL!

I straight told out once and all !

I said

'Okay!!! Because during the day of SPM add math paper, I disturbed a discipline school teacher's daughter then the teacher caned me, then finish story.'

She looked at me and said

'Har??!! Like this only? How could be?'

I said

'Ok! In more details, that teacher caned my leg 50+ times and slapped me.'

 

Her eyes suddenly opened very big and looked at me,

she said

'real ah?'

I said

'real lah....'

She said

'But secondary school teacher can caned people ones meh? I remembered since the year after my form 5, school teachers cannot beat student already.'

I said

'Ya la ya la... roughly that batch lo... now you 27 years old mah, I 22 years old... means when you were 18 years old, I was 13 years old... 13 years old means form 1 that year lo... '

She asked

'Then why she still dare to beat you? Still beat until so gou li... your parents know or not?'

I said

'Aiya... even government set the rules, but who cares.... I guessed now primary school teacher also the same.... because let say teacher beat a student, and the most one or twice, people also wont take action... I think those people went back home already forgot already lo...'

She said

'ya lo ya lo its true its true... then your parents know already never take action ah?'

I said

'My parents don't know.'

Serena suddenly HAR very loud; covered her mouth and said

'You never tell your parents? Why you never tell your parents? You siao ah?'

I said

'Because my person is that type of person everything keep quiet ones... so no matter what happen also I wont tell ones...'

She said

'But this one is exceptional case mah, you must tell, you never tell, next time you will crazy ones...'

I looked at her and asked

'So do you think I am crazy now?'

She said

'Very normal... if you never tell, I also cant see out you are that type of people who gone through this type of incident.'

I said

'Aiya, face how can see out? Like my ex-boyfriend, he since young being abused by his mother till secondary school ones... you can see out or not?'

Serena even laughed and said

'Kan De Chu! Hahahaha!'

I laughed and said

'hahaha! Why?'

She said

'Your ex-boyfriend really can see out! Actually last time when your ex-bf came Australia find you, then when we first saw him, we got felt his weirdness, got a bit abnormal than ordinary people.'

I asked

'Why?'

She said

'When you went ordered drinks at Hahndorf, then when we first saw him, we greet him and said Hi, his response very weird... its like ignored our greeting and ignored us, then continued look other places.'

I said

'Ya meh? Or he didn't heard you all said hi?'
She said

'Got! He got heard... because we few persons said hi, and hi in front of him, impossible he cant hear.... and when he heard we said hi already, he looked at our faces and look at other places, then no response....'

I said

'Anoh anoh anoh! I got realized this point also! He told me when an old customer said hi to him, then he forgot the customer already, he straight scrub his hair that type of pattern and said har....'

Serena laughed and said

'HAHAHAHAHA! Totally abnormal ! Then what you said?'
I said

'Then I straight scolded him lah! I said you think who you are? Don't you think you are very weird? You as a boss, can you behaved normal a bit? Don't show people weird behaviour!'

She said

'hahahaha yes yes yes! Absolutely! Then what he said?'

I said

'He asked me back, then what should I behaved if I don't know the customer but the customer knew me? I said you can pretend said: Very familiar ah... seen you at where d ah??..... Suddenly cant recall...say like this lah... much better than your stupid action scrubbing your head!'

She said

'Hahahahaha! Your last sentence very funny! Actually when we first saw your bf, we already got felt he not suitable you, we got talked behind lah, but we daren't tell you.'

I said

'Actually I think all these actions may perceived as weird for you all, but I think actually its not weird, its because his abusive never let him come out and mix friends all those, everyday closed him at home, so he don't have social knowledge, he don't know how to deal with people and don't know which situation use which manners that type.'

 

She said

"yes yes yes! Got influence ones.... because he never experience of having social, so he don't know how to react upon people's response....'

I said

'After I breakup, everyone said the same thing that we are a huge different. But why you guys don't tell me early that we not suitable and why we not suitable?'

She said

'Hmmmm.... because when he sits beside you at a table, we can felt lah... standard not same lo... like a princess and servant like that... he serves you all the way... we don't know his financial background lah, but can see out your financial background is stronger than him that type and you are the one who provides him, not he provides you ones... and another thing is both of your intelligence norm too contrast already! Hahahaha! Sorry to say that.'

 

I laughed and said

'You are not the first person who said so, and you're the last person who said so, because now already after the breakup period already, no one else mention about him already. So you are the last person who mention about our intelligence standard, but to be frankly lah... I personally think I'm not very clever that type.'

She said

'Don't know how to say lah.... when he sits beside you, can see out a huge contrast between both of you, we call intellectual conversation. He is always the party who asked you questions or asked you how to solve problem, for example I keep on heard he said: Clar this one need to blah blah blah or not or Clar bus come already want go already or not... like a mommy boy, and you are like a strong woman who bear everything, solve all problems and decide everything. You are an educational success woman and he's a form 5 dropped out guy. So that's the huge difference lo.'

I said

'Or you think he'll willing to accept breakup, a part of reason is because I always scolded him?'

She said

'No no no! Don't think so! After you told out so many situations that he made mistakes, I think the fault came from he is too stupid, you are right to scold him because you are trying to save him from danger. Don't always think your fault. I think the problem is because he's too stupid, if I got this type of boyfriend, not until 3 months already breakup hahaha! Still want to say you sticked with him for so many years?'

I said

No, initially, I was thinking he still not yet reach 20, need a lot of guilds and will begin to matured when he grows, but time proven that he didn't has initiative at all, he didn't think of improve his own self, he's like survive one day and one day with ordinary expectation. He don't have further commitment for his career.'

She said

'I think a part of his personality came from his abusive mom, because you should know abusive person is definitely controlling ones. So he used to being controlled already, he doesn't knows how to initiate a task or don't have own decision, always listened to people or follow people's order. Ehhh but I think, his mum seriously harmed his one lifetime leh....'

I said

'I don't think so, I think a person's character 50% depends on nurture of parents, but another 50% depends on own decision about what kind of person who he wants to be. He can be thinking of an entirely contrast thing, for example, his mum overly controlled him in past, but he wants to be controlling in future and manage his business by his own decision.'

Serena said

'Eh true true true! I think these kind of things still depends on individual's thinking ones... a lot people also gone through this type of experience but turn out to be a successful person at the end. Some is like sohai sohai mommy boy that type... hahaha like Evelyn's ex bf also.... he experienced mentally abused from his mom when he was young, but not physical abused lah, is like his mom overly bias to elder brother and neglected him all the way, he also same like your ex bf type ones... mommy boy... you know what is mommy boy? means that type of boy a bit a bit shout mommy ones... don't have decision ones....'

I said

'Actually, I not say I don't want let him make decision, but his decision made always false ones or inappropriate ones... for example, I let him decide things, he will decide things and pop out problem at the end and make me angry... For example, he said he wants to fetch cousin back to Muar, I said ok, but his extra decision will anger me at the end, he even went Klebang bought a coconut milkshake and didn't manage to buy at the end, he said too traffic jam, his sis asked him don't buy already.'

She said

'Anah! The example you described now means unable to make decision lah... means you let him decide but he pop out a false decision or gave a problem to you at the end, because he don't know how to solve a problem mah so just luan lai lo or luan luan listen to what people said.'

I said

'Overall, I think we are impossible to stick together permanently as a spouse because of he cant gives me a stable future, I think he might rely me in the future.'

Serene even put down her drinks and said

'yes yes yes! Very obvious! 100%! Because you are a very powerful woman, you see, in future, you got Australia degree holder or even master degree, you sure can find a stable job or a high salary job ones... so if he cant handle his business or business fallen, sure he said Clar sorry lah Clar... please.... hahahaha I knew his pattern, and you have to know you one woman have to support the whole family, means included your children. Too dangerous already!'

I said

'But if everyone think this way, how he gonna get married?'

She said

'No... he can get married, he has to find a standard lower than him ones lo... so that person wont think of he will relies her hahaha! You know what you mean?'

I said

'Knew, but you think man usually must stronger than woman?'

She said

'Not necessarily, man can weaker than woman, but the gap cannot too big, means he cannot overly relies. For your case, your ex is overly rely you already, from our first sight, we knew you are that type of directing woman. Da Ni Ren you know? Like everything you decide, very powerful... academically and financially... and very decisive and rational that type... all things can solve by own...'

I asked

'You think powerful came from personality?'

She said

'No, powerful came from intellectual. That is why people said powerful person always very successful in business ones.'

I said

'Oh ya lo ya lo, my father also! He everything also decide own self and did by his own ones... and his decision always correct and never wrong ones....'

She said

'Ya la... that type of meaning lah, powerful person means can do things and handle things by own, not like your ex keep asking your decision and please please please that type....'

I said

'One of the reason I leave him is because he only used please please please and sorry sorry sorry to solve problem, this is what I cannot accept a future him behaved like this, I think its very dangerous.'

She said

'ya la... you see you, very strong and powerful ones, even your trauma impacted you until you changed your course or give up your dream, but you still very success in your journalism and still can handle everything by your own in Australia. The most importantly, is if you never tell out this trauma, we all cant see out you are a person who went through that type of incident, means you hide very well about your negative experience hahaha!'

I said

'Actually you never seen the behind scenes when I collapsed by the incident, because at the time I came Australia, I already get well a lot, my serious period was the time before I came to Australia, almost crazy but haven't crazy.'

She asked

'Then your parent till now don't know the incident ah?'

I said

'knew lah, they knew after one and a half year. they knew the incident only they let me come Australia study and release tension ones... '

She said

'Then when the knew, they never go and find that teacher?'

I said

'Got....'

She said

'then?''

I said

'Then still what then? Thing happened already happened... Still can how?'

She said

'Then your parents never bring you see doctor?'

I said

'Got ! Not only see doctor! Still got consult a few God already! Hahaha!'

Serena even laughed and said

'hahahaha! Your parents scared you Zhong Xie is it? Ask bomo sweep sweep away the bad luck from you....'

I said

'That time my behaviour is extremely look like zhong xie... whenever I think of the repetitive flashbacks, I straight ran into toilet shower cold water,  never take off clothes ones... straight shower ones... and keep crying, took tower wrapped my own head and screamed in the room, and everyday mou tin tin mou tin tin will screamed uncontrollably at home.... besides than sleeping hours, everyday went that teacher's house round... overall, crying still play the major part of my emotion, balik balik cried only lo...'

She asked

'Then life like that long lasting how long?'

I said

'My condition worsened after 1.5 years of the incident, after 2 years became very very serious, like whole person knock down already... then until when my father brought me to doctor take medication already only cool down, but cool down not means 100% recovery, just controlled my actions and prevent the traumatic scenes in my mind only.'

 

 

She said

'Antidepressant ah?'

I said

'Not antidepressant, it just normal anti-anxiety that type... like don't make me afraid and don't make me have repetitive flashbacks ones....'

 

She said

'Then after medicine, you get well already?'

I said

'Get well 30% only, after came to Australia only got get well 60%'

She said

'Then why I never see you ki siao before ones?'

I said

'Because already 60% recovered, if you want to see me ki siao, then you stay with me, at night you can heard I shout ones....'

 

She said

'Then now you no need take medicine already?'

I said

'Eh need....'

She said

'If never take medicine then will how?'

I said

'Cannot sleep till the next day morning, no matter how tired still wont get into sleeping state.'

She said

'Why like that ones?'

I said

'The traumatic scenes will keep on repeating, very suffered... feel like want to fainted that type... and sometimes my eyes tired until very sour, then when it very sour, will automatically roll tears ones...'

 

 

 

She said

'Oh yes yes yes! Will will will ! If eyes too tired, will roll tears ones...and too tired will got that type of fainted feeling...'

I said

'Ya la, I one day never eat medicine, I can't sleep till the next day 8am, and still have to quickly eat the medicine only can get into sleeping state. And during the midnight, will very very suffered, my head will very painful and eyes very tired, keep closing but cant get into sleeping state, then lips very dry, sometimes hard to breath, the whole person feel like fainted... I want to stand up go drink water also cannot, because too tired already, no energy to opened my eyes and no energy to stand up....'

 

Serena said

'Har.... I heard your midnight suffering already feel you very pity leh... last time when my grandpa almost died, but haven't die also he said the exact feeling as you described... he's conscious but no energy to open up his eyes and no energy to move, then he also said his lips very dry and very suffered...'

I said

'ya la, don't know how to describe the suffer, the major suffer still come from faintness that side lah, second painful come from tiredness, too tired but cant fall into sleeping state very suffering. The third suffering is when I cant opened up my eyes, and I cant sleep mah, then my mind will pop out the same repetitive flashbacks that the teacher cane me, then my leg would felt the imaginary pain unavoidably. So, like that lo.'

 

She said

'yer..... you really very pity and have no different like a dying person! Hahaha! I heard my grandpa last time before die also like this....'

I said

'But don't assume I everyday never eat medicine lah! I say one and a half time when I never eat, like sometimes went my friend house overnight forgot to bring medicine, or my medicine finished already, have to wait one week for importing the medicine... those special situations la...'

Serena even laughed and said

'Hahahaha! When I talked to you, I really want to laugh! Because you always have a lot of jokes when you talked, like you said but don't assume you everyday never eat medicine lah! I really wanted to laugh! Hahahaha!'

I said

'Ya la! I like to joke ones... I like to make people laugh ones...'

She asked

'Your jokes is serious ones or you purposely make people laugh ones?'

I said

'Sometimes its because I don't know, so I am serious, then people laugh at my reaction, sometimes is purposely ones... like just now is purposely talked like that ones... because you said I very pity mah, then I said don't assume I everyday never eat medicine, only one time half time....'

She said

'Eh, but one time half time also very suffered ones hor you don't say... those sick patient one day two days already bye bye and leave the world, but you still have to wait till which day which day forgot to bring medicine again, then suffered don't know how many times again...'

I said

'But my person consider quite can withstand ones... I can nge nge withstand the suffering till the next morning and asked my friend quickly fetch me back.'

 

 

She said

'ya la I knew your meaning, that is why I said you very strong, some people they died because they cannot tahan the suffering any more, they already reach the maximum limit of their tolerance... so they died...'

I said

'Anoh anoh! Just now my kaima told me my school got one boy died already... 20 years old... she said because he already withstand till the maximum and cannot tahan the suffering already, so he died....'

She said

'Anah! The reason of died is like that, tahan until cannot tahan any more then will died....'

I said

'But mine never eat medicine wont die, but will fainted only... if fainted cannot wake up, that one only will die....'

She said

'Har! Then I think you better don't play a fool... life is short, a lot of ways to cause death, like your this case, if you never eat medicine, very easy to die if you fainted, because you very less, your body not strong to wake you up, if fainted too long will die ones... I tell you, you cook soup and drink more those herbal soups lah, because herbal soups got a lot of vitamins can make you physically stronger.'

 

 

I said

'Fainted too long will die ones?'

She said

'Will lah! You don't forget our suburb is Magill, if send you to hospital also at least 1 hour for the ambulance to come and back to the hospital, plus once you fainted, impossible people know immediately... because you fainted already you can't tell people. Must got people saw, if you fainted at home very dangerous ones...'

I said

'Also true lah! So now my medicine all fully equipped ones... when almost finished already, I will get spare ones...'

She said

'but even you got spare, let say one day you forgot to eat or forgot to bring to anywhere else?'

I said

'Then all these only can blame myself forgot lo....'

She said

'Walao! That teacher harm you until like that, if one day you really die of never eat medicine or what, I think she is the one who cause death to you know? Because she arose this problem ones... if not her you also wont got fainted all these problems.'

I said

'But all also cannot blame her, half is my fault. First is I disturb her daughter. Second is my own physical condition.'

She said

'Walao! You until what time already still talk like this? Disturb people, who wont disturb people? Even if you disturb her daughter, if she never caned you until like that, you think today you got this problem?'

I said

'ya la, I also got think of this question la, means no matter I got disturb her daughter or never disturb her daughter, her actions still came from her actions... I think if the source of the problem is a different thing, if she got heart to beat me, things still will happen. For example, let say I spoil a door or throw rubbish on floor or whatever fault lah, if she got heart want to beat me, whatever reason or no reason also she can beat me.'

She said

'Then the teacher don't know your suffering today? Like the consequences of never eat medicine all those or behind suffering like you took towel wrapped your head and shout all those...'

I said

'Don't know lah... that one my personal thing, happened at home, nobody tell her and I also never tell her, got also maybe my father will told her a bit a bit that my father knew lo... but my father also always not at home, how much he knows? So overall, I think she don't know lo....'

Serena said

'Walao! Then the teacher never sorry to you?'

I said

'At that time no, still continued beat me till even more serious and admit into hospital. Aiya also true lah... she also don't know my suffering how she will sorry to me... because whenever she saw me, I am laughing, I never cried in front of her before and I pretend nothing happen lo... so maybe she also think I am fine lo... and I personally also don't want her sorry, because I feel like accepting a sorry will make me more suffer, even sadder.... I dont know why when I heard sorry for someone, I will remorse and stop talking to everyone ones...'

 

 

She said

'Har! Walao~ Ask her go die lah! She got crazy ones is it? Why she wants to harmed you until like that?'

I said

'Actually she never teach me before, so I don't really know her person a lot, but I heard from my ex bf, the way she behaved in class quite normal lah.... so I think don't have crazy lo....'

She said

'of course not real crazy lah, if real crazy how to teach oh? My shen jing refers to bian tai shen jing that type.... not really mentally patient...'

I said

'Don't know... after that she got told me she don't want be the bad person, her meaning means she not bian tai lah....'

Serena even laughed and said

'OMG!!! Got who will admit own self is bian tai? You also funny! For example let say you molest or rape one person, will you admit you are bian tai?'

I said

'Will lah, I everything if I did sure I admit ones...'

She said

'But you have to know not everyone so frankly and kind as you... even got people will admit he rape people or he molest people, but nobody will admit own self is bian tai....'

I said

'But I will, if I really molest someone.'

She said

'Because you haven't molest someone, so you thought you will admit, but if you really molest someone already, I guarantee you 100% wont say yourself is bian tai...'

I laughed and said

'haha! Whatever lah... how I think of her still wont affected her, she still who she is and behaved the same way as she normally does.'

Serena even said

'Not bad! That is why people said behind the scene of a successful woman must be a lot of tortures and bad experience.'

I said

'Might be, I have to thanks her for letting me fall down, if not I wont grow and wont be so strong today.'

She asked

'how she beat you?'

I said

'Whatever lah, used a lot of instruments till I cant remembered, used cane, use wood, use spatula, use broomstick, use knife and use plier.'

She said

'walao! I really cant see out you undergo so many torture, eh she very geli leh!'

I said

'you said already lo... bian tai mah... if not geli not call bian tai already...'

She laughed and said

'Also true also true! Hahahaha! Not geli not call bian tai already.... good phrase....'

I said

'But the thing is she told me sorry already, last month. The problem is if she is bian tai, she will said sorry ones meh? Sorry this thing, not only kind people will say sorry only meh?'

She said

'She got saw your wounds or not?'

I said

'No.....'

She said

'Maybe she recalled the moment she beat you very harsh or think you very pity then sorry to you lo...'

I said

'But bian tai will pity people ones? Bian Tai not the meaning of those person who enjoy people's suffering? So means she enjoyed my suffering already she still wants to sorry to me? Not very controversial?'

She said

'Don't know wor.... I never meet her real person before, how I know her real person? I think if want to say bian tai, got is got lah, because for normal person sure wont do like that ones mah... maybe she got her behind reason lo... or you have to observe whether her sorry is say say only, or really never beat you any more... if say sorry already but still beat you, that one you can ask her go die.... hahaha!'

I said

'not only sorry, she got bought gifts for me and wrote note said she is real sorry....but her kind intention is not constructive ones... is very suddenly at the end ones... so I still doubting her real intention...'

She said

'Oh then you have to observe her future actions... see whether she still got beat you or not, if she never beat you means real sorry, if she still beat you, that one is mouth simply say say buy your heart only lo.... since your person so good in buying hahaha!'

I said

'You really think my person good in buying? A lot people also told me like that... don't know why....'

She said

'because your person will gave others a kind of impression that you get excited easily, like when you bought something new that you like, you will suddenly became very jumpy, so equals to when people buy something for you, you will become very jumpy hahaha!'

I said

'Eh true true true! When that teacher bought presents for me, I straight tear in front of her because I want to know what thing inside, then when got bells on the notebook, I keep on shake that book and very excited.'

Serena even laughed and said

'hahaha! You no need to say I also can imagined! Your person whenever you get new things, you always either shake that things or whole person jump up three to four times hahaha! When I see your excited pattern also I beh tahan!'

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Well,

after this long long 'pissed off' post,

 I felt really contented after typing so long and my unhappy had eventually fade away,

Welcome to happy mood again,

indeed blogging is really a best method to replenish a new good mood,

spent some time in front of computer with a cup of coffee while listening to blog songs.

What a best method to heal my traumatized soul.