On the day before yesterday,

remember that I just slept for 5 hours due to the absence of tranquilizer? 

Yesterday, 

I took the pill back and the slumber was replaced sufficiently,

I slept from 2.30 am to this afternoon 2.30 p.m.

 A total of 12 hours, 

I guessed two days ago I was really tired but without the pill,

my brain can't rest at all.

So today,

the 12 hours made me so energetic and clear minded. 

Today,

when I woken up in the afternoon,

I looked at the clock, it told me its already 2.52 p.m :X

After a relaxing 'wake up lunch',

it's already 3.40 p.m !

At that time,

I told myself

"Oh yeah! Refrigerator is already empty, today I have to go to the market to buy foods, if not I don't have any meals to eat anymore, the coles supermarket will close at 5pm on Sunday! And I still have to wash clothes, dry clothes, time isn't enough, now cold season, the sun is gonna fall at around 5pm. How I gonna dry my washed clothes? I still have to brush my teeth, and the most unwanted period, I still have to change sanitary pad. Gosh!' 

After the so called 'wake up lunch',

I quickly washed my cup and plates and rushed into my bedroom,

 looked at my mobile weather and took the suitable clothes into the toilet, changed the sanitary pad and clothes, brush my unclean teeth and came out for a quick combed.

Subsequently, 

my fortnight dirty clothes were stuffed into the washing machine and the lingerie were stuffed into another washing pack; then it was stuffed into the washing machine together. 

A quick and little detergent powder was poured into the washing machine,

after that, everything was done at 4.20 p.m

immediately,

I grabbed the market trolley, key and swipe card and rushed to the Coles market.

Luckily, it still opened,

oh my gosh!

In that situation,

I was like a 50 years old aunty who grabbing a trolley and choosing the freshest meat.

That kind of situation is never imaginable, if you really witness it only you'll laugh like hell !

Of course, 

hyperactive people like me wouldn't waste much of the precious time in loitering market.

I just simply grabbed a pack of raw drumsticks, two uncooked pizzas, a bunch of grapes, a pack of Chai latte and a tin of potato chips as after meal treats. 

The total price is just around $40.

This time I am so smart saving,

because nowadays I don't take breakfast since I slept till afternoon! Haha!

Ultimately,

girl's paradise - Shopping!

The rest of the money I left for shopping !

Yeah!

Winter coming on June,

still have a lot of things to buy,

the winter socks, scarf, boots.

The first shop I entered was 'Sussan', 

a new luxury shop that just occupied in one week ago,

Yippi ! Luckily there is 30% discounted !

Two warmest socks for only $22.40 !

After that,

went into Cotton On,

another average brand shop.

Walao! Damn cheap,

I bought three colourful scarfs, a knit long-sleeve clothes, a Korean style winter boots for only $80.

Convert into Malaysian Ringgit is only $240!

Come on ! Where to get this market price?

This is how I save money,

my facebook followers always thought that I am a big spender,

but in fact,

I did not, I judge and buy things according to rational market price.

But sometimes, when I get high,

I still mad in spending.

But it's only in the situation that if I really really love that certain thing or place which really really delicious.

Just like this time,

 I gonna held my once big life 21st years old birthday party,

the most significant birthday party that people always used to described in life, 

I've planned it to make it in Hilton Hotel,

the hotel which owned by real Paris Hilton.

I gonna make it grandly, memorably, uniquely as well as unforgettably in the taste of happy.

I've consulted the hotel manager, it cost around $1500 Aussie.

Which is around RM 4500+ !

But I am okay, as long as it happen once in a lifetime,

it just that worthwhile to spend in the taste of happiness !

For my 20 years old birthday,

I think its not that significant and unimportant in life, so I just purely celebrated it in KTV without costing a big amount of money as my friends paid for their own and mine.

But for a certain significant event, I willing to spend more beyond the limit,

This is the girl who tend to spend shopaholic and materialistic :)

This is why I always have the perception

'People doing God looking, as long as we don't do bad and we consistently do good, God will naturally returns us in some way in life, the advance quality of life will comes to us naturally without our finding or discovering, people always ask me 

WHY YOU SO STUPID LET HER BEAT? WHY DONT YOU TELL YOUR PARENTS? 

My answer is here : I dont need to complain to anyone whatever she did to me, I just keep quiet because I know that people doing God looking, God definitely will punish her in one day even I dont tell anyone, and I strongly believed that God will return me something good in some aspects of life as a replacement of bad treatment from her. Thanks lord, I knew you always with me, guarding me and providing me the best luxurious life because you replaced my suffering in a certain way while she is going to face imprisonment in one day because the long-term bad things that you seen upon the sky.'

Last night was a big real Good Friday,

I was hanging out with a big bunch of friends regardless of the unprepared assignments.

The invitation was heading to 'Red Square' - the most hectic club :X

 

Initially,

my instantaneous reaction was 'Oh gosh! Club? I dont involve, I am not club taste.' :X

But the playful Kevin keep brainwash me,

he said

'Go la... Good Friday they got celebration. Ask Carol and Chloe come along. Assignments due date tomorrow what... Come lah haiya...'

I was like -.- !

During clubbing,

I was like really bored,

 really do not know what to do,

but still treat with courtesy, entertained as usual :)

Apparently, 

I danced, shaked and high a little bit,

Grabbed some mad photos which virtually seems high,

but in fact I wasn't high at all,

but if I were in the green mood, the scenario would be the worst to the end.

Most people asked

'Did you drank?'

My answer is

'Yes! I drank !'

But a glass of apple juice, feel sigh right?

Obviously,

That's how good girl behaved :X

Recently,

I have quite many outing invitations and assignments to go,

hence it resulted me in a stressful situation.

Last night, I was really exhausted after went back home from clubbing.

After that,

I chit-chat an hour of Viber call with beloved.

Before my bedtime around 2am,

I thought my trauma did almost recovered and act like I am a wiseacre,

I thought I could fall asleep even I do not take the tranquilizer.

Formerly,

 I am a stubborn person who refused to take medication at all,

but after that, I've figured out by my own,

I think of medicine make me better even its bitter.

 

who knows my 'testing' stubbornness lead me fallen asleep at 7 a.m morning.

Due to the absence of the tranquilizer in my brain, my brain could not rest at all,

I was hypervigilance throughout the night :(

I slept at 7 a.m in the morning and woke up at 12 p.m !

The solid reason that woken my sleeping brain : Oh Ya! Sociology assignment due date tonight!

Certainly,

my brain just that full of flowing unavoidable activities.

I wasn't over-excited and cause sleepless.

But I am just too stressful of my life experience,

I keep having the authentic flashbacks that already gone in few years ago,

the merely one short flashback could obsessively repeated for a couple of hours; interrupted my brain resting activity and drive me mad.

Fresh smooth thighs also let her beat until became old vestigial thighs =.= !

I just perceived that I've mentally overwhelmed by all these.... 

And,

 my low cognitive abilities couldn't solve that much of the indivisible questions. 

Since the day of 25-11-2009,

Few days ago,

I've installed 'We Chat' in my mobile phone.

Excitedly,

Emily had it !

She is the first one who left audio message to me,

'HELLO'!!!

She sounds so excited,

me too!

I never play such a thing before,

since it's free!

Just leave whatever audio message that we wanna deliver to each other!

That night,

my apartment was fire !

After I ran down the apartment,

I was chit-chat happily with Emily.

We chat about a lot of things when I was waiting the firemen extinguish the fire.

In the conversation,

there was the funny part, joking part, gossip part, and the serious part.

I asked Emily

'Why you suddenly borrowed so many gowns from me?'

She said

'One is law night wear ones... another two is Fion's wedding. She invited me!'

I said

'FION???'

She said

'Anah! Fion pregnant edi you know??'

I said

'HAHAHA! Fion only how old? Fion not last time MMU ones? What she studying?'

She said

'Anah! Fion now foundation same class with me, study law lo....'

I said

'She still studying can pregnant meh?'

She said

'How I know haha! Her boyfriend also MMU ones... but just graduated....'

I said

'Oh her boyfriend studied what previously?'

She said

'Also studied law lo....'

I said

'Har ! Fion just came in MMU for how long? last year June until now... 9 months only?'

She said

'Anah! She just knew the boy since she came in MMU, then she walked with him, a very suddenly she told me she pregnant already... she said she going married with him then invited me.'

I said

'But she pregnant still can study meh?'

She said

'Can la...'
I said

'But last time MMU rules got mentioned pregnant must break leh....'

She said

'Anah! Break a few months, after pregnant continue her study again la....'

I said

'Then when you see her stomach got big meh? Or normal only?'

She said

'I dont know leh... I never notice her stomach... but when she told me is already 5 months....'

I said

'5 months!!!! 5 months already very big leh...'

She laughed and said

'Haha! You also know I everything don't know don't know ones... until she told me only I looked at her stomach... '

I laughed and said

'Haha! Tell you one funny thing, I got one cousin, my cousin's wife... she told me she 1992 year she study form 2 in GBS. She told me that time Pn Lye was already in GBS and taught her English, but still haven't become discipline teacher only. Then I said 1992? Then she said Ah! Then I straight asked her : Then you got saw her pregnant or not? Because I born on 1992, and her daughter also born on 92 years... then she said got.... Haha!'

when I said like that,

Emily even non stop laughing!

Emily laughed and said

'hahaha! Pn Lye pregnant? Very funny leh! Its really hard to imagine! Her hair short short and pregnant?? You never ask her that time Pn Lye pregnant, her temper got better or not? Haha!'

I said

'All these important things, of course I got ask la... but she said when Pn Lye's pregnant, her temper also the same... like now like that... also fierce ones... then I asked her how to say fierce? She said Hmm... like to scold people lo...'

Emily said

'Pregnant can scold people ones meh??'

I said

'Hahaha how I know? My cousin said she many years ago already like that....'

Emily laughed and said

'Patut lye chuin li now like something wrong la....'

I asked her seriously

'Why pregnant scold people will cause children become something wrong ones?'

She said

'Will la... pregnant cannot simply come ones... If a mother always get angry, simply scold or very emotional during pregnancy, when the child come out, the child will becomes problematic ones... like autism all those...'

I said

'Oh.... last time my dad brought me to the Taiwan therapist, the therapist also know something like fortune telling ones... he said last time my parents quarreled during my mum's pregnant me, then he said before I came out from this world, already like that...'

She said

'Anah! Will ones... pregnant cannot simply scold ones... because will stimulate baby's brain.... will cause brain injury ones... because baby still very fragile in the stomach... you see that lcl also... I think sure last time Pl simply scold during pregnancy, now lcl become a bit autistic like that...'

I laughed and said

'Hahaha! Autistic... why you said the same thing as Tee Syi Rui said? Last time I told her that lcl siao ones... when hung kiat go pn lye's house find Pn lye, want to talked only... then she straight shouted at the door there... then Tee Syi Rui said maybe she got problem ones... then I asked her, I said why like this means got problem? I told her I said Hung Kiat also said like this means got problem... then she said I think she is Autism...'

Emily said

'Anah! I also think she got a bit autistic... from her face la... plus the things you described about her behavior...'

I said

'That time I asked Tee Syi Rui, why shouted like this means Autistic? Then she said she got one cousin got autistic ones... when people came to her house, she will simply shouted very loud ones... Then I asked her but why Lye Chuin Li still can get straight A's? Then she said her that cousin also UPSR, PMR all straight A's ones...'

Emily said

'Anah! Autism only, doesn't mean can't study... just like your hyperactive... hyperactive got so many peoples... clever study ones also got... not clever study ones also got... when I was 9 years old, my mum brought me to the doctor, the doctor brain scan me also said I got hyperactive, but my UPSR, PMR and SPM also straight A's... so autism also the same... clever study ones also got... not clever study ones also got...'

I said

'Also true... But I really can't see out she got autism! I asked Tee Syi Rui, I said autism people not quiet quiet ones? They will scold people ones meh? Then Tee Syi Rui said will la... she said all autism people have different symptoms but plus minus are almost the same...'

She said

'Anah! Every illness also like that ones... just like you and me... many teachers in GBS also said I exactly look like you, but I still have certain ways behave different than you, because you are still you, I am still who I am, we are from different body.'

I said

'Haha! Who said you look like me?'

She said

'Thomas wee lo... Alex lo... a lot la... I forgot d... and Mr. Lew ! Got one time when I entered staff room, very coincidence I heard he talked about us you know? he said : That Emily totally same with Clarissa. Both are totally the same.'

I said

'Hua! Like that also let you heard it ah? So chun ah? Eh as saying goes... people who overheard others talking about them usually have very good fate know?'

She said

'Anah! That time I form 4, he taught me moral... then when I went into the staff room, he talked to Lai Yoke Pin... he said that Emily exactly the same as Clarissa. When I asked her to stand outside the class, she ran away!'

I said

'Hahaha! Ya la! Got one time he asked me to stand outside the class, I got stand awhile, but after 5 minutes like that, I very boring, dont know what to do... then I just walked away...'

She said

'Yes yes yes! I also! I straight went away... very boring you know?'

I said

'Anah! Then when Pengetua asked me why come out? I said Mr. Lew asked me come out ones... then she straight went to my class scold Mr. Lew haha... she said: Lain kali jangan sebarang kasi dia keluar....'

Emily said

'Hahaha! I think he scared edi... because the second time when he asked me to stand out of the class, he asked me to stand beside the door, but inside the class... he scared I ran away haha...'

I laughed and said

'Hahaha! But I still think we are different but a lot people keeping telling me : Eh! You and Emily totally the same ones! Both of your patterns and the way you talk.... Eh! Actually not only teachers know... some people also know you hyperactive ones you know? I tell you... you know Swee Hui Ling? Now she came Australia study.. she just came for one month only, then when we came out together, she also told me both of us are the same... then I said where got? Then she straight said got leh..'

She said

'Why will talk about me ones? You all talked from where?'

I said

'Because that time Hung Kiat phoned me mah... You also know Hung Kiat always talk about Pn Lye with me ones... then when I hang up the call... she asked me why? Then I said no la... haha we talked about that Pn Lye la... then I asked her you know Pn Lye and me not ngam ones or not? Then she said Aiya from last time form 3, everybody also knew already la... hahaha.... then I said Anah! then I told her last time in school she everyday beat me... then she said she tak sangka pn lye is this kind of person... she said because she is close with Michelle Meow last time, she said she just knew Pn Lye like to satirize and like to scold Michelle only... but physical contact she daren't.... then I said dare leh! She also got cane Emily! Then Swee Hui Ling straight said : Yer! Why she like that ones? She anti-hyperactive ones is it?'

When Emily heard that,

Emily keep laughing!
Emily said

'Hahaha! Anti-hyperactive! She said like this is funny! You never laugh meh when she said like that?'

I said

'Got lah.... when she said Pn Lye anti-hyperactive, I keep laughing non stop when I heard the word.... because when she said that.. her face is damn serious... like asking like that... and her eyebrow got a bit bend down that type...'

Emily laughed and said

'Hahaha! I can imagined her doubtful face.... Then you never ask her how she know I hyperactive?'

I said

'Got... I asked her how you know she got hyperactive? Then she said last time Star Reunite, she went to the performance modelling... she said you also went... she said that time you perform Angel... then she said after everybody performed, very tired, all tired till cannot move edi, you still run here and there disturbed them... she said you disturbed those make-up stuffs?'

She laughed and said

'Hahaha! Anah last time form 2 mah... then what she said some more?'

I said

'Then she asked me now Emily okay already or not lo... Then I said get better a lot already lo... last time she will simply screamed ones... now don't have edi... sometimes just gila gila talk China slang with me only.... then she said : You also leh! You get better damn a lot! Last time I remembered when you were form 2 form 3 like that, Damn Dian ones! Hahaha!'

Emily said

'Then?'

I said

'Then she asked me both of us eat how many years medicine? I said you eat 4 years like that... I eat 3 years only.... plus minus the same lo...'

Emily said

'Then some more?'

I said

'She said she saw our KTV videos... she said she saw both of us sit on top the sofa and lied on Dataran Pahlawan field...'

She said

'Lied on field only very weird meh??'

I said

'Anoh! I also dont know why Tee Syi Rui keep saying both of us are gila... then I asked her why said both of us gila? Then she said because both of you lied on the Dataran Pahlawan field... she said nobody will do that...'

She said

'Is her self who close minded....'

I said

'Anah! Very normal only leh.... in Australia, some people alone lied on grass outside our Uni also got leh....'

She said

'Then any GBS teachers got told you before both of us look alike?'

I said

'Got lah! Quek Mui Hong lo... and Ong Siew Mei got comment our videos in facebook last time... she said both of us look alike can go and take part comedy competition already hahaha! That Ong Siew Mei talked always very funny ones!'

She said

'How QUek Mui hong told you we looked alike?'

I said

'Sometimes I go Kampung Lapan pasar malam will saw her... then she said Eh! You and Emily damn look alike ones... teacher very admired both of you always wear pretty, wear the same, go out together! Last time when teacher still young also like you both like that... always go Hotel eat ones....'

She laughed and said

'Yes yes yes! She also told me like that in school... when she saw me in school, she said : Eh you and that Ngoh Huay Ching very close oh... both of you Hen Xiang leh... Lao Shi Nian Qing De Shi Hou Ye Shi Xiang Ni Men Jiang de... Hen enjoy de.... the most funny is Quek Mui Hong asked me, why You and Ngoh Huay Ching got so many same clothes ones??'

I said

'Hahaha! You never tell her because our good body stature? So we want to show off then only we wear the same??!! Hehehe! Hmmm who some more got said we look alike ah?? Ah! Thomas Wee! Last time in Dewan he told us: Dua ni perangai sama.... jalan sini jalan sana... haha you forgot d ah? That time before school bell ring....'

She said

'oh yes yes yes! I remembered d... haha! Very funny leh Thomas Wee... once he saw me he always said Emily emily emily!!! Hahaha!'

I said

'Why Thomas Wee said you like that ? You got round school ones meh?'

She said

'Got la... you always seen me you forgot d ah?'

I said

'I remembered I always seen you, but I dont know where you going? Just saw you passed by only... but you look like very free like that... you saw me then suddenly : Clar! Want go where where where or not?? Haha! Still remembered? Got one time we simply went into Bengkel then saw Ashraff... who knows once we stepped into the Bengkel, let Ashraff scolded : Dua perempuan gila datang nak buat apa??.... haha!'

 

She said

'Anah! Ashraff always scolded me like that ones...'

I said

'I also! Last time form 3, he taught me English, he always called me Gila ones... but to be frankly, Ashraff's person very good ones know? last time when I went out the class, Mei Huey told me he told the class, Ngoh keluar boleh sebab dia hyperactive... yang lain tak boleh! Mesti ada pass....'

He said

'Anah! Ashraff's person very good ones... I tell you last time I always disturbed him, I stepped his shoes all those and used the hammer throw on his shoes... he won't angry ones... but still can very optimistic, laughed and scolded me naughty girl or gila only... unlike other teacher... I think for Pn Lye sure Okay ! Then rush here rush there like Siao Cha Bo already...'

when she said that I really can't stop laughing!

I said

'Yes yes yes~ The impression Pn Lye gave me is rush here rush there... I told Datin and imitated her pattern out... Datin also non stop laughing HAHAHAHA like that... Datin said the way I act is totally the same haha!'

Emily said

'Anah! Pn Lye always like that ones leh... you dont know meh? Her favourite quotation is I GO AND TAKE THE CANE.... then start rush here rush there already....'

I said

'hahaha! Yes yes yes! But I will go chase ones leh....'

Emily said

'Yes yes yes! I also I also! I will go and chase ones... sometimes I will screamed ones... That time in dewan... don't know what thing already, she scolded me, then I shouted back at her only, then she straight told Ee Bee Fong beside, she asked Ee Bee Fong go take cane...'

I said

'Anah! Her person cannot shouted back or talk back ones leh... she will says I go and take the cane ones... that day at her house also, she said anything I just keep quiet... don't even dare to say No or I dont want... that time she asked me to take out my phone, want to see who phone me only... but I dont dare to take out my phone, because I scared she will take away my phone then walk in her house... then I just looked at her and keep quiet only... because if her hand got take cane, if you talk back her or talk something, she will straight hit ones... But Ee Bee Fong's person I think she won't help her do bad things bahhh?'

She said

'Anah! Ee Bee Fong speak Hokkien with her ones... I heard Ee Bee Fong said what Bo Si Tua Tai Ci.... dont know what they talking about.... what is the meaning?'

When I heard that,

I really non stop laughing,

because Emily speak Hokkien!

Haha!

Then Emily said 

'What so funny? I just asked what's the meaning only?'

I said

'Hahaha! BO SI TUA TAI CHI means not big matter... I think when Ee Bee Fong refused to help her sure she very angry ones....'

Emily said 

'Anah anah! How you know? She straight scolded... she said: This girl ah... too much know? Something like that....'

I said

'Anah! She always like that ones leh... her second favourite quotation...'

Oh yeah!

I forgot to talk about the second person who pregnant!

Goh Hui Wen! Last time account class student, same age with me.

Heard from Syi Rui.

She has been pregnant and gonna get married soon.

Congratulatz anyway :D

Hope to have a healthy baby !

Because they are just considered the immature mothers :X

Don't like me, born so imperfectly :(

Look at my hand, so cacat :X