One earth and two big world

The world is really small, but the social complexion among human being is highly complicated,

homo sapiens are all born with two arms, two legs and a head,

but comes with different traits and social background,

and the macro social structure in the society was inevitably described in a pyramid level,

which ranged from slaves, skilled workers, professional, businessman to the premium millionaire.

It's almost impossible to deal with non like-minded individuals, 

the non "like-minded" here refers to both persons who completely comes from different world,

we find it struggle to interact with each other,

we are standing at different countries, surviving the different time zone, brought up by the different family culture, lives in the different family background, having polar education level, possessing different peer circles, social knowledge and cultural knowledge.

Our interactions are almost disconnected, where I am the only one who kick off the conversation,

whereas her replies usually numbed me for her limited exposure.

Socially speaking, which I applied my knowledge from what I learned,

the 'secularization' effect already dragged us apart of the world and we are categorized under "completely secularization",

our belief, knowledge, value, education background, cultural capital, peer circles, financial and social background are exactly on the pole side.

Absolutely, I know I'm a braggart in the eye of poor,

I don't know how to define what they think,

 but I could truly feel how they felt and perceived what they think.

It's sort of like the green eyes monsters starring at your achievements helplessly, and the incompetency within themselves hurt them faster than the speed you heal them up.

Low self esteem, low confidence and inferiority,

three of them are different definition but distinctly interrelated to each other.

Perhaps,

I didn't truly experience before how does a poor life looks like,

and I did watched movie, but I still can't feel the physical feeling within the heart,

but I could sympathized their environment.

I try to stand in a poor's shoes,

imagining that I end up my high school in a local high school, assumed that I having the worst result ever with no pass, my dad and mom have no extra salary for my marriage nor travel,

and I have no money to keep myself in a rich peer circle.

What can I do?

I pondered this answer for about 5 seconds,

and my answers are

"I would try to mix a better person and be hardworking in any jobs opportunities that offer me, that is why I could do for myself".

But still, even I attempted to accommodate mixing with the poor,

but I still failed at many times,

I feel our interaction and mindsets are completely different.

It's like nothing is being provoke, they feel a sense of indignant, anger and aggressiveness.

Well,

after pondering the whole day while window shopping ,

I made up a decision when a brilliant idea sparked in my mind.

and the most exaggerating thing is I even rolled down my tears in the public and thinking

I decided to let everything flow naturally according to feeling,

I try my best to accommodate to a lower social environment; try not to be too "intelligent" or "braggart" at some points,

if the situations still happen like usual,

I'll decided to leave the friendship and promise myself never involve in a relation with the poor anymore,

enough is enough.

Optimistically think it, since she doesn't help me anything or can't provide any benefits to me,

I non stop treating her good also not a solution,

why not find a better person in my life who comes up in well-rounded?

So when the standard is met, there's no objection between two thoughts.

Good night world, alternative decisions are made, my hearts are lighter now.