A year of celebration

When heading to the positive thinking way,

 next year February, we are officially a year of friend,

instead of counting five years of add math ceremony; seven years of animosity and nine years of negative relationship.

We are eventually a year of friend on next year February if God didn't intend to change anything.

Something really surprisingly,

I really never expect that she'll becomes a kind and pure person after many years of brutality. 

In the beginning,

I am holding massive of fears when she told me that she wanted to becomes my friend,

I'm doubting her sincerity and her hidden motive,

such as thinking that she will ultimately betray my trust,

eg. outspoken all my secrets or purposely opposed my intentions. 

I am still wondering the reasons why she changed so much,

indeed, her changes really frightened me a lot,

previously, I even think that I prefer her to be an 'inborn' her rather than an 'artificial' her.

That time,

I told kaima that I really afraid of her kind actions,

Kaima even laughed at my innocence and said

'Hahaha!!! Why?? She became good not good meh?? Why you afraid till like that??'

*I was crying in whatsapp. LOL!

I weep and said

'not... not... not 'not good' la.... but just too scary... I very scary she want to do anything to me, so that she pretended good to me and then harm me at the end... I know one... I really know her a lot.... waaaaaaa..... she... she... she wants to harm me....'

Kaima said

'hahaha!! Really dont have la... I can swear this time she is real one... Eh! I tell you, today she suddenly gave me a red lipstick, then she told me, nah ji gei ho lu.... then I said zo mi.... lu ho wa zo mi.... then she said bo la, I ai kam sia you make clarissa and me become friend, so I bought this for you as thank you, you see ah, if she really want to harm you, she already wont bought lipstick for me,  already own self plan behind and own self harm you at the end... so trust her one time la... dont cry la... not scared one...'

I started to stop crying, I said

'Really? She really wont harm me one???'

She said

'Really, this time she wont harm you one, if she wants to harm you sure I tell you one.. plus Pn Lye got pray god one... so she wont harm you one...'

I said

'Anoh anoh! That day I went her house, I saw she was praying.'

She said

'Ya la, I knew she was buddhism all the time, so no worries la, she wont harm you one.'

I said

'But why last time she is buddhism, but also why she harm ? And now she is buddhism, why she never harm?'

LOL!!! Kaima speechless but laughed out her lung when I said like that,

*I'm actually out of curiousness and asked such questions,

kaima laughed and said

'hahaha! How i know?? Maybe now she prayed more and last time prayed lesser.... now got more belief... last time more cincai....'

I cried again and said

'But.... but I still very scared.... Tuesday she came out with dog, and said Junior bite! And Friday she said she wants to become friend with me.... (sounds of weeping).... I... I ... I still very scared....'

LOL! When Kaima heard that,

she even laughed louder,

she said

'Hahahahaha!!! I really cannot tahan you, but I told you this time is real la.... if you dont believe, you can take time observe, see she still got harm you or not...'

Now, it has been 9 months,

when I went her house, she really never harms me any more.

Seems like daddy mommy's hearts can stop jumping with fears about her hazardness and let me go her house without thinking about my safety.

another part of credits goes to Sherryn,

she told me the same thing as Kaima,

'As I said, not to feel scared, just wait and see!'

Now,

I really see nothing :)

However,

I still afraid of her character that she is cease to be faithful,

quite sometimes,

I will still worry in the midnight,

thinking that she will change back to her originality anytime, 

and also thinking that she thinking in heart

'Now dont care already, change to bad again like Mr Hyde...'

Hide, hide, hide!!!

Hide away the kindness and demonstrate her endless cruelness. 

Broadly speaking,

I really need someone to tell me everyday that she ain't that scary anymore,

she's quite sincere, quite kind, quite warm-hearted now.

I really need that person right now....