stop doing that

Stop doing that !!!

Cuz he doesn't like it and I don't like it concurrently,

don't be idiotic and crazy!

what are you doing? Stop committing crazy things,

stop peeping, stop yearning and stop fantasizing him.

Bear in mind, the way towards success is to not to get soft-hearted,

it's past and you done greatly for a year,

don't even give yourself a space to think about it,

so just blocked him everywhere for your own sake,

control your itchy hand and active mind from thinking about him and releasing your thoughts.

He's not my cup of tea, he's not mine, he has been someone else since ages ago, he's been cheated you all the time, he's been apologized all the way for his girl.

So now, why he's still so important in your heart?

Can you try to accept new one and stop looking back?

Bear in mind,

the more you go toward him, the more harm you'll gotten.

Don't harm yourself, if you really do so, the endless apologies will eventually come back to you.

Yes, I loved him, but not now any more,

I loved him when I was 19, 20 and 21.

When I was 22, I started realized that he began to changed, perhaps that's the development that I witnessed his growth,

since the day I realised that he has been stepped in another boat,

my head and heart knew this all the way, yet don't admit to anyone who asked me.

Just don't really understand that why people asked me

'Does he has new girlfriend?'

My mouth eventually outspoken

'No, he doesnt, he just doesnt loves me any more, so that's the reason we broke up, he always ignored me and keep me waiting, leaved me at somewhere else and went his way. And then sorry at the end, from the phone, he sounds like mixing with another kids and swaggers like he doesnt needs me.'

Now,

we have been separated for one year and two months,

and I'm living fine and peaceful, so why shall I search the old pain?

I been withstand the separation pains for a year and two months,

I done greatly and confidently,

but till recently, I realized my act is a little excessive,

my peeping getting serious; from monthly to weekly, and from weekly to daily.

I am sure that he knew I did that yesterday cuz I accidentally used the unauthorized computer in the uni, and the computer blocked me from assessing it,

today I found out the password had changed because I tried twice.

Well,

I think at the same time he helped me forget him too,

should be appreciate instead of moody.

cheer! Still got assignment to do,

ain't that life is generated by that way?

survive day by day, and just let the time pass,

sometimes we hurt, we sob, we laughed, we smiled, we reconciled, we understood, we realized a lot of things that we literally shouldn't done that way in past.