Interference to everyone

Just now,

when everyone went out the house,

left Jackie and me in the house.

He told me that Gerald gonna move out together with him,

I told him that I also thinking to move out,

our similar reason is because the hyperactivity of Cornelia :(

Yet, not only me,

Gerald and Jackie thinking to move out because the hyperactivity of Cornelia.

The first question I asked Jackie

'Before you move in with her, you all dont know she got hyperactive ones?'

Jackie said

'We knew, Gerald got told me... but initially we just think of even she hyperactive, but we still stay in a different room, we never think of she will keep coming in our room and disturb us. But now we really can't withstand her, because sometimes we got morning class, we told her we have to sleep early, but she doesn't care at all, she stays in our room till 5am and making noise, so the next day we go to school really tired. And we still have assignments to do, she everyday bothering us, we really dont have time to do, staying with us really too tired, so we have to move out.'

I said

'I also I also! I wanna move out because too noisy d... dont tell her know??'

He said

'Of course! From what I said, u also dont tell her.... but how u think she disturb you?'

I said

'She never disturb me, but her noise is too noisy, I can't do assignments, I can't sleep in the midnight, I can't rest in the afternoon, sometimes morning she will cried before she wake up, noisy till I woke up, or sometimes when she wants me to wake up, she will keep calling and shouting... very troublesome. I can't have a good sleep.'

He said

'Yea... Gerald and me also think too troublesome dyyy.... Because when I at home, she keep sticking me, I can't do homework, I want to sleep at night, my bed is just single bed, she wants to sleep with me. I told her I dont want, but she refused to go out until the next morning, very uncomfortable. And sometimes, when she slept together with me, I would had nightmares. Because usually I dont dream ones, but when she sleep with me, I would dreamed some bad things about her.'

I laughed and said

'Hahaha! Are you serious??!!!'

He said

'Yes. Because sometimes she is too much, no one of us can control her hyperactivity. You remembered last semester when we went back Hong Kong??'

I said

'Yes. I also went back Malaysia that time?'

He said

'Yes! That time, she disturbed Gerald, she took Gerald's hand phone and wallet and hide it. Then Gerald asked her to take out because the flight is almost depart, she refused, at the end, Gerald missed his flight, took his flight on another day, Gerald's mother scolded him.'

I said

'Walao! Too much dyy....'

He said

'Walao? What is Walao?'

I said

'Hahaha! Walao is too much, Malaysian language.'

He said

'Yea... Cornelia is really too crazy, but before you move into our house, you also dont know Cornelia is hyperactive?'

I said

'I knew, Ada got told me, but at that time I just think the most just ignore her voices or don't care only, who knows is loud till unbearable, effecting me when doing assignment and can't sleep at all. Sometimes I talking the phone with my boyfriend, I can't even hear what he was talking the phone even I already closed the door, my boyfriend also said he keep hearing her voice instead of me. And sometimes in the morning, when I still sleeping, when she woke up already, her crying voice woke me up, I very tired in the morning. So I think I have to move out, I think coming out with her its alright, but just dont want stay with her.'

He said

'Yea... actually the first three day when we moved in already got people complained till now.'

I said

'I knew, after I moved in, I heard Ada said got Negro complained, and when we walked in the night, Carol told me to be quiet, because got Caucasian complained before, first three unit, in front there?'

He laughed and said

'hahaha! Not only that, got security guard complained before, that time the guard passed by the corridor, he knocked our door then Gerald opened the door, the guard told Gerald ask the girl be quiet, not be so loud in the morning because people still sleeping, and after a few weeks when we just moved in, don't know who sticked a note on our door and wrote ASK THE GIRL BE QUIET, AND ASK HER USE HER ENERGY IN THE MORNING INSTEAD OF NIGHT. THANK YOU.'

When I heard that I really can't stop laughing!

I said

'Hahahaha! Who wrote like that?'

He said

'Dont know... the note never write name, but just write like that only. Hahaha!'

I said

'Yea... seriously she is too noisy dyyy because for my person, no matter how loud or how noisy also I can dont care ones... but I never meet before such people that her noise would really affected me to the level of can't do my assignment at all, I can't even think, because I keep hearing her noise. At first I thought you dont mind, who knows you grumbled behind haha. My boyfriend also got asked me why Cornelia everyday beat him and bite him, why he can tahan meh? Haha!'

He said

'Yea!!! Its really painful ! She really hit really hard and we really can't tahan her, she bitten Gerald and me until our hand blue back and still got brought painful ones... we seriously asked her not to like that, she angry us and walked out our room.'

I said

'Har! Like that also she angry? Why she like that ones?'

He said

'Yes... she also made people angry, then when people asked her not to do that, then she angry us. Just like last time, because she got at home, too noisy... then I told her I want go to school do assignment and I let her play my laptop, but I ask her to bring the USB that attached with my laptop. She refused to give me until I never do the assignment at all. So I think very troublesome staying with her, when need to do assignment still need to walk to school, and walk to school still never mind, she still took my USB refused to let me do assignments. Haiz....'

I said

'Yer! Why she like that ones? Why she took your USB and refuse to give you?'

He said

'Dont know... she always do things no reason.'

I said

'Or I think she got Bian Tai is it?'

He said

'Yes! Haha! we are thinking the same thing as you.'

I said

'Yes I think she is Bian tai, because I met before one person, she got Bian Tai ones.... she also took other people things without any reason. Like last time, when I still in M'sia, she took my key away without any reason and also refused to give me for hours.'

He said

'I think Cornelia also, because she also always do things without reason.'

I said

'When you told me all these, I think she not only hyperactive, she got BIAN TAI.... because from what I observed her, I think she has... like that day computer class, we have to do a brochure for assignment, then she keep asking me Sasa you think like this is more scary or like this is more scary? Then I told her not to do scary things, people will scared. Then she said her aim is to frighten people, she insist to does scary background, then she some more wrote: IF YOU DARE THEN OPEN IT. haha! I ask her not to write like that in the brochure, she insists wants to do it, even the lecturer saw it also keep laughing. Funny! And I asked her dont write like that, I said because your brochure so scary, who dare to open? Then she said scary is good, my design is I want to make it scary. Haha! She really printed out with the words IF YOU DARE OPEN IT!'

(right hand side)

He said

'Yea... I think she got Bian Tai... she keep wanting to make people scared.'

I said

'Ya la! Normal people where got like that ones... like me sure want to make it attractive and elegant, where got people make it scary ones? Like me, I make it plain and elegant, so only people will open it and read your brochure. Look at mine.... I make it for my boyfriend business.... the logo all I designed myself ones...'

(Hers - the scary design)

He laughed and said

'Yes yes yes! Cornelia is really got a bit Bian Tai.... She likes to watch ghost movie also.... and like to make scary face to other people walking on the street.'

I said

'Yea... She always told me its very excited to do scary things to scare people. She said when she walked on the street alone, she very boring, then she said when she seeing got people ongoing to pass by, she purposely opened her eyes very big and starred at the stranger with slanting eyesight with closed-lip scary mouth... then she said when the person dont dare to move forward and quickly crossed the road, she said very exciting because people walked away. And she said got one time 1am midnight, she purposely wear red red and went out her house taman played the swing, then she said when people look at her, then she said she starred people with slanting eyesight and close lips then make people walk away.'

He said

'Yes I think she really got a bit Bian tai... haha!'

I said

'I dont know why when heard you said like that, I suddenly felt like she has the few similar characteristics with the Bian tai teacher that I knew. That bian tai teacher also like that ones... I remembered I was form 1, whenever she passed by my class, she also always looked at me with slanting eyesight with tight lips. Now, when I think back, I dont know whether that teacher purposely did that face ones or she already used to, but for Cornelia, she told me she purposely ones... she said because she wants to disturb and frighten the people that she doesn't knows. She said is very funny to see people walk away.'

He said

'I think for Cornelia is playful only, her motives is disturb people only no others.'

I said

'Also true la... I think she dont have bian tai la... I think she just like to play and disturb people only, because sometimes she is quite friendly and helpful, but just too noisy only.'

He said

'Now gerald and me are discussing where we want to move. Haha! Because we really cant withstand her anymore, her hyperactivity really severely disturbed our life, we want to do assignment also cannot, sometimes she ate chocolate and simply threw on the sofa, we have to cleaned it, washed her plates all those. The most terrifying is we really tired when she stays with us, because she keep playing in our room and refused to let us sleep, we really tired during the next morning in the class. Even do assignments time also don't have. Haiz... one sentence she really brought too much troubles to us.'

I said

'I think her hyperactive is severe ones... because actually few years ago, doctor also got said me as hyperactive, but my hyperactivity level also don't reach her such level. I wont scream and laugh like that at home ones... just sometimes when comes to thing which very very funny only I will laughed like that, and even I laughed like that also laughed once only, I wont keep continued laughing and screaming for hours. And I think Cornelia she already reached the level totally couldn't concentrate.'

he said

'Yes. She totally reach the level cant concentrate already.'

I said

'Yea... because that day you still remembered Cornelia and me came home at 9 pm something? Because her la... I 5pm something already done, she keep playing when doing the assignment. Because the next day is due date, we already panicked and just try to finish seriously only. She still can simply clicked this and that and asked me to look, then keep laughing alone. Then I also felt embarrass to ask her dont play, so I just implied her and said: I THINK WE BETTER QUICKLY GO, SCARED NOT ENOUGH TIME TO DO... DONT WASTE TIME PLAYING ALREADY... She still continued laughed and play when doing assignment, that is why I wait her till 9pm something! She really reached the level cannot concentrate anything, just like we normal people, even we laughed and played also laughed once only, she can played all the way till she complete the brochure. And I told her I very hungry d... quickly do, she still continue played and laughed... she was like keep adding some irrelevant pictures then ask me to look, then after I was like treat with courtesy, I just quickly laughed back for few seconds and quickly continue my things, but she keep asking me to look from 2pm something till 9pm something. And not only disturb, when she laughing is really noisy and loud. Because we went computer room do the assignment mah... a lot people... then I asked her not to laugh because people have to do their works, she dont care. The most tiring is when I was doing assignment she keep asking me to look hers, 7 hours like that very tired know? And 7 hours only she finish doing the whole brochure.... I three hours already done everything...'

Jackie said

'Yes, her hyperactivity level really reach totally cant concentrate already.'

I said

'Then if she really cant concentrate how she learn?'

He laughed and said

'Dont know... I think she got her own way bahhh.... haha!'

He said

'But through the way you behaved at home, I think you are better than her a lot, at least you will sit down and study, reading those English books.'

I said

'Haha! You saw I reading English books?'

He said

'Yes, sometimes when I came in your room find Carol, I saw you always reading a small book, what's that? Why you always reading that book?'

I said

'Ohhhh hahaha! That one is Media and Communication. Because we always got quiz, we need that book to answer the questions, the crazy lecturer she wants us to read 6 given topics in the Uni website and another 4 topics from the book, these add up 10 topics just to answer 10 questions only =.=! Plus so long till read.... fade up!'

He said

'But why I never seen Cornelia read before ones?'

I said

'She ah.... she wait me only, after I done the quiz, she asked me to help her answer because I read already. Then when she got 80 marks, she very happy, she said she no need to read then can get 80. She said I stay with her is very good, she ask me dont move away.'

He said

'Haha 10 topics... I think Cornelia dont even have the patience to read 1 topic, still need to say 10 topics....'

I said

'Actually I think Cornelia not suitable studying Journalism... because she dont have patience to read, I think she suitable study computing, because she told me she likes computing stuffs so much. She should study computer science all those related.'

He said

'Then I think your math is quite good, our aviation engineering stuffs all questions also you could answered. Why you would transferred from engineering to Journalism? Its a 360 degree different thing, from a very pure science to a very pure art, from a totally math to a totally language field? Why you want to changed course?'

I said

'Good doesnt means everything. Sometimes, no matter how good, we still have to select another path. The story is too long, and its complicated to tell you. Why?'

He said

'No ah... I just feel weird and wasted.'

I said

'Haha! Carol also said its wasted. Why wasted?'

He said

'Because you just left degree only then you can become engineer already, suddenly stop it feel very wasted.'

I said

'Haha! Why you are saying the same thing as Carol?'

He said

'Yes, its really very wasted, first is your math is good, you switched course is really wasted, second is you left degree only you can become engineer already.'

I said

'Actually, simplified my words, I have dark shadow towards math, so when I seeing mathematical symbols or elements I would related it to my shadow, then keep thinking and can't continue calculate anymore. I would sat at there keep day dreaming and thinking the past, sometimes my hand and mouth would trembled at the same time. Then my father ask me to switch to a course which have no calculation at all.'

He said

'Hua! So serious.'

I said

'Yes. Is very serious. That is why you everyday seeing I took pills before my bed.'

He said

'Ohhhh.... no wonder la... I seeing you every nights eat pills before sleep...'

I said

'Yes. I am just that serious. I still cant expect I need to take pills till when, because if one day I missed the pills, I can't sleep till the next day, cant go to school, will miss class, so I cant one day never take pills.'

He said

'So, the person who brought you trauma sure is a very scary person?'

I said

'Yes. She is scary till you would never imagine. She took cane, knifes, wooden sticks, wooden spoon and everything that you will never expect.'

He asked

'This trauma is related to attack?'

I said

'Yes. How you know?'

He said

'I tell you, you dont tell Carol they all ok?'

I said

'Ok... but I never tell them before about all these. What they said me?'

He said

'I knew you dont tell them before, but they got talked about you behind, they dont know you got trauma, they just said you look weird, dont know got what trauma before or not... they said you always got people very near you, then you will hold their hand tightly or got big reaction....'

I said

'Ya hahaha! Because when people near me, I scared they suddenly beat me or something like that. So sometimes when walking on street, got people pass by which really near me, I would very scared and asked them stop walking, wait that person went far away already only we move.'

He said

'Ya... they said you something like that... they said got one time you all walking on the street, got one person passed by with holding a rose only, you get frightened, you whole person jumped up or something like that ?'

I said

'hahaha! They told you this? Yes lah! I thought he wants to beat me, I keep jumping. Because that time we walking on street, got one man walked quite fast, he passed by us from face to face direction. And the street is quiet narrow, his shoulder passed by my shoulder, very near only. Then I saw he holding something a lengthy object, but unsure what thing is that. And I thought he wants to beat me, really near know?'

He said

'I think yours is trauma... not really want to beat bah? How come a street passer will suddenly beat you?'

I said

'No... because he is really really near... shoulder to shoulder just one ruler distance only, and I saw his hand holding satu batang thing, but dont know what he is holding only, because he walked very fast, looked like want to beat me.'

He asked

'The person that brought you trauma also walk very fast ones?'

I laughed and said

'Haha! How you know?'

He said

'That is why you have trauma towards people who walking fast.'

I said

'No... I dont have trauma towards people who walking fast, I get frightened and jump up because the person who brought trauma to me, when she beat me also walked very fast towards me ones... also usually took something which satu batang ones... like cane or rod.... so when the man walked towards me so fast, and I saw his hand holding a lengthy thing, so I got the feeling he wants to suddenly beat me, I straight jumped aside and jumped 3-4 times. Then at that time, Carol and Cornelia really get frightened by me know? They suddenly held my hand and asked Sasa what happened?'

He laughed and said

'haha! Then that person never look at you?'

I said

'No... he never saw me... he just walked his way... when I jumped, he already passed by, that is why I said he walked very fast.'

He said

'Then carol they all dont know you got this trauma?'

I said

'Dont know... they just said I am a person who are very insecure only.'

He said

'Then Carol they all how why you jumped like that?'

I said

'At that time their eyes all looked at me very big, look panicked, like get shocked like that and asked me what happened? Then I asked her: What that man holding just now? She said : Holding rose ah... why?? Then I said are you sure he holding rose? Then Carol said: Sure ah... I saw ah!'

He said

'That person who brought you trauma hit you until very serious? Why you will became so serious? Haha! Even people holding rose pass by only, you got so big reaction.'

I said

'Mmm... wounds were on my body, so I seen it and I wont think is serious, but people who saw will show that kind of disgusting face... like squinted the eyes all those.... then can considered quiet serious, and the frequency she did it, got few times already, so maybe the deep trauma is natural ones...'

He said

'Ohhhh you told me like that, I recalled another time when you look weird. You still remembered one of the time, Cornelia, Carol and you waiting Gerald and me in the pub?'

I said

'Hmmm why?'

He said

'That time after went back to home, they also got talked about you at the back, they guessing dont know you got met any incident before or not... they keep talking about you after you slept...'

I said

'That time what happened already?'

He said

'That night, you all waiting Gerald and me clubbing, then you all 5 girls sitting on the sofa and playing phone... then they saw you keep crying... they asked you why... you said you very scared the Negro who stand nearby you....'

I said

'Ya la! I very scared people stand nearby me ones... some more is Negro.... I think they are scary...'

He said

'Actually Negro nothing ones... they just have dark skin only... haha! Maybe they think we Asian so fair, very scary also we dont know! Because everyone has different skin tone... nothing to scared ones.... you cried got a little bit too exaggerating already.... but after you told me about you life incidents, I knew those reactions for you is normal, because after all is a trauma.'

I said

'To be frankly, people will think all those my reactions very weird?'

He said

'Yes! They think you very weird that is why they talking behind, because they dont know you got trauma... like we normal people, we also wont have those reactions when people pass by us, or walking very fast or near us... only people who experienced trauma only they will behaved in an odd way... but after you telling me your life incident, I think its normal. Actually you also no need to scared already, because you already in Australia, that person in Malaysia. She wont attack you anymore since both of you are so far apart.'

I said

'Not because of afraid her, I dont know why I just automatic behaved like that... maybe she beat me, rushed over me too often, so when people walked fast a little bit or quiet near me, I will automatic have that reaction because I already used to what, and also because when that person beat me, I also have the totally same reaction as what you guys saw.. when she beat me I will jumped up all those...'

He said

'Ohhh... no wonder you will jumped aside when people passed by you or near you...'

I said

'Haiz... no choice la... that person who brought me trauma already strongly affected my whole life and my future, because of her, I studied from engineering to journalism, from malaysia to australia. My life is already completely a different thing after the trauma. My father asked me to switch course because I cant walk that path anymore. After the trauma, I got mentally breakdown, I already took leave and rest two semesters at home, but never recover at all. So only my father sent me out of Malaysia. The only reason is want me to get peace, calm down and concentrate in studies, dont involve in math so I wont look back anymore.'

He said

'Ohhhh then have no choice lo... if you can overcome your shadow, then just continue it, if you cant overcome it, then no choice to switch course, because you cant keep continue standing at the same place, you have to change your life to get rid the shadow.'

I said

'Yes my father also said that, he said dont waste time, if cant overcome it, must find a solution, just switch course, at least I move forward and didn't move backward life or didnt unmoved.'

He said

'But I think your language also not bad since you can read all those tiny tiny words and get so high marks.'

I said

'Hmmm... my father said I am tend to language type ones because he said my English is good... but  the teachers that taught me before, they said I am tend to mathematical type ones... and my boyfriend also said I tend to mathematical type ones because based on my interest. How's about you? You think I tend to what type ones?'

He said

'Haha! Not to offensive, I also think you tend to mathematical type ones... because our aviation engineering question also you can solved... that's mean your mathematical science ability very good.'

I said

'Hmmm... based on my high school teachers who taught me, my chemistry, physics and add math teachers also said my these three subjects very good. But my Chinese and Malay teacher never say my language good also. So I think my language good also good in English only because only my english teacher said my English good only. Haha! But not Mandarin and Malay.'

He asked

'Then why since you stop study engineering and decided to go into language field. Why not you go into law since your English is good? From Engineer become lawyer? Haha! Not bad!'

I said

'Haha! Because I dont like memorize things. My biology is the worst among physics, chemistry and biology. And I think memorizing is wasting time. I dont like memorize words, but I like memorizing mathematics formulas only. I like calculating only, if goes to language field, I prefer read and write only. But now when I get into Journalism, I just knew there are so many case studies and codes to memorize.'

He said

'Or you are studying law? Case studies not related to law ones?'

I said

'No.... not law... I knew I am taking journalism, I dont know law student study about what things ones... but now we studying a lot case studies... must read a lot and write a lot of essay... all few thousands few thousands words submission onse... like last semester we study psychology and Australian law, this semester we study sociology, Media communication, News publishing... next semester we going to study criminology, journalist writing and language. So we are learning all these subjects, I dont know law students study about what subjects, but our Journalism is all about wording ones... read and read and read ... no calculation ones...'

He said

'Then I think law and journalism is interrelated, because I got friends study law at here, the assignments and subjects both of you talking about are nearly same.'

I said

'Ohhhh.... maybe lo... because law also language field ones... maybe the course structures are related... I think law and journalism is like chemistry and physics like that... got double degree ones.... because actually our uni they got double degree for our this course which is Double degree for Bachelor (Hons) Journalism and law. But take more years, i think that one takes 6-7 years. Like mine is without double degree, Bachelor (Hons) Journalism only... it need 4 years for only degree, but I shorten it into three years by taking more subjects per semester, so I will complete degree in 3 years only. Plus I took the first year pathway, is only 8 months. So the total course is only 2 years and 8 months. I shorten my first year three semester subjects into two semesters only. Like my friend studying 3-3-2 subjects, I study 4-4 subjects. So I reduce a 4 months.... so its only 2 years and 8 months for me to complete journalism....'

 He said

'why you will study journalism ones? Wont very difficult? The English they used... plus so many words to read and write.'

I said

'Wont ah.... who say difficult... I think its much better a lot and a lot than engineering... now I everyday go shopping still got distinction in every subjects.... Haha!'

He said

'Of course la! Engineering need sit down, draw and calculate and think mah... journalism read and write only....'

I said

'Ya la ! So easy... read and write essay only, as long as your essay is good, can get distinction dy. But at least also must think how to write based on the question asked la... you simply write pointless statement who want to give you marks? haha! Now my thinking changed already, I rather read lengthy pages of words rather than thinking how to draw and solve a complicated circuits. Wahhh... that time I remembered when I still study engineering, the shorter is the question, the harder to do it know? Because they provide less information, then you have to read and understand the hidden principles, think and imagine how the mechanism goes, draw it out only can calculate, and even you calculate also not possibly correct, once your circuit draw wrongly, you havent calculate already everything zero mark!'

He said

'last time you study what engineering?'

I said

'I study electronic ones...'

He said

'Ohhhh my aviation ones also quite similar with yours....'

I said

'OF course la! Aviation also have to learn electronic mah... if not how your plane going to fly? haha!'

He said

'Ya... I understand what are you talking about, I knew the complicated, even now I also facing the same problem as what you said.'

I said

'Yes! Like the lecturer clearly said smooth surface consider zero Newton, then when the question came out with the word of shiny wooden surface, I really applied zero newton in the formula, then the lecturer asked me : Who said wooden surface means zero newton? Then I said because it wrote shiny, shiny means like very smooth what... the lecturer even laughed at me! hahaha! She said who said shiny means smooth? This is the question that I used to trick student, I purposely put the word of shiny.. that is why a lot people get wrong in this question... I was like walao! Sibeh tricky lo that lecturer.... overall, one sentence - engineering is uneasy.'

He said

'Hahaha! Ya la ! I knew! Our lecturer also always do that ones... like the circuit, when the exam came out, is always the things which he never teach before in class....'

I said

'Yes! I dont know how they got so creative can think of such weird questions ones....'

He said

'I think their questions are came out from all the lecturers designed and discussed together ones... that is why book dont have...'

I said

'Haiz.... why make life so complicated? I study journalism, read and read and read SUAN LIAO la... everyday shopping with popping out a degree certificate.... Not bad right? haha!'

He said

'Haha! even you are hyperactive, but you still have a lot of patience read so many words.... Unlike Cornelia, read awhile want to play already...'

 I said

'Ya la! Even I hyperactive, but I unlike her like that, I wont play when doing assignments ones... I do things very serious ones... just like when I draw, I really sit down and seriously draw till finish only I get up, or when I doing math, I really calculate till all questions have answered. From whatever things I do, I really very concentrate ones...'

He said

'Then why the doctor said you hyperactive?'

I said

'I dont know... maybe just the way I behaved and the way my parents described me to him, so he said I hyperactive.'

He asked

'So you can concentrate ones?'

I said

'I just cant concentrate listen what people talking only, but I can concentrate in doing my own things or concentrate reading things.'

He said

'Maybe yours is mild bah?'

I said

'But last time the medicine that the doctor given me is moderate ones...'

He said

'Or I think hyperactive got different kinds bahhh... because I knew autism also got a few types ones....'

I said

'Maybe lo... mine is I can't fully concentrate in listening what people talking only, but I wont cant concentrate in looking things, so I can read for a long time. Anyway, there is some alternate benefit too! Because when people talking about my bad things, I can't fully listen what they said so I wont mind it. Haha!'