Second year

 

Tomorrow,

it's a brand new semester of my degree second year.

Time flies,

I been survived alone and striving so hard in Australia all the way.

It's time to bid-bye to degree first year.

First year life wasn't bad,

academically proud in the eyes of peer.

Shopped a lot, played a lot, relax a lot and the most unforgetably is midnight oil burned a lot.

But nobody knows the amount of midnight oil I sacrificed for exam.

 

People wondered why I played a lot and shopped everyday but still attained better result than them?

People at the back thought I relied my little intelligence to achieved flying colours,

but frankly speaking,

everyone has almost the equal intelligence,

people who succeed usually got their bitter taste on their initial step.

Just like what I always told Hung Kiat,

"Exam is just like that, you never study, you don't even saw the thing in the book, how you gonna answer in the exam? Because you dont even see what... for example, just like a top student, you dont give him a book to study and ask him straight take a test, you see whether he can answer the question or not? Or let say a baby, if I never tell him 3+2=5, you think he will own self know 3+2=5?'

 

 

 

 

Sometimes,

I really blamed Hung Kiat for not studying hard during his SPM.

Now when I asked him come along with me for studying at Australia,

and when we already planned well everything,

tuition fees isn't a big deal for him.

But,

the ultimate blockage is his result.

I got pissed off with him,

I said

'I dont care, I want means want! I want you to come means I want.'
 

He said

'Sorry lah Clar, not I dont want, is my results cant.'

Somehow,

I don't really know why I am so stubborn and irrational,

it's a clearly impossible thing but my mouth still said 'want'.

I felt like I really had a certain similar characteristic with my bestie Emily.

Last time when Randy can't even sing Chinese song at all,

but she still persisted him to sing.

Perhaps,

we are seeking an impossible fact?

You say right or not? Emily Law :D

 

 

Anyway,

the result fact is still uncheageable,

although how I kicked, how I screamed, how I throw tantrum, how I said I wanna break off with him,

the fact is written clearly on the entry requirement.

I knew my angry is always momentarily,

Hung Kiat knew too.

That is why he wouldn't afraid I angry when he understand me more.

He only always told me

'Sorry lah Clar, because last time I never listen in class mah.'

I said

'You never listen in class, then you think I got listen in class? I everyday walked around the school, why I can? You never walk around the school, why you cant? Everything study at home 1 mah... where got say whether got listen or no listen ones?'

He said

'Sorry lah Clar, I dont know mah... last time when I start study, when opened book, dont know why my eyes will began to close?'

I said

'Why? You eat hyponotics ah?'

He said

'Sorry lah Clar, I also dont know why automatic ones... then that time I think after SPM, I will hold my father business edi, then I never think of study edi.'

I said

'Why? Think own self rich kid then no need to study dy lah?'

He said

'No lah... that time never think so much la, just think of 100% sure hold my father business ones mah.... then think never study also never mind.'

I said

'Wait wait wait... that time you not told me your mum everyday asked you study ones meh? If you everyday study, will got this result meh?'

He said

'The time when my mum asked me to study, I never read, I just sit there only.'

I said

'Sit there for what? Wait vege drop down from sky ah?'

He said

'No la, sorry lah Clar.'

I said

'I dont care I want you retake SPM.'

He said

'Can like that ones meh?'

I said

'Can, pay money lo... but even you restudy SPM and retake SPM, got time meh? SPM covered so many topics... at least also need to take one year to study, plus so many subjects, you think you few months can gao tim ah? Then if after you study and take exam also already too late, because after that one or two year, you only admit into Uni only. Its too late already.'

He said

'Besides than Uni, Australia dont have any academy meh? Lower requirement one.'

I said

'Got, Tee Syi Rui's school lo... Le Cordon Bleu academy... lower requirement also need at least 3 credits... you B also dont have, who wants you?'

He said

'Then I go MMU lo...'

I said

'MMU also need 5 credits... that is why I told you everywhere is almost the same one, but just Australia maybe higher a bit only, like 7 credits. But also plus minus around there, wont go until 10 credits ones...'

He said

'You got how many credits?'

I said

'All credits lah...'

He said

'You took how many subjects?'

I said

'11'

He said

'Ohhhh....'

I said

'OHHHHHHH.....'

(Imitate him)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

When I told Tee Syi Rui that I really angry Hung Kiat,

I told her about how's our conversation,

she keep laughing at me!

She said the way I talked to Hung Kiat is really fierce!
 

I asked her why fierce?

She said

'Hahaha! The most funny is when Hung Kiat told you when he saw book, he wants to sleep, you asked him: Why? You ate hypnotics ah? Hahahaha!!!! You are too fierce!'

I said

'Hahaha maybe I used to already, I always scolded him using sacarstic one.'

She said

'Then normally how he responsed?'

I said

'Just said sorry only lo... because the things I said is always made people speechless, dont know how to react me hahaha....'

She even asked me

'Haiz... dont know when only your hyperactive can recover?'

I said

'You mean talk like that got related to hyperactive?'

She said

'Maybe a little bah...'

I said

'Why? Scold people also means hyperactive?'

She said

'Agitated bah?'

I said

'I also dont know why I am like that, sometimes I am really calm, but sometimes once my temper outburst, I will scold very fast that type ones... scold very fast plus cant stop. I can scold continously for 1 minute. Then after I scolded, I cant remember what I scold. Got one time, the mobile store salesman lost my phone sim card, I also scolded like that non stop till 1 min, then frightened all the customesr, workers and the boss.'

When I said like that,

she can't stop laughing.

She said

'Hahaha! You very scary! Walk until where also people will scared of you. Mou tin tin hyperactive outburst!'
 

I said

'Why you laughed till like that? Very funny meh? When I told my mum about this, I said I very angry, then I cant stop scolding the worker till 1 minute, after I scold finished, I said : Ask your boss come out. Then my mum, my two sisters and younger brother keep laughing very loud. Why like that very funny?'

She said

'Hahaha! Ya la! Very funny. Because we understand you hyperactive, so we can imagined the situation. So very funny.'

I asked

'Why funny? For example?'

She said

'I dont know how to explain, but I can imagine, very funny. Hahaha! Ask your boss come out.... then the boss got come out or not?'

I said

'The boss just standing beside him, I dont know thats boss at the beginning, because he keep quiet aside when I scolding the worker.'

She said

'Hahaha! I think you so ganas the boss also scared of you edi...'

I said

'I think I not very fierce, and I think I just using normal scolding speed to deal with the worker. But after I went off the shop, Carol said I very fast. She said I fast till maybe people dont know what I scolding.'

Tee Syi Rui even nodded her head and said

'Hahahahaha!!! I think is possible from what Carol said.'

I said

'And she said I very agitated, but I dont think so.'

She asked

'The worker is Chinese or Local?'

I said

'Hong Kong people....'

She said

'You scolded him using what language?'

I said

'English. Because I cant speak Cantonese, and I know if I speak in Mandarin, sure he can talk back me. So used his third language, not Cantonese, not Mandarin. So this is the only way to make him cant talk back as fast as me.'

When I said like that,

Tee Syi Rui even laughed at me!

She said

'Hahaha! Cunning ah you... like this also can let you think of.'

I joked and said

'Haiz.... I hyperactive, got what things I cant think of? haha!'

  

 

Well,

stop talking that much rubbish about my personalities.

The truth is tomorrow gonna schoo reopen for a brand new semester.

Challenge coming and new friends will be met.

But I hope, I dont really want to have so many fresh friends.

I wanna be alone, shop a lot, spend more time alone, do my things alone.

I have my own private house, I dont really want people to come.

I want my own little world :D

I feel so contented to have my own place despite the whole housechores are mine.

I've mopped the second time after I moved in, cleaned toilet for twice, cooked by my own and vacuum my own living place. 

 

 

 

Today,

many people have shocked about my behavior.

Because Miss Clarissa had started to cook!

Two people talked about the same thing but different stories.

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I used to be a princess at home,

I used to ordered my subordinates to do things!

'Kak! Mari.'

'Kak! Masak ini.'

'Kak! Ambil barang saya sini.'

'Din, cuci kereta saya.'

'Din, nanti bawa kereta saya pergi service.'

'Din, nanti pukul 3pm balik rumah bawa saya pergi Dataran.' 

 

 

Never and ever I will use a word of 'please' or 'tolong',

my manners are always command instead of request.

I wouldn't do small things by my own as I already used to that kind of lofty status.

When my maid never fulfill my needs; such as doing something wrong.

I will end up telling her

'Bodoh' or 'Macam ini pun tak tau'

Definitely,

a driver won't be late,

when I say 10am sharp, means 10am sharp.

I already used to that kind of routine.

So whenever Hung Kiat just slightly late;

when he told me he had customers or traffic jam,

I would started to kick or yell when I see him.

This my unchangeable princess's temper :(

 

Because I can't accept he is late; I dont really know why he is late and I can't understand the situation.

 

 

When I go out, for the people who knew who I am,

people will treat me as VIP, let me skip my queue and said

'Anak Datuk dulu.'


 

In fact,

this had indeed happened in school canteen and outside the school.

Or when millions of people queueing for free foods,

lining up since morning till afternoon just for a plate of simple dish.


 

But,

I could walked through red carpet and get the foods without waiting a single second.

 

Since young,

mummy knew I disliked attend the crowd due to impatience.

I said

'So many people, I dont want to go, later have to wait.'

Mummy will said

'No need to wait, we are VIP. Straight go in one. And ours are fine dining buffet. The dishes are different than normal one.'
 

When all these bits and pieces sum up,

all these has been bring up my impatience all the way.

Truthfully,

I began to developed princess syndrome since young.

So whenever Hung Kiat never fulfill my needs, the same thing,

I would also behaved the same way,

telling him

'Stupid' or 'Like this also dont know'.

 

 

 

 

 

So, for me,

I think surviving oversea alone is the best choice for me,

it made me to feel the equality within swarm.

It made me independant, forget the past and learned a lot of things here without my parents.

Indeed,

this is a reallyt good oppurtunities.

I learn to feel how a civilian feels,

learn to do a basic stuff like cooking and cleaning although it's kinda stress for me.

 

Random people will think that's common sense chore,

but for a person with totally no basic of doing house chores.

That's really physically burnout and ardous.

No matter how hard I mopped it, it's always uncleaned and had a sense of dusty.

No matter how many times I cleaned it, I still think it's imperfect.

No matter how many times I cooked, I still think it weren't yummy.

No matter how many times I tried, my house chore ability still the same.

 

Can't you see that I am trying so hard even just for a simple task?

Don't say cooking, even get a knife out from a new plastic is so tough for me.

 

Imagined I opened this with a pair of scissor for 20 minutes and imagined the process I hold a knife,

chopped the big cabbage and used my own bare hands slowly pulled it into tiny pieces. 


Chopping the really small and round onions into slices.
It so called 'eyesight challenging' :D
I really took the knife carefully and chopped it down.
Luckily my fingers weren't hurt and cut at all.

From surfed the net to get a simple cooking recipe to accordingly mixing up multi-oils into a cup.

 

From heating the pan to pouring oil,

from stiring the frying onions to get oil scalding on hand,

from pouring the cabbage into frying cabbage.

The process is really ardous and uneasy.

I almost cried when I saw this,


because I did attempted many times for steaming a bowl of rice.
so far, no once become rice.
And this time,
when I opened up the lid,
I was so surprised, I jumped up and hooray alone!






Honestly, this is the first time. 

I praised myself it's really nice.
Both rice and dishes that I cook.
Even it's not delicious like what I always eaten in restaurant but at least it wasn't taste bad.


 

I normally straight forward and wouldn't cheat myself.

If it's bad, I usually straight throw it away like last time.

But this time, I finished all.

I don't really know whether I am over tired for doing all chores since the very morning call till the late evening?

 

 



 

 

SIGH ! FORGET ABOUT IT!

I STILL WANT TO BE A LITTLE RAINING PRINCESS AT HOME.