Pain

It's the way too hard to resist from psychological pain,

no matter how hard she rubs off the wound from my heart,

but I still felt the pain and suffering in some ways.

Indeed,

it's very painful,

I don't know how to describe the kind of pain or that kind of heart-wrenching,

but it just too painful for me,

I always ache in the midnight and cried under the blanket.

But I just can't solve the hate by myself :(
Yeah! From Oxford dictionary,

hate is defined by 'disliked intensely',

and this is what she defined too.

But I knew the word of 'hate' is not that simple or the definition isn't that pure,

it's far more beyond that disliked intensely.

Perhaps,

I'm the one who experienced before so I knew what is the exact meaning.

The actual meaning couldn't be illustrated out anyway but it could be felt out thoroughly.