One weeks hols

by Unknown - 11:51 pm

A fugacious holiday comes to a full stop,

eldest sister - Irene, is going back to M'sia soon.
She came Australia visits me for one week as she didn't comes along with family last time.

Possibly forcing oneself into a seven days holiday isn't a piece of cake,

arrangements had made in few months ago, annual leave had taken, commission deducted and working experience maintain.

Look at the positive outcomes of a holidays,

a huge working stress has been put down, unmeasurable tension released,

in fact,

the best part of a holiday is let yourself rest by looking how busy fellows hurried working.

The best part of the holiday is to be enjoy capturing the instantaneous memories.

Once again,

Irene comes to the holiday season,

a deeply relaxing time that she thoroughly enjoyed,

especially spending much of her money in best foods and shopping time.

I still bought this!

Dont play play!
Malaysia size 32-C, Australia size 10-D !
Look at the tag, it proven my bra size!

Irene had bought the same bra with me as this is a really quality bra,
it has fluid push up inside and well designed outside :D
I even disturbed Irene that she has a small breast !
I said
'Hahaha! You bought the same bra with me, imagine when kakak want to arrange shirt, when she saw two bras are the same, imagine she says ini 8-A Huay Li punya, ini 10-D Huay Ching punya.... hahahaha!'
She laughed and said
'Elahhhh.....'
I laughed and said
'Hmmm! Mine is natural ones... no need use push up push down ones....'

Her best define holiday is spending much of the time on her watch with little sister,

laughing inappropriately yet happily.

Sadly,

she doesn't enjoys the pleasure of having winter time,

she disliked cold and afraid of it.

Little sis had foolishly sacrifice herself for seventh days for overnight with super thin blanket that we used to covered on flight,

warm quits, heater stand and the warmest body-wrap towel has been given to her as my warmest welcome!

Anyway,

women always behaved identically,

her favourite holiday spot has to be shopping mall rather than hills or historical places.

Today is her last day in Australia,

and she will be taking her return flight back to M'sia on next early morning.

These few days,

we had thoroughly enjoyed without spending much of the money but reminiscence our sistership fondly.

Having desserts together,

sharing about our own miserable childhood stories,

once again,

I been burst into tears in front of her and she shocked to see her unpredictable little sis surprisingly would cried because of childhood.

We were comparing our childhood suffering and we get to know everyone has own unhappy points.

She told me frankly that she wasn't happy during her childhood that is why she never mentioned before and also told me the reason why she worked far away,

absolutely same with me actually,

we were escaping the family disputes.

She said since young daddy been scolded her randomly because of Huay Ling and me were naughty.

She claimed that she disliked the feeling so much because daddy always scolded her unreasonable and its not her fault,

while I, I told her my miserable childhood stories,

I said

'You know? I been very sad when mention of childhood, because I am really unhappy since born till now, since young till matured, since I born in this world, I feel like this world is so unfair, why I got the bad treatment from others, but why others dont? Why I flatly being taken advantages but not others? Why I unreasonably being scolded or been beaten just because of since born character? You think all those is what I wanted is what I could changed? Since born, I being dumped at other people house and those people treated me overly good, but I dont know what's the reason I being collect back into this family at 4 years old, at that time, I started going kindergarten, almost everyday get complained by the principle, everyday go back mama scold me, papa beat me, they have been doing the same thing for years, until primary school, also the same, few days beat once few days beat once until around standard 5, the driver molested me until secondary school. Then when get into secondary school, Pn lye everyday beaten me in school until graduated, until form 5. Until graduate, my leg was caned with 50 plus times.... do you know I been tortured since the day I start schooling or start coming in this family? You think everyday being beaten by someone not painful? In school teacher beat, at home papa beat me. You think not tired or not painful? If were you, how will you feel if you since born until grown up never stop letting others beat you? Until today, I still cant forget the trauma of seventeen, that person's image still appeared in my mind as daily routine and those every brutal images had became daily repetitive flashbacks. This led me hate also dont know how to hate her. If my wounds are replaced by her happiness, I am unwilling to survive in this world.'

Irene said

'Harrrr..... can see out you also so pity, I thought I am the one who having unhappy childhood only. Because I know when you and Huay Ling make papa angry, then papa will everything scold me... that is why since young I dont like to mix Huay Ling and you, because I scared later everything involved in me.'

I said

'Do you think having hyperactive very happy? My smile and laughters are true image? I just feel like this world is so unfair? Why I born in this imperfect reputation and image that always offer advantages to others? 21 years I been living in this dilemma, do you think I will happy?'

She said

'To be frankly telling you, based on my opinion, you dont have hyperactive la... I think just because you have habit in making fun or disturb things.'

I said

'What habit? Doctor already said leh....'

She said

'Doctor just one person said only mah....'

I said

'Not only one doctor said, is two doctors said, last time form 3 only papa brought me to the doctor, but when form 2 like that, mama told me papa already asked his another friend, another doctor, that doctor also said me hyperactive, some more those school teachers all gossiped me at the back saying me hyperactive, some even said in front of me! And last time when tee syi rui brought me to fortune telling, the fortune telling also said me the same thing, some more when papa brought me to the face reading teller, he also said me the same thing... all these still not obvious enough?'

She said

'Ok la... tell you one thing la... actually your hyperactive is not since born ones... is your nanny harmed you ones.... To be frankly telling you, your nanny is not good ones you know?'

I said

'What she harmed me? She is the most love me ones... I want everything also she buy for me, whenever I cried she satisfied me immediately. You think even papa mama got love me until like that?'

She said

'Anah... this is what I want to say, is because she overly pampered you so you would became like this. Let if you cried for one thing, she straight buy for you, and keep buying sweets for you everyday, you know baby cannot eat sweet ones you know? That time you just 1 or 2 years old only... some more everyday give you drink kopi you know?'

I said

'Why baby cannot eat sweets and drink coffee?'

She said

'Because sweets and coffee not good for baby's brain... plus that time you 3 years old also dont have.... some more is everyday give you eat sweets and drink coffee some more.... last time once you cried, she brought you to the grocery, her hand straight grabbed a lot of sweets from the bottle, yi da boot yi da boot buy like that for you you know? Some more she never give you drink water ones you know?'

I said

'Anah... that one I remembered, because I keep jumping on floor and said I want drink Kopi O .... I rather just bitter rather than tasteless.'

She said

'Anah... cannot mah... baby 1 year old how can everyday drink coffee and eat sweet? Some more that time she too pampered you edi, like you do wrong she never ask you dont like that all that ones... like if you plucked off flowers, she blamed us ones you know? Last time you plucked off flowers, she never scold you, but she scolded me I teach you ones... and one of the time, you picked flowers, she slapped Huay Ling you know??'

I said

'Then like that can become hyperactive?'

She said

'No la... my meaning is she pampered you till you become today's personality... means your personality got similar hyperactive, but not hyperactive... like last time you want eat sweet, you annoyed a bit, kick kick awhile she straight buy sweet for you then now you become like want means want all those... if people never obey you, then you will keep jumping and keep kicking all those...'

I said

'NO la... dont blame her la... I think is since born ones la... you see Huay Ling also... last time Kuma also overly pampered her, why she never like me ones?'

She said

'Huay Ling is Kuma pampered a bit only, but not that serious till like your nanny... your nanny super pampered you know? Like that time you plucked off the neighbor's flowers till the whole big pot botak and she never scold you you know? Imagine one big pot all dont have flowers at all....'

I said

'Anoh... why everyone keep talking about plucked off neighbor's flowers? I dont remembered at all, when I chinese new year go her house visit, she also keep telling me about the flowers... she said the neighbour knew is me...'

She said

'Anah... the neighbour knew is you plucked off, that time all those kampung people think : ah baby never mind la... still young... but nobody tell you dont like that, then naturally you will assume do like that is correct... just like a mother never correct a child when the child do wrong, sure the child automatic thought is they did the right thing what.... so now when you grown up d... you already form a habit of disturb thing....'

I said

'Plucked flower consider disturb thing?'

She said

'Considered la... disturb means kacau.... neighbour's whole pot flower all you plucked off you know? I still remembered the pot very big ones... dont have one flower at all.... If a child does wrongly, when people tell them cannot like this, then they will know cannot like that and never do it anymore.... Because your nanny never tell you cannot like that, that is why you dont know... and until now, when you know cannot like that, but you already used to already....'

I said

'NO la... dont blame my nanny la... I still think I am since born ones... the face reading teller also said I before born already like that... some more you see, I four years old already stay in with papa mama, if I got disturb things, sure they will asked me dont like that ones mah.... and you not say after beat a child when a child do wrong, then the child know cannot like this and never do it anymore? Then why papa everyday also beat me, then why until now I still like that? Means its my weakness, my fault... its since born and unchangeable ones, if not early early already never like that lo... you see... sure got illness only unchangeable mah... you see all those diabetes why they cannot change their habit from not going toilet? Because they got diabetes, they need to go toilet to excrete their excess urine. So, even you tell them dont keep going toilet, you think they can change? You think they can become dont go toilet? So, the example is same here, maybe I since born already like that, even papa asked me dont like that, but I still like that, because is automatic and unchangeable.'

She said

'Anah... but also can try your best mah... keep remind yourself dont disturb things... for example, ok when you see one thing, see enough, dont go and touch...'

I said

'Eh eh eh! Until now, I where got plucked flowers?'

She said

'You never plucked flowers but you always will do gila things mah....'

I said

'For example?'

She said

'A lot la... cant remember.... like shout here shout there like orang gila lo...'

I said

'That one where got wrong?'

She said

'Anah... no wrong, but also dont shout mah... no matter how shouting is still consider not good ones....'