Ridiculous but sentimental dream

These few days,

I am currently busying for the almost ending assignments.

Presentation was done today.

Finally, a brief sigh is released from my oral cavity.
Yet,

got some little spare time to sit down and blogging in the uni computer pool after afternoon class.

Regardless how busy I am,

those endless dreams about her always hunting me in the dark midnight.

But surprisingly,

I got an indeed ridiculous but mawkish dream about her;

in the dream,

I felt so pathetic and sorrowful towards her,

but once I woke up,

I was like laughing out loud regarding the dream;

actually it's about how her daughter described her to made it so funny.

Awful strangely,

I dreamed of having the same tutorial class of 'Employment Law' with lye chuin li again.

The class only have we two are Asians :D





Somehow, after class,

I walked out the classroom after the lecturer dismissed,

i was like keep crying alone on the sofa outside the classroom,

without any solid reason, lcl was overly kind at that time.

She even sat beside me and asked me

'Why you keep crying here?'

I said

'I dont wanna cry, but my tears would irresistibly rolled down.'

She said

'I know why you cried. You want to know the answer of add math day right?'

I nodded my head and spoken softly

'So, can you answer me right now? Once you tell me the answer regarding from head to tail, start from today onwards, your mum will be set free. I won't question about anything anymore. Ok?'

At that time,

she looked so down,

she said

'Past is past, sorry about that. Really sorry ok?'

I said

'Mmmmm... you dont like that lah.... because since I also dont know what had actually happened, you have no necessarily to say sorry to me, since I also dont know where is your fault. Dont be so unhappy when dealing this with me, you just tell me everything from head to tail, can or not?'

She suddenly so good, she said

'Okay. I will tell you the truth, and we talk once and all here, after this, dont cry about it anymore.'

I asked her

'Why you will talked like that ones? Why you suddenly became so good? When I sad, you will tell me the truth, I thought your person is when I sad, you will become very happy that type, because your emotion always terbalik with other people. When people sad, you happy, when people happy, you sad, when people happy, you angry, when people angry, you happy. I thought your person is if I am confused and sad, you will purposely dont tell me the story and make me more confused and sadder that type.'

She said

'Past is past, now I am no longer like that, you not want to listen the answer?'

I nodded my head 3 times and said

'yes yes yes... quickly tell me now, if not later you will forget what you want to say already....'

She seemed like don't really how to start telling me,

she said

'Hmmmmm..... hmmmmm.....'

I said

'Never mind, what you think or what you knew, you just say, dont need to care of my feeling, no need to afraid I will sad. Because I just want to sad for the last time, after this, I wont sad anymore. Just tell me what you remember.'

She said

'Actually add math day I wasn't there. So I dont know.'

I said

'You weren't there? How come? You clearly got beaten me, I remembered.'

She said

'I just stand there awhile in the beginning, after that I leaved d....'

I said

'Then your mum? Your mum never tell you the part after you went away? And since that day until now, your mum never mention of what had happened on that day?'

She said

'Actually, tell you one thing, you dont blame my mum, my mum dont remember.'

I even cried and said

'You clearly said you want to tell me the truth, but the way you talked is like hiding from me, awhile said you werent around, awhile said your mum dont remember. If like that, I asked you got any different with never ask? How come your mum can dont remember? I also can remembered, how come your mum cannot?'

She said

'Not I dont want to tell you, the truth is even my mum also cant remember, how she gonna tell me?'

I even get angry and said

'The way you talked is clearly avoid accountability, you refused to tell me then everything finding excuses. I knew you always like that! Thats your personality since the day I knew you, initially I still so excited and expecting your truth, expect I will know at the end, who knows at the end, you still finding excuses and refused to tell me. You always like that (then cried even louder).'

She said

'Really... you want to believe or not is up to you.'

I said

'Again! Your second favourite quotation! YOU WANT TO BELIEVE OR NOT IS UP TO YOU.... When you speechless edi, you always talk like that ones! Last time in msn also you tell me like that, in message also you tell me like that... until when only you can stop using this dead boring sentence and give a solid explanation?'

She said

'Really... I never bluff you... I swear to God... my mum really cant remember....'

I said

'One year 365 days.... the day until today, 3 years 8 months is equals to 1340 days already... impossible your mum never tell you about the story before? Once also never? Even let say she already forgot, but on that day, at the time both of you reached home, she never straight tell you before sleep at night?'

She said

'Actually, you dont blame my mum cant remembered la... tell you a thing, my mum is low IQ, so she cant remembered. Since she dont remember, you dont pressed her d ok?'

I get agitated and said

'I pressed her???!!! Since when I pressed her?? From the day when I start going your house until today, got which day I got mentioned of add math day to her? Got which day she mentioned of add math day to me? I never and ever ask her before, how can you say I pressed her? And I just asked you to tell me the truth for how many times only? You own self also can use one hand fingers to count... how can you say me like that? What means I pressed her? Besides, how can you say your mum is low IQ and claimed she dont remember the stories then refused to tell me, your mum low IQ??? I think she is act pig eat tiger!'

She said

'I have no point to tell you lies, my mum really low IQ; she dont have a good memory so she cant remember for a long period, and also when she cant remember, impossible she can tell me.'

I said

'Your mum IQ how many?'

She said

'72.'

I said

'Impossible! You dont bluffed me, I know you are finding excuse to refused to tell me the truth.'

She said

'Really.... I never bluffed you, if I bluffed you, why in the first place when I sit down, I will choose to tell you the truth? Because the truth is my mum dont remembered and also I wasnt there. And my mum told me her IQ is 72 so she dont remembered. Sorry lah.... You dont blame old people ok? When one person get old edi memory sure down ones....'

I said

'But where got down till dont remember not even after a day?'

She said

'Told you d... because my mum IQ is 72. So you dont blame her.... for the past really sorry ok? I already told you the truth, so from today onwards, dont find our troubles already and we also dont find you troubles anymore. I already tell you the truth, so, after this, we just wipe out ok?'

I said

'Ok la... sounds like your mum really pity.... Is real one?'

She said

'Is real. If not she told me, I also dont know her IQ 72.'

I said

'But 72 only?? Even me so stupid also got 117!'

She said

'Haiz... you can judge a book by its cover... sometimes fact is not like what you perceive. And also, my mum is not act pig eat tiger.'

I said

'Ok la... since the truth is like that, we just wipe out from today onwards, dont grumbled anyone anymore. You dont find my troubles and I dont find your troubles, I survive my life here, you survive your life at the place you wish, start from today onwards, my heart is peaceful already so I wont go and find you anymore.'

She said

'Ok.... I also wont come and find your troubles anymore. Overall, please forgive and forget.'
I said

'And when you shift? can you do me a favor for the last time? Consider my wrong or both of us move a step behind, please shift before I go back Malaysia can or not? Because since I dont want find troubles to your mum anymore, ask your mum also dont find troubles to me, ask her to shift before I come back, this is my last wish, consider my 21st birthday present can?'

She said

'Ok, when you go back Malaysia?'

I said

'14th December.'

She said

'Ok, no problem, I will ask my mum shift before December.'

I rubbed off my tears and said

'really?'

She nodded her head and said

'Of course is real ! Since when I break promise before?'

I said

'Ok! Eh! Why your person suddenly became so good? Like Sherryn like that...'

She said

'Because when human reached different age, automatic will changed, that one is normal. Plus now I not staying with my mum already, so those behaviors that  previously behaved like her is no longer with me. haha! You also know human go until which place, mix with what kind of people, sure become what type of person. Some more she is my mother, when I everyday interact with her, sure behave like her lah.... but now I stay in KL already mah... never interact with her d... so now I am a different person.'

 I said

'Uh?? You this hypocrite! At melaka behave your mum, at KL behave like Sherryn.'

She said

'Luckily now I come Australia study, never behave like you.'

I said

'oh ya... wait wait wait... why you will have same tutorial class with me? You not study in KL?'

She said

'Oh! Now I having last year, I want to get Australia certificate but my mum dont have a lot of money to afford me 3 years degree here. So I take 2 years degree in malaysia and one year here.'

I said

'Ohhhhh.... my dad also told me a lot people like that... that time I want to choose sociology as my sub-major... then class fulled already, left external study only.... my dad dont allow me to take external studies... no need go class; learn from online ones.... my dad said external is for people who dont have money to study ones... my dad said external is like people who studying in malaysia but they want Australia certificate, so they own self learn online and submit assignments through online... then my dad said he already paid few hundreds thousands, the purpose is to let me enjoy Aussie uni life... to let me go their uni and attend class ... he said waste money if he sent me here but I still want to take external study. Then he asked me to choose other, since sociology fulled already then I just choose other. At that time, I late enrolled, everything fulled already left law got internal studies... then just choose law. My dad said as long as got go to class, choose any subjects also can learn things ones.... then he said he wants me to make full use of the uni life in Australia because he paid a lot of money already.

 she said

'Oh mine is our uni arranged already... cant choose ones....'

I said

'Ours can... because mine is journalism, we got 4 submajors to choose - Law, sociology, psychology or English. Initially I want to choose English ones... but English must wait till next semester only got opened class, if I choose English, I will extend one semester graduate. Sociology and psychology internal fulled. So just choose law. Then I think law also senang la haiz...cincai lah...  Besides, I also no any other options edi.... just wanna relax relax study here for this 3 years.... Next year final year d.... time flies....'

 She said

'Your submajors got what subject?'

I said

'My core subjects are media reporting, professional ethic code, issues publication and design, screen matters, television news, technical writing, journalistic matters; communication and cultural studies and radio reporting. Then submajors are employment law, family law, conflicts of law, issues in criminal justice, youth studies, professional conduct, victimology; Criminology and Public Policy. Luckily they changed taxation law into the family law. Because I dont have accounting basic at all, if they give me taxation, I really want to retrieve back my school fees and balik Malaysia! Actually they interchange the taxation with family law is because journalism is more related to media so the submajors are more interrelated to family law and criminology all those... the taxation law can left to accounting student hahaha~!'

At that time,

when I talked till so long and at the moment I explaining my course study plan,

my darling suddenly phoned me and said

'Hello, wake up d... 8am d....'

I even told him in the phone

'Wait la... I am telling Lye Chuin Li my course study plan see whether their twinning program got same with us or not...'

(Then just hang up the phone after I said like that).

After another 30 minutes,

Hk phoned me again,

he said

'hello, clar you wake up d or not?'

I said

'wake up d ah... why?'

He said

'Funny just now you told me you dreamed of lcl then hang up the call edi...'

I said

'hahaha! I got told you I dreamed of her?'

He said

'You never tell me you dream of her, but you told me you are talking to her then I guessed you are dreaming....'

I said

'Clever! Just now I also confused dont know I am dreaming or is real. After I woke up only I knew is dream.'

he said

'what you dreamed of?'

I said

'I dreamed of lcl suddenly became very good, when she see me very sad, she looked very down, she still consoled me dont cry and told me the add math story....'

He even laughed and said

'hahaha! dreamed la.... if is in reality, I think her person is when she see you very sad, she will very happy that type, like purposely unwilling to tell you that type to make you sadder.'
I said

'Anoh anoh! I also because of like that only I knew is dream haha... I feel like because I think her too bad d only I know is dream? Funny! When I wake up, I think : Impossible ah?  lcl person not if I cry or very sad, then her mouth will sengek to left side and her lips will become thin thin that type? Or I think she will make me sadder by saying : Why should I tell you? Own self go find out lah.... that type....'

he said

'Anah! I also think like that... is dream la....'

I said

'This time you no need tell me is dream also I can recognize myself, because the chance of her kindness is almost impossible. So its too obvious its dream. Some more I dreamed of lcl told me her mum IQ 72, so she cant remember add math  day so cant tell me but not refused to tell.'

He said

'hahahahaha IQ 72! Funny! You said like that, you want laughed die me ah?'

I said

'Why? Lcl impossible talked like that ones?'

He said

'I think no lo... lcl not always own self praised own self very clever ones?'

I said

'Own self praised own self clever is pn lye la....'

He said

'Lye chuin li !'

I said

'Pn Lye....'

He said

'Haiya! Both also SS lah!'

I said

'Anah... lcl always think own self clever mah... but now the situation is she talking about her mum IQ, not her IQ.'

He said

'I think her person is even her mum also she wants to praise that type ones lo.... last time I still remembered she told me whole school only her mum one person know how to handle hyperactive people like you, but others dont know....'

I said

'Like that is praise?'

he said

'Anah.... like think her mum very geng like that.... only her mum can, but others cannot... means praising her mum....'

I said

'Or I think is her mum told her like that? So she only she would said like that? not praising....'

 He said

'Aiya... even her mum told her, she own self know can edi la... why must tell out? She tell out means boasting....'

 I said

'but I dream like that is because Lye chuin li person not always like to find excuse ones? So only she said her mum IQ 72 and said her mum cannot remembered then refused to tell me.'

He said

'anah... I think lcl will always find reason that type but she wont say her mum not good that type....'

I said

'IQ 72 means not good?'

he said

'Anah... will let people think her mum like very stupid like that.... so she wont say her mum IQ 72, but will find other reason....'

I said

'Where got like that ones... some people very smart, but low IQ, but some people not smart, but high IQ. You see me... I also gong gong like that... IQ still got 117, and that type when pl told the police : Dia ni belajar engineering. Then the police said: Oh!  Ni high IQ.... funny the police said like that... but you see my person also everything dunno dunno that type... and also IQ is refers to the knowledge in book, means a person can know all knowledge in the book, but doesnt means that person is smart in everything.'

He said

'Anah... also true... but anyway, I just feel like she wont bluff other people her mum is IQ 72.'

I said

'IQ 72 is very low?'

He said

'Hahahaha! Anah! Lower than me leh... that time you sent me the IQ test link... I still got 90 some more....'

I said

'hahahaha you only 90? Lower than me and still so big gap hahaha ben dan....'

He said

 'Anah... now I already comes to work, never study anymore... those questions that come out from the IQ test already rusty......'

I said

'But those questions where got learned in book? You see now i study journalism where got do math questions anymore? I also can answered... my English not very good also, also can answer.... and the visual diagram ones our add math also where got learn before? All must use our ability to solve only call IQ test mah... and to be frankly I just feel like I can answered all questions but the behind part about historical things ones... all those amolang name I dont know....'

He said

'Of course la! That one suddenly cincai asked a country's prince who knows?'

 I said

'Haiz.... you see me! even IQ 117 also dont know own self is dreaming... gong ka beh si !'

He even laughed and said

'Hahahahaha! And when I wake you up you still dont know is dream and still can tell me you are talking to lcl.... funny.'

I said

'because at that time I still thought the dream is real.... then I asked you dont interrupt I talking.... but after around 5 minutes like that, in dream I think : Oh Ya hor! lcl will like that so good ones meh? Then I woke up d....'