still hate

So tired to post and write anything right now,

tonight feeling would be so disappointing as I'm still thinking negative aspect of her.

I'm trying to pull myself out of this pitfall by treating her good.

I thought this is the only way to heal my wound,

but I feel like I am so wrong,

the feeling of hatred still didn't get rid from my soul.

I hate her, I still hate her,

no matter how I told myself not to hate her, 

or no matter how I asked myself to treat her good,

I'm still hate her and remember this hate in my daily lives,

her images still non stop popping out from my mind.

What to do?

So tired now, it's time to sleep.

Tomorrow,

last visit to her house in the early morning before I fly back to Australia in the evening.

Good night world...