Album of hurts

Just created an album of hurts in a minute ago,

Last night,

I told Hung Kiat that Sherryn blocked me.

He asked me

'How you know?'

I said

'When I was blogging around 9pm, I normally upload photos from my phone straight away into FACEBOOK, while I waiting those photos to be uploaded in FACEBOOK, coincidence, I saw the top video on my wall, there are two colors of name tag; clarissa purple in blue color and sherryn lye in black color. Then I wondered how come like that ones, then when I tried to click in her name, can't click in; can only highlight the name only. Then I knew she blocked me.'

he asked

'Then what you do after you knew she blocked you?'

I said

'Never do anything lo... continued wait the pictures to be upload, and used those pictures to upload into blog. Then after blogging, you phoned me then now talking with you lah.'

He laughed and said

'haha! Then like that only ah? You never want to get passwords from who to see her profile?'

I said

'Actually, for Sherryn, I not really mind whether can see her profile or not. Because usually I also seldom see her profile ones. So got add as friend or no add as friend, I am okay. I won't purposely go and get password from others to see her profile. But you think why I mind about lye chuin li profile?'

He said

'Dont know. Maybe you are not interested in Sherryn lo and interested in Lye Chuin Li?'

I said

'Oh Yeah! When mentioned of lcl, just now dont know why when I saw Sherryn blocked me, I keep laughing. Dont know why I will think is lcl blocked ones... then keep laughing in front of computer. Do you think is funny? I think she scared edi very funny, then keep laughing in front of computer.'

He said

'Got a bit lah. I also think is lcl blocked ones... Haha! After you tagged her the video, she scared edi....'

I said

'You think she really scared edi?'

He said

'Anah! You count till so many....'

I said

'Which one? Add math one or CNY one?'

He said

'Both la.... very funny leh you count... I keep laughing when seeing the video.'

I said

'Why?'

He said

'Dont know... you count in mandarin... yi er san shi wu liu qi.... like ben ben like that.... very funny....'

I said

'Some more which part very funny?'

He said

'And got one part, when you saw the picture, own self get frightened by the wounds, you said: Hua! This one count from bottom first or count from top first? Like very confused like that very funny.... because at the same time, your finger point up and down, up and down... very funny...'

I said

'You think lcl really scared edi?'

He said

'Anah! So serious! And I think another reason she scared is because she dont know the video is private ones.... she thought other people can see, so she quickly blocked you, scared other people knew is her...'

I said

'Hahaha! Actually I never predict lcl will saw the video, after you like mark the video, then I just think of tag Sherryn, then straight tagged d... never think of lcl will saw.... I still wrote her name at there some more haha....'

He said

'Anah! You wrote her : Heng! That lye chuin li still said dont have, I want tag to Sherryn.'

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I said

'But you think why not lcl beat me ones, what she scared?'

He said

'Dont know. Maybe she felt very geli when she saw? Then scared d?'

I said

'Will geli meh? Why people who first time see it also say geli? Last time when my father asked my mum showed her where pn lye beat me, my dad also got that type of eyes... like very geli like that... then when Emily saw the add math photos in my drawer, she also said very geli... when tee syi rui saw the pics in my drawer, she also said I very geli.... Very geli meh?'

He said

'Aiya, wounds on your skin, you own self sure wont feel any geli lah... but other people saw sure will feel that type of geli... just like own self see own self snivel, where will feel geli? Other people see sure feel geli?'

I said

'Dont know, I dont feel any geli at all... maybe I used to blogging, and post those photos too many times; then used to saw it d....'

He said

'Anah! The video you tagged to me also I feel geli.... in the video, when you choosing photos to zoom in, you still can scrolled down a lot... like your computer whole folder also the pictures she beat you... still can scrolled down so fast funny....'

I said

'Which part very geli?'

He said

'The whole video la... geli dao yao si.... you still can count one by one until 3 minutes something zha dao...'

I said

'Hahaha maybe my person dont know geli ones... last time when I was primary 5, got one boy, he not feeling well in class, then when bell ring (after school), he straight pang sai in class... that time everyone quickly carried bags went out the class, then I still continued copying notes from the blackboard, then my form teacher said me : Wah! Huay Ching, so smelly you still can sit here and dont bothered at all?'

Hk said

'Zha dao! Not smelly meh?'

I said

'Dont know... I just continued copy my things, some more the boy just pang sai beside me only...'

He said

'Yuckkkkssss.... geli... and another thing, he is boy, you are girl, then he pang sai and changed trousers beside you, you wont paiseh meh?

I said

'Dont know... I never think of paiseh all those... I just dont care him and continue copy my things only, then teacher said me so smelly I still can sit at there and dont care haha....'

He said

'Haha quite weird lo.... where got people like that ones?'

I said

'Wait... talk back lcl.... you think she really scared of me edi?'

He said

'Anah! You count until like that... she speechless edi then quickly blocked you...'

I said

'Then you mean really got 150+ times?'

He said

'Got lo.... some more when you count just count by line only... all those line so red, I think sure is beat 3-4 times only got one red line... by you count as one only.... so I think got at least 200 times she beaten you. I think she own self also know the frequency her mum beaten you is more than the frequency you count so only she scared...'

I said

'Dont know why... after lcl used sherryn account blocked me, I keep very happy and excited because I think lcl scared me edi... then I feel like I gain a sort of authoritativeness from her.... then keep thinking I stronger than her d.... and also, few days ago, I just told her I not scared of her and I told her I fiercer than her, and today, she used sherryn account blocked me edi, then I will think she concede d.... then from just now excited till now. You think why I got this type of feeling?'

He said

'Or you too scared of her edi, then she suddenly blocked you, you will think she scared of you? Of course happy lah.'

I said

'Since she scared of this thing, next time whenever she wants to quarrel with me, I just used this thing to conquer her and used this thing to press her. Haha!' 

He said

'Good ah!'

I said

'Ok ok! Now I dont scared her edi since she scared me edi.... Next time go her house no need worry what Saturday Sunday edi.... since she scared of me d... Just dont care her, go as usual... until one day, sure pl will because of my annoying, then shift away....'
He said
'Oh ya! Lye Chuin Li and Sherryn blocked you d... Why you never testing Facebook message pn lye? See she will block you or not? You message her: Hi Irene Hau! Hahahaha funny!'

I said
'Hahaha! I dont dare.'
He asked
'why?'
I said
'Dont know. Dont dare add her, dont dare message her, feel very shy. The second reason is I think her fb nothing ones, she created to see other people only, like my mum like that... plus her this age know how to use facebook meh? So never bother her. The third reason also scared lah haha....'
He said
'Scared?'
I said
'Hmmmm... I dont know I think too much or what... I scared I disturb her like for example simply message her, she will ask lcl scold me.... so just never disturb her.'
He laughed and said
'Hahaha! How she will ask lcl to scold you?'
I said
'Dont know... I scared suddenly receive lcl message like that... like got one time, that lcl mou tin tin used one sammy lee profile message me, I terperanjat. And to be honest, when lim kim neo replied me, I terperanjat! I really tak sangka lcl got her password, I very scared get her replied ones dont know why... especially when seeing she wrote: lcl here... And after Lim Kim Neo's message, I scared that irene hau profile is lye chuin li created to play game ones... if I simply disturb not sei fo if lcl really reply? lol....'
He said
'Really hard to imagine why you scared lcl until like that?'
I said
'Not say scared lcl lah... dont know why I also very paiseh want to add pl in fb... and also, its impossible, I definitely wont do that ones... so just dont bother lo... But be frankly, I also never think of disturb her before, is like that type of feeling think also never think before...'
He said
'Then how you know pl got facebook ones?'
I said
'Datin told me lo.... Haha because to be frankly, I quite self-focus in playing fb... I usually only write my own status or upload my own photos, I never go and view other people profile ones... so I really dont know she got facebook...'
He said
'Then after Datin told you she got fb, you got go and see or not?'
I said
'Got... just go and see one time only lo... after I saw her profile, then is like she really got facebook oh... like that only lo, never see any more...'
He said
'Zha dao....'
I said
'Maybe I too self-focus edi? Only care about own self... To be frankly, my facebook I never add people also never approve people ones... unless is my friends that they add me in front of me only I when I go back I will approve them... if not, the rest I dont care ones... now my profile got 1752 friend requests I still haven't touch at all...'

Respond to Your 1752 Friend Requests

he laughed and said
'You go and disturb lim kim neo lah hahaha. See whether she will block u or not? Haha!'
I said
'Dont want la... lcl said lim kim neo is her profile.... so better dont disturb... later she message and scold me >.< Haha! And usually I wont disturb people in facebook ones... like I only will ask people things but wont disturb ones... Because how to disturb? FACEBOOK got what disturb?'
He laughed and said
'Dont know... maybe message her HELLO lim kim neo, how are you? haha.'
I said
'If want to disturb, I still prefer face-to-face... haha!'

Yet,

I really had a feeling of confusion right now.

Why she so afraid of me already,

I still has a sort of phobia towards her?

I am asking myself why I afraid of her and what caused I afraid of her?

Hmmmm....

Because she will whack me so I afraid of her?

Because she will ask Junior bite me?

Why I afraid of her more than pl?

Or the way she talked is more scary than pl?

well,

let's make some comparison between both of them now and do a phobia analysis here,

actually when think of pl carefully, she also nothing can be scared,

she is not that scary as lcl,

not that fierce as lcl,

not that dominating as lcl,

I think, the most fierce is the moment when she call 'Sherron'?

*The moment she wanna call her come back or call her come down.

Or the most,

she just called police; that's it.

And actually,

police is nothing fearsome,

they don't hurt me or don't frightened me;

they talk to me nicely and politely.

Some more want to bring me for tea and sit their car makan angin.

At that time,

I think of follow them go, go play and go high tea.

But at the same time,

I think of ya! I dont know them;

will them kidnap me?

But however,

I still think polices not that fearsome;

and most of the time, when police came,

I even had a sense of security and attachment to them.

When pl said "Today stay down no need go back",

I straight cried and grabbed the police's sleeves,

asked them dont go back and protect me.
Yeah! I am the raining princess; cried so easily!

Among those polices,

 I liked that malay lady the most, because she always put on perfume and I loved her perfume.

When I was in GBS,

 I afraid of her because she always said call police.

But now I not afraid of polices any more after contacted with them,

so since I don't scared of police already, naturally I won't scared of pl already.

But for lcl, she is too much; too exaggerating.

Her fierce is far beyond than pl ! Hmmm!

No manners at all and she is always so overbearing.

She don't call police but always used her hegemony and want others listen to her!

If people dont listen to her, she will whack people and mouth said : "You want you want??"

At the same time,

she don't listen to people at all ! She is self-centred!

When people dont listen to her; she only think of call Junior or think of call ambulance!
One of the time; I never call her at all but call pl.
She also kepo kepo call ambulance; I could heard the siren in the phone!
She thought me dont know some more! Play a fool !
Come on! She thought I am deaf??!!
Or she expects nobody dig my earwax when I am in Australia?
And when she expects I will come;
she intentionally doesn't wants to feed Junior at all and make Junior eat nothing for one whole day!
Totally cruelty to animal !

Or else, she will be very impulsive,

she just do whatever she wants and demand whatever she wants;

if people dont listen to her, she wants whack people to force people obey her!
One of the night,
when she took cane came out,
I straight walked away, but she shouted 'sit down' very loud!
That pl is even worst; she even stand idly and refuse to help me! WTH!
If I never sit down; she will whack me, then I quickly sit down and she never whack me.
But I really disliked this kind of feeling.
I want to prove to her I am strong, I won't listen to people!
But I don't know how to prove,
because she is too overbearing!
In chinese, we called 'Bao Dao' !
If people don't listen to her; she call Junior or want to whack people!


People want answer, she said go sleep.
People request another time; she used capital letters and shouted
"GO SLEEP".


At the end, no choice, go sleep :(
She don't gives means don't gives,

This kind of people! I dont scared of her ones!
I really don't scared of her ones!

When I come back I really fierce than her ones!
Let her see I really changed; let her see I won't listen to her unreasonable! Let her know I am not under her control any more!