Shoo

 

Shoo!

I am shooing her images and the flashbacks of add math incident away from my mind.

Yet

I am doing my hectic and killing assignment.

I am heavily concentrating about the task I am doing right now,

I've posted encouraging status to myself;

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

hope I am fine and doing well for this momentary task.

I am okay, very okay, perfectly okay; nothing to be bother,

yet I am relaxingly listening to my blog song with putting on a pair of earphone on my ear while doing my assignment.

The purpose that I stepped into the uni computer pool for merely to do an assignment is to avoid thinking of her,

because when I stay at home alone; I will be thinking of the past repetitively.

I tried to avoid enclosed myself at home solely; especially in my bedroom.

Now, I am still in the uni computer pool alone,

because we having two weeks spring holiday right now,

nobody is in the uni besides than me,

I want let myself won't be influenced by any distraction; especially past distraction.

The most importantly,

I am telling myself that my thoughts are not being controlled by her.

I am so strong than anyone else,

my heart is morbidly solid; won't be vacillate by any matters.

At the moment when I go back to M'sia on this December,

no matter how she knocks my heart hardly or what she gonna does to me,

my thoughts and soul are still determined, won't be affected and wouldn't being manipulate by her.

 

 

Clar!

Stay strong; don't because of what she did to you then become entirely fragile,

remember, no tears next time; whether outside or inside,

 

 

don't because of some stimulating words, suffering  or violence images and burst into tears.

Say no way to tears is the first step of conquering of fear.

You must be very very strong and willingly to suffer in this recovering process.

 

 

 

Try to wear more colorful to make life more wonderful...