Culture changed; personality changed
In the twinkling of an eye,
unwittingly I have been stay in Australia up to 1 year.
And within this period,
I did undergo 360 degree personality transformation at this moment;
from a very innocent person to a very realistic person,
from a very universal person to a very materialistic person,
from a non-branded carrying person to a very branded obsessive person,
from a very weak person to a very strong person,
from a very dependant person to very independant person,
from a very submissive person to a very leading person.
Entirely,
my character had go through a huge turning point in life.
I don't really know whether its my growing factor or peer influenced?
Mummy told me
"Because you got peer influenced; everyone surround you are rich people, so when they are using branded and unwittingly you followed their culture."
I could even answered her
"Of course! You know? If you dont have a branded bag totally cant survive here! People will look you up and down ones know? So, if our ability can afford until how where, just buy until where... If our ability can afford up to Prada, then just buy Prada! And when you go Italy next week, help me buy Prada know? Now my friends all tell me LV out already... LV is cheap ones...'
Mummy even laughed when I said like that,
she laughed and said
'Wahhhh.... Hao Lian oh... LV still say cheap?'
I said
'Anah! I asked them LV and Prada which is better? I asked 3 person at a different time, 3 person also telling me the same thing, they said LV two three thousand got already... but Prada is at least 5 thousand and up ones... And when I went google checked, it also answered me Prada. Tee Syi Rui asked her mum go KLCC see the Prada price, the bag I wanted is $8K plus... so next week when you go Italy will get 20 percent off cheaper, because Italy is the branded land... they got lower tax... at there maybe $7K got already.... And my few friends said nowadays LV all big production ones... like everyone also can carry, but Prada only got a few limited edition, is like one design only got 2-3 stocks only... so not cincai cincai people can carry ones... Remember! Buy Prada, dont buy LV ah mi!'
That's the first time,
mummy keep laughing and shocked I answered her that materialistically way,
she happy because she seen how I grow here.
When she came here visits me,
she even laughed at me because I had mixed into the rich culture,
she was so surprised I taught her how to hold a wine glass and shake counterclockwisely.
Even papa also laughed at me when I taught mama how to taste a wine like an Australian.
I said
"When you first taste a wine, you say: beautiful."
And my that "Beautiful", I spoke in Australian slang.
This made papa and mama keep laughing at me.
Because I learned their culture and spoke their slang.
The most I seen daddy mummy happy was when I picked them in a cab,
when I told the cab driver
"Hi, can we move to the city, Charles street Adelaide? Thanks.'
Mummy even laughed till cried.
I asked her
'Why you cried?'
She said
'My daughter speak Australia slang. Happy die me.'
I said
'Of course lah! I stay here for how long d? If still cant speak their slang, I am retarded d lah!'
Mummy even laughed and said
'Also true! You Dao Li You Dao li....'
I said
'Just like a baby, until one year old already still cant babbling, that one abnormal d!'
Mummy said
'I liked to hear you speak Australia slang leh... totally sounds like Amolang.... haha!'
I even joked and said
'Of course like Amolang lah! I already wore that triangle bikini to the beach for how many times liao?'
When mummy heard that,
she even laughed and said
'Adui adui! My goodness! That one too open already!'
I said
'What goodness??!! In Australia, go beach never wear bikini is abnormal know? People think why this person come beach never wear bikini, come here for what? Some more, some people even never wear you know? So got wear consider very secretive already!'
When I said like that,
everyone laughed super duper loud! LOL !
When our joyous conversation happened in the cab,
daddy is listening and enjoying our talk,
I could see out he is happy too;
but his emotion wasn't so exaggerting as mummy.
He merely showed his happiness apparently.
Sometimes,
daddy even disturbed me by imitating my slang,
he said 'Cool' or 'Beautiful' when eating to make me laughed.
The most funny,
Huay Ling even talked to me about papa at the back,
she said
'Funny! Papa keep on follow your slang and said "Yeah yeah Sure" when the waiter served him.'
"Because you got peer influenced; everyone surround you are rich people, so when they are using branded and unwittingly you followed their culture."
I could even answered her
"Of course! You know? If you dont have a branded bag totally cant survive here! People will look you up and down ones know? So, if our ability can afford until how where, just buy until where... If our ability can afford up to Prada, then just buy Prada! And when you go Italy next week, help me buy Prada know? Now my friends all tell me LV out already... LV is cheap ones...'
Mummy even laughed when I said like that,
she laughed and said
'Wahhhh.... Hao Lian oh... LV still say cheap?'
I said
'Anah! I asked them LV and Prada which is better? I asked 3 person at a different time, 3 person also telling me the same thing, they said LV two three thousand got already... but Prada is at least 5 thousand and up ones... And when I went google checked, it also answered me Prada. Tee Syi Rui asked her mum go KLCC see the Prada price, the bag I wanted is $8K plus... so next week when you go Italy will get 20 percent off cheaper, because Italy is the branded land... they got lower tax... at there maybe $7K got already.... And my few friends said nowadays LV all big production ones... like everyone also can carry, but Prada only got a few limited edition, is like one design only got 2-3 stocks only... so not cincai cincai people can carry ones... Remember! Buy Prada, dont buy LV ah mi!'
That's the first time,
mummy keep laughing and shocked I answered her that materialistically way,
she happy because she seen how I grow here.
When she came here visits me,
she even laughed at me because I had mixed into the rich culture,
she was so surprised I taught her how to hold a wine glass and shake counterclockwisely.
Even papa also laughed at me when I taught mama how to taste a wine like an Australian.
I said
"When you first taste a wine, you say: beautiful."
And my that "Beautiful", I spoke in Australian slang.
This made papa and mama keep laughing at me.
Because I learned their culture and spoke their slang.
The most I seen daddy mummy happy was when I picked them in a cab,
when I told the cab driver
"Hi, can we move to the city, Charles street Adelaide? Thanks.'
Mummy even laughed till cried.
I asked her
'Why you cried?'
She said
'My daughter speak Australia slang. Happy die me.'
I said
'Of course lah! I stay here for how long d? If still cant speak their slang, I am retarded d lah!'
Mummy even laughed and said
'Also true! You Dao Li You Dao li....'
I said
'Just like a baby, until one year old already still cant babbling, that one abnormal d!'
Mummy said
'I liked to hear you speak Australia slang leh... totally sounds like Amolang.... haha!'
I even joked and said
'Of course like Amolang lah! I already wore that triangle bikini to the beach for how many times liao?'
When mummy heard that,
she even laughed and said
'Adui adui! My goodness! That one too open already!'
I said
'What goodness??!! In Australia, go beach never wear bikini is abnormal know? People think why this person come beach never wear bikini, come here for what? Some more, some people even never wear you know? So got wear consider very secretive already!'
When I said like that,
everyone laughed super duper loud! LOL !
When our joyous conversation happened in the cab,
daddy is listening and enjoying our talk,
I could see out he is happy too;
but his emotion wasn't so exaggerting as mummy.
He merely showed his happiness apparently.
Sometimes,
daddy even disturbed me by imitating my slang,
he said 'Cool' or 'Beautiful' when eating to make me laughed.
The most funny,
Huay Ling even talked to me about papa at the back,
she said
'Funny! Papa keep on follow your slang and said "Yeah yeah Sure" when the waiter served him.'
Truthfully, for my point of view,
I think I changed because I grown;
ain't that everyone would naturally seek for branded as one's grow?
Doubtlessly,
people around me had noticed my personality had changed.
Certainly,
my deep down felt it too; I could truly felt I am changed too.
Yet,
I changed unconciously.
But at the moment I realized I've changed,
I could perceived the solid transformation reason.
The solid reason I changed realistically because I don't want to being used by poor people anymore.
The solid reason I became stronger because I don't want live under her shadow anymore.
The solid reason I am a controlling or leading person today because I don't wanna have the feeling of dark shadow is still presence.
Vividly recalled,
Hung Kiat's sis asked me
'Ask you a very private question here, you like to be a controlling person?'
I said
'Yes, I do.'
She said
'I thought man supposed to be have very strong self-image, but my brother tend to listen to your everything and under your control.'
I answered her
'First is because your brother loved me too much and he afraid I get angry so he follows me, second is because your brother has used to be a submissive person. Everyone has own past, and certainly, people changed accordingly to environmental factors and past experience. I knew your brother had told you about the teacher and me?'
She said
'Yes....'
I said
'Your brother prefer to being controlled because he has already used to listen to your mum's everything in past, so since has been used to, he already used to listen to others and follow, but I am different, nevertheless I had the same situation as him in past, the teacher did to me as what your mum did to him, the teacher controlled me as how your mum controlled him, so I would think whenever I am being controlled, I would feel the shadow is presence. So, to get rid the feeling of dark shadow is presence, I want to be a very leading or controlling person instead of being controlled. This is our difference. He lives in past; lives in habit, but I live in presence, I changed myself to move on.'
Hung Kiat's sis even said me
'Wahhh... you very strong leh.... you are super woman. I liked you this kind of person.'
I said
'Actually, I am not strong but is because everyone think differently. Just like both of us experienced the same thing in past but why behaved differently at this moment? Because everyone got own thinking, for him, he think since he already used to follow others so he just willingly to follow, but for me, I think I want to be controlling so I wont being controlled and when I not being control, so I won't feel the shadow is within me. And definitely, another reason I am controlling is because I knew I am really stubborn, I cant follow and obey others, so I tend to be a feminist.'
Today, I am who I am.
I am considered thankful to the past,
because it transformed me into who I am and brought me into a leading adult.
Besides,
I am thankful to the person who hurt me too.
If wasn't her, I won't have today,
if wasn't her, I won't change who I am,
if wasn't her, I won't be so leading and controlling,
if wasn't her, I wouldn't know what so called a true hurt,
if wasn't her, I won't be so strong here,
if wasn't her, I wouldn't know what's a solid tear,
if wasn't her, I wouldn't have new character today.
A new born character which behave so strong, so realistic and so materialistic.
I wanna prove to her and prove to the rest of people.
Prove to the people who used of me that I am realistic today, I don't being used easily anymore.
Prove to the one who hurt me in past that I am materialistic today, even she brought me a trauma of seventeen, but I still live better than her, I still survive materialistically more than her.
To be frankly,
I don't really know whether my character transformation is good or bad?
I don't really can estimate whether my new character will bring a regret in my future or no?
But I am still thankful to what past lead me today :)
Because,
now I've used to live in the materialistic surrounding,
I loved my friends now so much.
I am more comfortable to breathe in an ambience of 'branded' talk.
Whenever we hung out for a high tea or a 'sit down' desserts,
we will definitely start a conversation about branded stuff and end a conversation with the same thing.
And sometimes,
we few people could sit down and talked about branded for few hours.
Yeah!
Now,
I've used to entering this kind of elegant ambience that a universal people wouldn't understand.
That is why people always say
'Poor people talk about which mamak is the best and rich people talk about which brand is the best.'
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