Mischievous growing memories
After a couple of days chat with Lim Kim Neo,
yesterday,
when I prepared to sleep in the midnight; lying on the soft pillow,
when I began to closed up my eyes,
somehow I suddenly recalled of she said the sentence
'Nobody wants to hires you, because you hyperactive can't follow instruction.'
At that moment,
I pondered did I ? I really cant follow instruction?
On that night, I lying on the pillow,
I think of just now I asked Hung Kiat this question before hang up phone call with him,
I asked him what does lcl means by I cant follow instruction?
What means cannot follow instruction? She is my instructor meh? HAHA!
He answered me
'I think cannot follow instruction means nge nge dont listen? I think her meaning is for example she ask you do something, you dont want means dont want that type.'
Being unreasonably,
I straight think of the time when I worked as part time actress at KL.
The first scene,
the director wants me to act as a customer loitering in a 7 eleven.
The second scene,
he wants me to act a scene of customer paying bill,
he borrowed a $10 dollar to me,
he told me
'When you see there got people hint you, then you stand up, take this $10 go counter, when you reach counter, that cashier lady will give you a bill cover, when you look at the bill cover, then you give her this $10. After you pay this $10, the cashier lady will pretend return you money, then after you get the money she return you, you put down the bill cover and left the cafe.'
Although I've understood his instruction but when the shooting began I did a different thing.
The director even scolded me in Cantonese
'Xiu Jie... yao mou common sense ah? After you paid a bill in cafe, you cannot get the bill cover out of the cafe!'
I don't really why just a simple instruction,
I'd NG for 3 times! LOL!
Although I heard what he said and had understood but did a different at the end,
I keep on took away the bill cover after paid bill !
Funny!
During the first time NG,
everyone keep laughed at me because the director scolded me don't have common sense.
Also true,
who else will took away the bill cover out of a cafe after paying bill?
LOL!
LOL!
Perhaps,
this is what Lim Kim Neo meant?
Hyperactive can't follow instruction?
When she said me hyperactive cant follow instruction;
on that night I straight think of the experience I went acting at KL and think of I non stop NG because of that small scene.
Sometimes,
I always think of what she said about me.
I said
'Your mum didnt even asked me dont come but said go back only.'
She said
'My mum did, but you are the one who doesnt care and never listen when people talked to you.'
But in my impression,
I really didn't heard before.
Indeed,
I am wondering whether she bluffed me or I really didn't heard?
But the truth is she said her mum said a lot of times already,
but how come I didn't heard before?
If let say her mum really had told 10 times; I think at least I will heard 3 times.
But how come I never heard before?
Or her mum just spoke once so I missed that time?
To be frankly, from what she said ;
a lot people also told me the same thing as what she told me that sentence
'Because you always seem do not listen when people talked to you'
It's time to do some self-reflection perhaps,
certainly,
a lot people told me I always seem do not listen when people talked to me,
two lecturers told me the same thing, Chin yean also told me when I was young always seem don't care when people talked to me, my previous homestay owner also told me before, now lim kim neo told me.
5 persons told me the same thing :(
I am thinking did I?
Thus,
I asked Chin Yean,
I said
'Eh... that time you told me when i was primary school, my pattern is dont care when people talked to me. What meaning? For example how? Because a lot people telling me the same thing. So I want to know what is their exact meaning.'
She said
'Means last time I same class with you for 5 years, standard 1-5, when teacher told you something, you looked at her, but you look like never listen that type. Means for example teacher asked you dont wear PJ shirt after PJ, must change back pinafore. You stand in front of her, you heard already, but you still wear PJ shirt after PJ, so I think is maybe you standing in front of her, but you didn't heard what she said so you will repeat doing the same thing. Teacher caned you a lot of times already but you still dont care ones.'
*when she said like that, I straight recalled of what lcl said, totally the almost same examples
she said
'My mum told you in front of you, at the car there, but you dont care and doesn't seem to listen.'
*Their key words are "dont care" and "doesn't seem to listen/didn't heard"
When I recalled of what lcl said,
I straight recalled of what my homestay owner said me,
when Jess was talking to me,
she suddenly told Jess
'No, she is not listening. Haha! I look at her face I know.'
When I heard she said like this,
I straight stop daydreaming and looked at her.
She laughed and said
'Haha! I know you are not listening. I knew your habit since first say I saw you. You always ah ah ah or ok ok ok even you are not listening.'
Funny!
Imagine a caucasian saying ah ah ah!
LOL !
I am thinking is that my favourite quotation as response?
'Ah ah ah' or 'Ok ok ok'
Even a Caucasian also able to imitate my slang and style!
Laugh die me!
Laugh die me!
At the same time,
I think of last semester my desktop publishing lecturer told me in class
'Please follow my instruction, I teach one step, you have to follow one step, everyone are following, but you are daydreaming.'
When I looked at others computer screen,
LOL he almost teach till half already,
people almost done half, I still remain at 25% only!
Funny!
Everyone already at the content section,
but I still stop at banner section and daydreaming!
LOL!
But at the end,
I am very lucky to get a distinction for that subject.
Because I certainly have a good computing skill,
before final,
I looked through the textbook for how to do a website, dealing with HTML, XML, link, error code, how to do multiple tab in a website, look at the design and memorize all the theories, principles and a lot lah!
Duh!
Forgot everything after exam!
This semester,
another lecturer saying me the same thing.
When class dismissed,
I am the first one who kept the book fastest and think to rush out the classroom as the first one,
the lecturer stopped me,
he asked me to stay down and he wanted to talked something to me.
After everyone left,
I asked him
'What you want to tell me?'
he told me
'Please concentrate in class and listen. I feel like you dont like stay in class.'
I said
'What dont like stay in class? I got which time missed your class?'
He answered me
'Yes, you are in class and attend every class, but you seem did not listen when I am talking, you just staring around and dont care. You just wait time to pass then quickly go back. When I asked everyone to form a group to discuss, you just refuse to mix people, continue day dreaming and did nothing. When I said class dismiss, you are the first one who rushed out the class every time.'
When this lecturer said like this,
I am thinking
'Do I really dont like stay in class?'
Indeed,
I think of screen matters lecture,
it's a subject about movie,
every lesson we have to watch movie in the lecture and use the movie that we observed during lectue to write an essay when we go back,
the movie in the lecture usually long lasting 2 hours.
And I always sneak out the lecture silently after 30 minutes,
I sneak out the class when the movie in ongoing; light is off,
LOL! Nobody knows.
Just like sneak out a cinema, who knows?
Haha!
I don't know why I just disliked to watch movie other than Taiwan love drama,
and I am a very exaggerating person;
I always perceived movie as real,
when a Hollywood movie is play on the screen,
once I heard the gun shooting sounds,
I straight cried very loud in class because I thought the bullet shoot until me :(
Luckily,
everybody see nothing even heard someone crying.
Sometimes,
a violence scene like a man took a sharp object hit someone's head till blooded,
I straight cried very loud too.
Because too scary already, I can't manage to see scary scene.
And sometimes,
they could even play sexual scene during the lecture.
Both man and woman never wear and kissing around :(
I told Hung Kiat that lecturer siao one.
Hung Kiat said
'Amolang is like that ones. They dont care ones. They like to watch violence and sexual one.'
I said
'I dont know why I dont know watch movie ones, when I heard the person talked in the scene for 5 minutes already, I would automatic became never listen ones. Then after 5 minutes, I listened back, I already don't know what they are talking about and what's going on.'
Hk even laughed and said
'haha! I remembered my sis asked me: when Clarissa go watch movie with you, will she keep asking what happening all that or not?'
I said
'Then what you said?
He said
'haha! I told her I only went cinema once with Clarissa only because Clarissa dont like watch movie ones... the first time we go watch movie, after 30 minutes like that she keep saying very boring then she straight walked out the cinema go shopping. Then after that time I never go watch movie with her already. Then my sis keep laughing very loud, she said zha dao! She said first time heard people dont like watch movie ones...'
I said
'Ya lo! A lot people also said I very weird because dont like watch movie. Why? Nobody dont like watch movie ones?'
He said
'Anah! Watch movie is like play computer like that, can watch movie everyone also want.'
I said
'I remembered when I was young, my father will brought us one family go watch Incredible or superman, like all those trendy film. Because my father is around then I dont dare go out the cinema, I always sleep in the cinema. Can say no one time I never sleep when watch movie in the cinema with my father.'
He said
'Then your father dont know you sleep?'
I said
'Knew la... he asked me: Ah Ching! The movie nice or not? I said: Har! Just now I sleep leh, I dont like watch movie ones... Then he said: Chi Da Bian! Pay money already you come in sleep! Hahaha!'
He said
'Hahaha! Very funny! can imagine your father said like this.'
I asked him
'Do you think I very weird?? Everyone like to watch movie but I am the only one who dont like to watch movie.'
He said
'Haha! Maybe hyperactive?'
I said
'Hyperactive got this symptom dont like watch movie ones?
He said
'Dont know, now you go Google check hyperactive symptoms lah... see whether got this symptoms or not then know already.'
I said
'Ok, now I in front of computer. I check now, wait me.'
LOL!
I typed in Google search engine
'Hyperactive people symptoms'
It came out like this!
Signs and symptoms
Based on the presenting symptom ADHD can be divided into three subtypes—predominantly inattentive, predominantly hyperactive-impulsive, or combined type if criteria for both other types are met.[23]:p.4
An individual with inattention may have some or all of the following symptoms:[25]
- Be easily distracted, miss details, forget things, and frequently switch from one activity to another
- Have difficulty maintaining focus on one task
- Become bored with a task after only a few minutes, unless doing something enjoyable
- Have difficulty focusing attention on organizing and completing a task or learning something new
- Have trouble completing or turning in homework assignments, often losing things (e.g., pencils, toys, assignments) needed to complete tasks or activities
- Not seem to listen when spoken to
- Daydream, become easily confused, and move slowly
- Have difficulty processing information as quickly and accurately as others
- Struggle to follow instructions
An individual with hyperactivity may have some or all of the following symptoms:[25]
- Fidget and squirm in their seats
- Talk nonstop
- Dash around, touching or playing with anything and everything in sight
- Have trouble sitting still during dinner, school, doing homework, and story time
- Be constantly in motion
- Have difficulty doing quiet tasks or activities
An individual with impulsivity may have some or all of the following symptoms:[25]
- Be very impatient
- Blurt out inappropriate comments, show their emotions without restraint, and act without regard for consequences
- Have difficulty waiting for things they want or waiting their turns in games
- Often interrupts conversations or others' activities
After I read this to Hung Kiat through the phone,
Hk even said
'Wah! Lye Chuin Li said one so Chun ah? Cannot follow instructions. haha!'
I said
'Aiya she dont know ones lah! She just simply say but the symptom coincidence there only...'
He said
'Also true! She study law not study doctor.'
I said
'Oh yea! When mention of doctor, Chin Yean now study final year psychology already, everyone also said she got doctor ingredient.... like she knew very details things ones... Evelyn you know? That fat fat ones?'
He said
'Ah why?'
I said
'Evelyn asked Chin Yean: Very admired Clarissa stature! Clarissa everyday eat sweet sweet one, coffee put 6 packs sugar and everyday drink chatime and go eat high tea, why she wont fat ones? But why I eat one time high tea then fat already? Then Chin Yean straight said: Because everybody body system different, Clarissa's body high metabolism rate, so when she eat things, straight dissolve, the fat all dissolve immediately, so she wont fat, want to eat how sweet also can, but yours, I think is you slow metabolism rate, your body digest very slow, so fat still store inside.... Dont you think Chin yean can become doctor already?'
Hk said
'Got doctor ingredients lo...'
I said
'Next year she graduate, then following year she wants study Master.'
he said
'wah! So geng ah?'
I said
'Anah! All biological things she know ones.... She is natural smart type ones... she normally never study ones, always go shopping and go play like me, but know everything.
He said
'Chin yean knew you hyperactive?'
I said
'Knew la... she primary school same class with me from standard 1-5, then secondary school she studied pay fong, I studied GBS, but we still got come out together, then she said the way I behaved when I was primary school is hyperactive.'
He said
'What she said you when you were in primary school?'
I said
'Haha she keep on said I disturb people, like anything can disturb I will disturb. And said a lot of things that I own self also cannot remembered. Funny! She said teacher want to caned me, I refused to let teacher caned me, then I straight sit on floor (in front blackboard), sit until 1 period. Then teacher no choice, when bell ring, the teacher went out the class without cane me! Hahaha! But I dont remembered. She said ones. She just said I balik balik disturb people, and that one I remembered. I can from morning go to school disturb people until after school also disturb people. haha! Schedule full !'
He said
'Haha how you schedule?'
I said
'Last time my driver always very early fetch me to school, because need to fetch my elder brother to St. David and elder sister to Durian Daun, so he always fetch Huay Ling and me to school first. Then about 6:50 am I will reached school, when I reached school, the sky still dark, I will quickly put my bag in class then rushed to canteen, I sat on the canteen bench and wait the canteen Uncle to come, then he will comes at around 7am, then I will start disturb him until 7:30 a.m like that, people start reading chinese poems already I still continue disturb in canteen, I always took his selling eraser and ran away, made him come and chased me, because he was 60+ years old, cant run fast mah... then I like to made him chase me because I think he cant chase me I very excited, then when bell ring, I get into class, I disturbed one mental retarded boy in my class until teacher came, like simply said him Inspector Ping all those! Haha! Then until recess around 9:15 a.m like that, my school everyday always got one orang gila young man will ride bicycle stop outside my school, got one fence apart from him, then I always shouted him OI ! Then threw stone at him! Haha! Then when he look like rush over, I quickly run away... but impossible he can rush over me because got one fence... then disturb until bell ring, when I get into class I continue disturb that retarded boy, simply said him all those... simply said his father inspector... then when he naik gila keep hitting the table I keep laughing hahaha like that... then when teacher teaching in front, last time when I was primary school consider very tall ones, I was arranged to sit behind ones... then I always disturbed one girl who sitting in front of me, because she always tied two braids to school, then when teacher is teaching, I always pulled her braids haha! or throw rubber pieces to her, until bell ring, school dismissed, I will go under the tree there played chasing with boys until my driver came! Haha!'
Hk even laughed and said
'Zha Dao! Like that also can! really disturb people from morning till school dismissed.'
I said
'That is why Chin yean said I very sampat ! I told her when I was form 1, everyone from SJK(C) Pay Teck was shocked because said me 360 degree changed so serious already. Then she said ya la because when you primary school very siao ones... then I told her I never try to change myself, but when I reached standard 6, when I transferred to another school already then automatic dont have like that already, then she said maybe I changed when I grown up.... Then Chin yean said when I was primary 1-3 very very crazy ones... then she said standard 4 get better already... also got siao... but not that siao as standard 1-3... then she said I standard 5 get better than standard 4. That is why when I form one, everyone said me eat wrong medicine and became another person haha.'
Hk said
'Haha! I dont know how you primary school, I just knew you form 1 and form 2 very siao ones! Then form 3 still got a bit siao... but now that serious as form 1 and form 2, then you form 4 and form 5 become normal edi, I still can saw you sit in library do add math...'
I said
'Anoh anoh! Chloe also said I get bettter a lot... she said I get better after form 5, and she said I form 1 and form 2 is worst then form 3-5.... she said last time form 1 very crazy ones... she said she just beside my class, last time she 1 Amanah, I 1C, then she said last time when she sit in class, suddenly saw me ran to behind form 1 block, then got indian parade at the Hindu street, I straight shouted Oi one sound very loud at the indians when they doing parade! Hahaha! But I dont remembered!'
He said
'Anah! I remembered last time form 1 you very siao ones... I remembered last time form 1, you went Mr. Chin tuition, before you come tuition and at the time you went back, you must pressed his bell, then sampai he told us that he asked your mum dont let you come edi... then form 3, you went James Ho English tuition, then James Ho said your English very good then said you no need study also your PMR English can guarantee get A already, then he always left you alone, then during the 2 hours tuition you very siao ones... you did a lot of things when James Ho was teaching, sampat ones! Haha! James Ho gave you Ping Pong ball and Ping Pong raquet then locked you in a room. Then after 2 hours, he unlocked the room, then you came out, whatever you see, you also disturbed, James Ho said you took his champion and burn....'
I said
'Seriously? Hahaha! how I got fire?'
He said
'Got lighter at there la... You also know James Ho got smoke ones, his lighter put everywhere... Then until the last time, James Ho said you took duster rubbed the wall, and made him need to hire people come and cat the wall white color again... then he said keep you this type of student = Dao Tie... need to spend more money instead of earn money from you, then he said he buang tuition you hahaha! Funny! he said people buang sekolah you buang tuition! LOL! And when you go james ho tuition you always go under table!'
I said
'I really got so kua zhang? Hahahaha! But I can imagined because i always go under the table! Even at chemistry tuition!'
He said
'Got lah! I remembered last time form 2 you very crazy ones... last time form 2 when you saw Tee Syi Rui hailed with you, then you straight ran out the class even Pn Fang teaching in class. hahaha! zha dao!'
I said
'I dont remembered this. But I remembered an almost similar thing like this, last time form 1, Judy taught me English and KH. Then I remembered her class always very boring, then last time our form 1 block at perhimpunan there, whenever got people PJ, play badminton outside our class, then I will straight rushed out class and played with them even Judy is teaching in class. Haha! Because Judy not fierce ones... so I dont care... straight rushed out and played!'
He said
'Hahaha! Zha dao! Then how Judy?'
I said
'Judy straight stand at the class door there and shouted: Wai wai wai! Ngoh Huay Ching! Ngoh Huay Ching! Come in! But that time, dont know why even I heard, but I cant listen hers that type. Means when I am playing, even people calling me, I dont care ones....'
Hk laughed and said
'hahaha! I knew that type of feeling, you played till too ru shen edi....'
I said
'maybe lo... because Judy is like after 5-10 minutes like that only she called me come in, she not straight call me at the moment I rush out the class. I remembered last time Judy is the most not fierce teacher when form 1, then when she taught me KH, you know bilik jahitan?'
he said
'Ah I knew! Beside bilik seni ones....'
I said
'Hahahah! When she brought us into the bilik jahitan... got 4 rows very low tables you know? like people sit on the floor and sew clothes on that table ones? I straight jump across the table one by one! from the first table jumped until the last table hahaha!'
*Outside bilik Jahitan
Hk laughed and said
'Har! Then not toi toi toi toi like that?'
i said
'Anah! Then Judy shouted me: Ngoh huay ching! Ngoh Huay Ching! Come down! I say come down! But I dont care hahaha continue jump! Because she not fierce ones... and I think very nice to jump like this then I dont care her... Then when got people PJ, played badminton outside bilik jahitan, I straight rushed out and played with them. After that Judy asked me come in, you know what she told me?'
He said
'What?'
I said
'She told me: Huay Ching, look at your watch, I want to see you whether can sit down 5 minutes or not? Now 9:45. I want to see whether can until 10:00 or not.'
Hk even laughed and said
'Zha dao! Then how you?'
I said
'That time I also dont know why I go and listen hers and do idiot thing! I really sit there and keep look at my watch, because that time my watch is digital ones mah... then I really sit there 5 minutes and look at my watch 5 minutes, then when I saw my watch 5 minutes already, I still go and tell her: Judy judy! 5 minutes already! Because she said I want to see whether you can blah blah blah can or not... then I also followed her... like prove to her I can like that...'
Hk even laughed and said
'hahaha zha dao! You still really sit down and watch your watch for 5 minutes! Why your person so funny ones? I think if for other people like Maurice or Yap Wai Seng, they will say crazy then walk away! Hahaha!'
I said
'Anah! Actually I think I secondary school really get better a lot already compared to primary school, I primary school lagi siao! So people said me chi cuo yao when saw me when I was form 1, suddenly became so quiet.'
He asked
'Then why Pn Lye want to catch you when you form 3, form 4 and form 5? I remembered you already changed a lot after form 1 and form 2 lo...'
I said
'That is the main point I want to say! I form 3 also nothing mah... come out from the class only, you see I form 1 and form 2 so siao also she didnt find me... but form 3 a bit a bit she comes and find me!'
He said
'I think maybe when you form 1 and form 2 she dont know you got like that so never come and find you...'
I said
'Ah! Also true lah! because when I form 1 and form 2 not close with her. I just remembered last time when form 1 and form 2, I still not close with her, then she always passed by people silently, means I dont know she passed by, then when I do silly thing, then she will suddenly shouted : Eh!... like that... just like that only... and I just remembered last time form 1, dont know why I saw her lips thin thin like that like very fierce like that, then when she passed by my class, when I running in class, I would suddenly 360 degree stop moving like that when saw she staring at me, is like robot like that... imagine you run until half then suddenly stop moving... or when I swinging the class gate, then when she suddenly passed by, I would suddenly blank, never swing anymore, but will blank and continue standing on the gate and look at her.'
Hk even said
'Zha dao! I think your person easy to get frighten that type.'
I said
'anah! A lot people also said my person cannot get frighten ones....'
he said
'Then I think you and Pn Lye's relationship start from form 1 lah? Not form 3?'
I said
'I knew how to say edi... form 1, form 3, form 4 and form 5. Because when form 2, my class at science lab there, she never come here ones... so she never see me. Form 4 still got a bit with her, because last time I knew dont know she teach what class, got passed by my class. But last time when form 2, totally never see her at that block. I think form 2 is the most peaceful year for me, because Alex and Siew teaching form 6, also never walk till that block. Pn Lye not always teach last class ones? like 2G or 2H? Both of that classes at library there mah... so I think that is the reason never see her... I tell you, form 3 and form 5 is the worst! Wuuuuu..... she taught 3A and 3H, because last time I 3D is middle class mah, my class at middle, so always want to walk out that block also hard! Because she always at 3A and 3H... and I think she still got teach C class ah if not mistaken... passed by eh one time passed by eh one time... chao dao yao shi! People saw her also she said: Ok! Call ambulance! '
When I said like that,
Hk really cant stop laughing!
HAHAHA!
I said
'Passed by eh one time passed by eh one time... chao dao yao shi...'
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